Today I had to change the date and location of my NCLEX. I was originally going out of state to take my test and I would have had to fly there. I have spent the last month mentally preparing for this flight and test. Today when I checked the travel bans, this state was included on it.
The only reason I was going out of state in the first place was because my state didn’t have any test dates available till December.
Out of desperation, I checked my states testing sites again and I found a spot open only two days earlier than my original date and it was 15 minutes away from me.
All of this is good news right? I don’t have to fly, worry about travel restrictions, or catching COVID. The site is 15 minutes away and my appointment time is at noon. I can sleep in and still have my cup of coffee and cuddle my little squish in the picture above.
The problem is I don’t like change. Now I have to mentally prepare for taking the test here and what it will entail. I am happy though that I can go see the testing center when ever I want too. That will really help me mentally prepare. I might even go tomorrow.
I was diagnosed with adjustment disorder when I was a senior in high school. Research shows that having adjustment disorder when younger is common among those with dependent personality disorder. I suck at change.
I am no longer feeling care free like I have been since returning from my week break. I have emotional turmoil and I know exactly what it’s from, but there is nothing I can do about it right now. I have to bide my time till after I take my test. I am trying to listen to my lofi beats, I am going to read later and watch Bob’s Burgers, and I am going to say my positive affirmations.
My therapist will be happy that I am no longer flying, since it was a concern of hers. I see her next week and we are supposed to go over strategies to keep me calm before my test.
I am going to pass my NCLEX.
