you've been diagnosed with an STD, it can easily feel like you are all alone. Whether you've recently contracted an infection, or you've had one for a long time, the stigma and shame associated with having an STD can be incredibly isolating. It's not unusual to feel like no one else in the world understands what you're going through. However, the statistics tell us that is simply not the case.
For those who care lol! Made my third disclosure of the year to a guy I was actually romantically interested in. He was very accepting and kind but he was a kind person in general, he accepted me without hesitation. Unfortunately we cut things off before things got too serious and it’s sad but it’s like that whenever I lose connection with anyone, even people I decided to cut connection with! I accepted a lot of things from him because I liked him and ignored things he did to make things work but in the end it still didn’t quite work out that way so remember to never compromise on your boundaries. Will update again!
Permanently Eliminate the Herpes Virus from Your Body
The word "herpes Virus" conjures up different images for different people. For some, an ugly and annoying cold sore or blister that periodically appears on the lips. For others, a feared sexually transmitted disease that brings a lifetime of suffering.
Viruses are the smallest known microbes, or infectious agents, that medical science has discovered to date. Most viruses consist of a nucleic acid surrounded by a protein coat known as a capsid; this nucleic acid-protein complex is referred to as a nucleocapsid.
If the herpes virus remained in the skins cells where initial viral attachment occurs, chances are that a healthy immune system could eventually control the infection and rid the body of the virus. The herpes virus however has found a way to hide from the immune system by hibernating in nerve cells.
For unknown reasons the herpes virus does not start the replicating process in a select number of nerve cells, instead hibernating and establishing a latent infection. When the herpes virus is hybernating it is in an inactive state and can not be detected by the immune system. This inactive state is referred to as latent infection or simply latency. Latency does not cause illness but unfortunately the latent virus can reactivate and produce more virus which, in turn, causes recurrent herpes.
So Guy Permanently Eliminate the Herpes Virus from Your Body. watch this Helpful Video & Cure Herpes in No Time.
My discovery story is as ordinary as they come. Girl meets boy, boy and girl click, boy and girl hook up, girl loses interest in boy. A few days later, I’m sitting at my desk rolling my eyes at the itching going on in my nether regions. Of course I’d get a yeast infection during one of the busiest weeks of my life at work. I wasn’t afraid of contracting STI’s from this guy. We had that conversation talking about whether we were clean. We showed each other our latest results. We were good to go. And we did.
A few days went by and the itching was moving from itching to painful. I noticed an ingrown hair that turned into 2 or 3 ingrown hairs and that’s when I got nervous. I finally told myself that the only way I’d be able to free myself from the excessive anxiety was by going and getting checked out. So with my anxiety reeling, I went to a local urgent care. I recounted my story and underwent an examination to find that I was having my first genital herpes outbreak. Back the fuck up.. what? My recent test results were clear. I had nothing. Clean slate.
I immediately started crying. All of the social stigma and flashes of sex ed in middle school and high school flooded my mind. I couldn’t face the news alone so I texted by best friend group chat that included my roommate and our other best friend. My roommate told me to come home and that I wasn’t in this alone. Our other best friend made an ice-cream run and showed up at our front door with unconditional love and support. I told my two best friends from home, 2000 miles away, and they reassured me that it was no big deal, and that I was loved no matter what. When I got home, I lost it. I immediately began spewing self hate. Both of them talked me down. One of them told me she had HPV, and the other told me she knew plenty of people with gHSV and it wasn’t a big deal. I sulked for a moment wondering if this was something I was going to tell my mom - someone that I told everything to.
I decided yes. I was going to. She was a nurse. She saw this all the time. I had never been more afraid of telling anyone anything in my life. I texted her a simple, “I found out I’m having my first herpes outbreak..” and pressed send, a lump in my throat all the way. Not even a minute later I had a response of her saying, “Ehh, welcome to the world! You’re not special.” I immediately started laughing. Leave it up to my mom to take something traumatic to me to find a way to tell me I’m not special - something we always joke about all the time. I immediately had such a sense of relief come over me and I felt calmer about it as my friends and I began looking up as much as we could about it. I told the three people I was closest to about it and was met with no judgement, no bias, no stigma. I wasn’t alone. But then came the social stuff.
Initially I was upset at said boy. Did he lie to me? I should have waited to text him but in a rage, I told him he lied to me and that he gave me herpes. He was immediately horrified. He swore up and down he was clean. He had never, ever had anything of the sort happen to him.. not even a cold sore.. except all of his siblings. He was super supportive and very apologetic. It dawned on us that even though he himself had never had symptoms of anything, that it was very possible he could be exposed to it, and he could be a carrier, but had never had an outbreak. I told him I wasn’t upset with him. How could I be pissed at someone who doesn’t even know themselves that they have it? He was just as scared as I was when I found out.
I found out the strain a few days later. HSV1 - which means it was very likely transmitted to me through oral sex. Prior to him, I had one other partner that it could have been transmitted through. I texted him - and again was met with someone completely unbiased, understanding, and supportive. He thanked me for telling him - even though we both agreed he most likely wasn’t at risk of contracting it from me, there could have been a chance I contracted it from him but he had also never had outbreaks of any sort. We had a long talk about it where he asked me if there was anything he could do for me as he showed empathy toward what I was going through. I appreciated that.
It took just a few days for my outbreak to go away once I got on a dose of Acyclovir. As it began clearing up, I told my friends I would never take “wiping normal” for granted again, and they told me we should celebrate the survival of my first outbreak. My mom texted me every day for status updates. When I told her it was gone, she sent a confetti text with “Congratulations! I have a gift coming for you in the mail because I love you!” Leave it to my weird people to make this something to celebrate, and to make it feel so normal.
I feel like I was lucky in my experience. I didn’t have to go through my first outbreak scared and alone. Instead, they held my hand, offered encouraging words, and helped me find out everything we could about the virus and the treatments out there. A few days later, one of the best friends from back home texted telling me everything she educated herself on regarding the virus and how she thought it was so unreal how stigmatized it was. I sent a shrug emoji and said, “If anything, it’s more incentive to work out, eat better, and manage my stress levels healthier to prevent more outbreaks.” Our other friend chimed in with, “And it’ll be a great filter to find out what dudes are douches immediately,” which I hadn’t even originally thought of but DAMN, she’s right.
For You
For anyone reading this, I want you to know it’s not the end of the world that you have gHSV of either type, or even oHSV. You were simply exposed to a virus. Sometimes it gets uncomfortable. But it doesn’t make you dirty or immoral. It makes you a human being. Human beings get sick. Kids run around with their crusty selves sporting cold sores all the time and no one bats an eye. The major right of passage in high school was Mono which is caused by Epstein-Barr. Once you’re exposed to that virus, it lays dormant in you forever - but very rarely it can re-awaken and you can shed that virus. HSV is the same, it’s just been used in fear mongering abstinence based sexual education teachings in the American school system for years. If anything, having HSV in any form makes you MORE normal than those who don’t have it at this point.There are treatments available to suppress the virus and make it harder to transmit. That can keep you from ever having an outbreak. You can have a normal sex life, and dating life. Carrying a virus doesn’t make you unworthy of love, and diminish your worth at all. Period.I really just want to leave you with this - if someone is willing to eat your ass but unwilling to be with you after you disclose your status and educate them on your treatment, and how you can protect them, fuck ‘em (not literally). They’re not worth your time.. and they’re going to end up getting it from the next person anyway.