A/N: my favourite, moody professor. feral. he's actually such a twat.
Content Warnings: coarse language
Sexual Content: Degradation, spitting, light bondage, spanking, slapping, age gap (10 years)
Word Count: 21.5k
Now, sit straight for Professor Styles.
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Oxford University, 1992.
âAre you actually going to put the effort into my class or do I have to get you a tutor?â
It wasnât what she was hoping for after handing in an assignment. She fought back the hot tears that sprung into her eyes and hoped he didnât see how wet they were. She was exhausted, overworked to the bone trying to balance her studies and a part-time job.
Heâd handed back the papers at the end of his class, and not long after escaped to his office down the hall. Sheâd chased after him, fumbling to keep up with him while her mind was jumbled over the failed grade. Sheâd done plenty of assignments with him and heâd passed every single one.
âI⊠I donât understand. I studied the materialââ
âWell, clearly you didnât study it enough. The years are all mixed up. If you want to be the historian that you say you do, that usually comes with not mixing up dates. I mean,â he held the paper in front of him, reciting the words sheâd written. âJulius Caesar was assassinated in March, 43 BC. Incorrect. He was assassinated in March, 44 BC. You should know this, itâs basic stuff.â
âIâm sorry, I swear it was a simple mistakeââ
âSimple mistakes will cost you your grade. In fact, it has.â
Her heart dropped. âIs there anything I can do? I can fact-check and write it all over again. Please. I want to pass this paper. IâI need to pass.â
He was always this mean. This⊠hurtful. He had no leniency towards so much as a falsely placed comma, and she could see her incorrect information pained him deeply. He was right. It was basic stuff, and internally she knew it. However, sheâd been slammed with studying and had simply made a mistake.
But he had no patience, no care if anyone in his class was overwhelmed with what he pushed onto them. Heâd been given the same load when he himself was studying. In his view, being pushed to the brink was what made him great at what he did. So, he showed his students the same respect as his professors once had.
âWhat makes you think I have the time to give you special treatment, Violet? I have enough papers to grade as is, adding yours to the pile all because you made a mistake will only set me back.â
âItâs one paper.â She begged, near on in tears again. She eyed the plaque that had his name engraved in the gold, avoiding his eyes.
Leaning back in his chair, he eyed her through his wide-framed glasses. He tapped his fingers against his thighs, clad in soft beige plaid pants. Her eyes fluttered towards his sweater, the striped shirt underneath. She lost herself in the pattern as he mulled in his thoughts.
âI want it on my desk tomorrow morning by nine oâclock.â
She could have jumped at the relief she felt. âThank you, sir.â
âJust this once. I wonât be so easy on you if it happens again.â
âIt wonât happen again.â She grinned, grabbing the paper from his outstretched hand.
"Since you're rewriting itâdo you want my honest opinion?"
"Of course." She whispered, always one to accept constructive criticism. She knew he wouldn't hold back and she mentally braced herself.
"I was bored reading your paper."
She gulped, blinking in surprise but he continued, not concerned about hurting her feelings. That wasnât what he was there forâto teach her.
"I expected more from you, Violet. To be frank, Iâm disappointed. There was no depth to it. No excitement. You did the very bare minimum. You gave me a bunch of facts, with some of the dates mixed around. Whatâs more, is that nothing about this piece made me want to read it. Tell me, what makes history so exciting?"
"Uh, I guess learning aboutâ"
"The stories. The stories make history so exciting. Stories of the people, their daily lives, and the fight for survival and victory. History would be nothing without the stories it tells."
"Yeah, I understand, now. You're right."
"Of course Iâm right. Retelling history has to be gripping. Write it again and pull me in."
His eyes scanned over his pager, alerting him that a staff meeting was about to commence. He stretched out his neck, grabbing his folder and eyeing her as he stood.
He hated the way his eyes observed her frame. Soft corduroy pants, a graphic t-shirt of a band he had never heard of. Her hair was in a bouncy ponytail, half splayed over her shoulder as she twirled a lock between her fingers.
What he didnât hate was how she feared him. Her eyes were wide with intimation as she stared at him. She was clearly so desperate to please him, not wanting to disappoint him or let him down.
She wanted to do this paper for him as much as she did for her grades. Thatâs why his tactic was to be cruel. To keep her at armâs length, but also to keep his mind at bay from wandering into risky territory.
"Is there anything else?"
"Oh, that's allâ"
"Great. I have somewhere to be."
The expectant look he gave her threw her off, but she very quickly gathered his meaning. She adjusted the strap of her bag over her shoulder and gave him a soft smile, hoping to lessen his harsh expression, yet all to no avail. His expression remained the same. She turned to leave, barely getting through the threshold before his voice reached out.
âNine oâclock, Violet.â
âYes, professor.â
She left his office, winding her way through campus, smiling at her classmates as she passed them. Oxford University. Rich with history and success. Abundant with opportunities fit for her dreams. It knew no bounds of imagination, with its old and infamous buildings and all the tales held within them.
There was something about history that made her feel alive. Reliving the past through depictions, art, studies, and discoveries. It was what drove her.
So when sheâd landed her dream Ancient History class, taught by a very highly adored historian, Harry Styles, she knew that she had a lot to prove.
She raced back to her flat after a stop at the supermarket for brainfood and energy drinks. She got stuck in, completely starting again, double and triple-checking her facts to be sure.
Her Walkman kept her company, and she cycled through her favourite CDs. She even went above and beyond, adding small details to her work that werenât overly relevant but she knew Professor Styles would enjoy reading.
As grumpy as he was, she wouldnât deny that she had a soft spot for him. For his focused gaze, his deep voice as he stood before the class and taught, and how his dimples flexed when he was talking or hiding his irritation.
Oftentimes, sheâd allow herself to admire him. To see him as a simple man. Rich in thought and graceful in the way he so confidently carried himself. He was effortlessly smart and passionate. Young but full of experience, which she found impressive amongst the older faculty.
In his early thirties, it was remarkable how far his career had soared already.
He was gorgeous. Poised and proper, with inklings of something more unhinged that she could sometimes spy through his carefully placed mask.
But then sheâd shake her head and chastise herself for thinking such thoughts about someone so above her.
He was known to be a sucker for details and personality. He hated textbook answers, even though his whole career and teachings relied purely on facts. So, she spent extra time being a little more pedantic than usual.
She wanted to impress him. He was one of the most successful historians of his impressively ripe age of thirty-two. Sheâd never wanted to let him down and she had to prove to him that she had what it took to be in his class and be worthy of his teachings. It was what motivated her to piston through her assignment and perfect it.
She was going over her paper, adding some final flares when her flatmate knocked on her door.
âVi, youâve been working on that for hours.â
âI know,â she wrote furiously, so hyper-focused on the spread of papers and books in front of her, âitâs due tomorrow.â
âYou need a break, come get a drink with us.â
Violet was that person that worked herself to the bone to maintain her grades. She was a people pleaser, and that trait stretched to her professors. She clung to every word they said and took every assignment seriously.
âDue tomorrow, Alice.â She repeated, barely blinking as she wrote and mouthed the words out to herself.
âPlease take a break before you lose your mind.â Alice could sense her friend falling into that mindset where she neglected everything aside from whatever assignment was due.
Violet sighed, pausing her work and turning to face her. âWhoâs we?â
She soon found herself dressed in an attire that completely contrasted her university jumper and sweat pants. A tiny green dress, and a little makeup applied to her tired face to make it seem as if she were actually getting any appropriate amount of sleep.
They made their way to the local bar they often frequented, meeting their group of friends who had already started on the drinks. It was then that she realised was extremely overworked and tired.
Her study load was never-ending, piling on top of her until she was suffocating. She had to take some time for herself tonight or sheâd go crazy. Her mind was constantly whirring with assignments and tests and studying.
Her paper was mostly done. Sheâd have a few drinks and then head home to finish it off. It was only nine oâclock, and she figured an hour or two wouldnât hurt.
By ten oâclock, she was feeling lighter. She stayed true to her word, only having two drinks before cutting herself off. She knew sheâd have to leave sooner rather than later, but her friends were renewing the energy she had been lacking. She couldnât leave the source of such liveliness.
There was one guy in the group who had been pining after her all year. They shared a few classes together, including Ancient History with Professor Styles. He had a bright smile and a sense of humour that she enjoyed.
âHey, Vi.â
âHi, Charlie, how are you?â
âIâm good, yourself?â
âNot bad.â
âGlad to hear it.â He smiled. âCan I get you a drink?â
He made her laugh all night, stuck to her side to enjoy her smile up close. They flirted, sending each other sultry gazes and warm, suggestive touches.
She couldnât even deny that she wished it was someone else sheâd rather be with tonight. A certain professor who wore glasses, sweaters, and displeased frowns. Perhaps that was why she threw herself head first into Charlie, wanting to forget about her sinful desires.
She felt warm and gooey, needing something to focus on other than that damn paper and the professor who was expecting it.
So, when he led her down the hallway, kissing her lips and her neck, she didnât hesitate to get lost in him.
Too lost to see her professor sitting at the bar watching as she pulled Charlie into a supply closet.
âI have to say, Miss Walters. I didnât think youâd be able to do it.â
She huffed out a breath at his expression. It was like he was almost smug about it. About her having to rewrite a whole paper, work that would take weeks crammed into one night.
He was being truthful. The paper would have been difficult to complete in one night, heâd known as much when he told her that he wanted it the next morning. It was a test.
He didnât want to be played around by his students. He was tough on them for a reason, and barely ever handed out second chances as he had done with her.
So, to know that she had been out last night when she should have been at home was an insult. Sheâd fluttered her eyelashes and taken advantage of the one sliver of good nature he had in him. And here she was, a pleased smile on her face with her paper before his very eyes.
She was wearing makeup as if to hide how tired she was. It wasn't because she had stayed up all night writing his paper, but he already knew that. He looked at the assignment dubiously, doubting its contents.
âWell, I did it. Correct dates and everything.â
âItâs longer.â He said, flipping through the pages and noticing that there were a few additional ones compared to the initial few she had handed in.
She absorbed her surroundings, his office was deep woods and dim lighting. His desk was large and cluttered with books and assignments to grade, and the room was framed with bookshelves, awards, diplomas, and expensive-looking knick
knacks.
âI took your advice and made it more exciting.â
He wanted to reprimand her. Tell her that adding extra fluff didnât equal excitement or any weight to her assignment. But he swallowed his sour mood and nodded, placing the paper flat on the desk and leaning back in his chair.
His outfit was darker than his usual palette and style of light colours and unique sweaters. Instead, he donned a black shirt, a black suit jacket thrown over the top with charcoal pants. She could tell that he was in a bad mood, somehow even more irate than usual.
âIâll review it over the weekend.â
She opened her mouth to reply, but then snapped it shut. She very clearly wanted to say something and he raised a brow in encouragement.
âThank you,â she said. âFor the second chance. I hope you enjoy it.â
Enjoy it? Heâd never had a student wish that he enjoyed something they handed in. They simply wanted to meet the criteria and pass.
She turned to leave, feeling overwhelmed by his scrutinising gaze. Sheâd handed in the assignment, and had a bit of time to cram in some study before her first class of the day, which just so happened to be with the grumpy professor.
"Violet."
"Yes?"
He tapped his neck, eyeing hers. "I want that covered before you come to my class."
Her cheeks flushed with heat, her hand coming up to cover the hickey on her neck. She thought she'd done a good enough job with her concealer this morning, but apparently not.
She didn't even have the nerve to reply before she left the room, utterly mortified.
He stared after her, wondering if he'd embarrassed her. Probably. He disregarded her feelings, viewing the mark on her neck as inappropriate. He wasn't sure why the hickey bothered him so much.
Perhaps it was because she'd clearly had a late night last night, and it wasn't with the company of his teachings. He watched her take that man into that supply closet and the evidence of that was staring him in the face.
He didnât want to look at that fucking hickey on her neck because then he knew heâd have to face the reality of the fact that he was jealous.
Jealous of one of his other students putting his hands and mouth on her. His student in that tiny green dress, cheeks flushed with arousal and drink. He imagined it. How she'd taste on his tongue. The sounds she'd make. The way she felt.
He had felt pathetic about the whole thing, sitting at the bar all alone and sulking. Heâd polished off his drink at the bar after watching it happen. Heâd just as quickly gone to his cold and empty home to wallow with a bottle of tequila and some Aerosmith.
Fuck. He couldnât think about this. About her soft thighs in her tiny skirt and her bouncy ponytail. Or the way she called him professor. It wasnât right and he felt sick about it.
He checked his pager, seeing it blank and sighing. He needed something to do so he couldnât keep thinking about her. And then sheâd be staring at him during his class, her eyes wide and wandering.
Almost panicked about the prospect of being near her again, he picked up her paper and began reading it to distract himself.
Following a strenuous battle with her concealer and the sizeable hickey on her neck, Violet entered Professor Stylesâ classroom. It was mostly covered, there wasnât a lot she could do in the way of hiding it completely. However, in the back of her mind, she was perplexed that he found it his place to even say anything.
Surely he just wanted to mortify her. He had been a student once, he knew the means of getting lost in dark hallways with another warm and desperate body.
She spotted Charlie sitting in the center of the seats and he waved her over. She smiled, shaking her head. She wasnât in the mood to talk to him just yet, especially considering he was the cause of her marked neck.
She took her usual spot up front, always wanting to bathe in the professorâs teachings, and found herself lost if she was stuck in the middle of the seats.
Professor Styles wasnât in class yet, and she took the time to prepare her notes in an organised spread on the desk in front of her. She didnât even notice him silently enter, setting up at his desk with a look of disinterest.
Her body felt heated. Not the warm embarrassment of him pointing out her hickey, but because his gaze was on hers as he set down his satchel. She held his eyes, right until he looked away to retrieve the folders that held the material he needed for the class.
Decidedly ready, he stood at the center of his territory up front, his suit jacket parting as he slid his hands into his pockets. He eyed the class through his glasses, noting that no one had realised heâd entered the room yet. Except for her.
He sighed, wrinkling his nose before looking down at his oxfords. He cleared his throat, somehow garnering everyoneâs attention in a split second. He leaned back against his desk.
âAs youâre aware, Iâm obligated to drag you on a class trip abroad in the coming weeks. Iâve heard your suggestions as youâve not so subtly given them to me.â He eyed the mouthy students in question. âHowever, the board and I have discussed it and weâve come to a decision.â
Students started chattering loudly, and Violet sent a friendly smile to her friend next to her but otherwise kept her attention on Professor Styles.
âQuiet, or youâll be staying behind while I go on holiday by myself!â
His demand was heard loud and clear, and everyone became tight-lipped and watched him. He adjusted his glasses on the bridge of his nose, already dreading the idea of this trip.
The university board had been grilling him about it, and heâd been pressured into making a decision that pleased them with ridiculously limited time to sort it out.
âPompeii.â He said simply, letting it sink in for his students.
Violet felt a rush of excitement. Pompeiiâpreserved in Naples, Italy, was rich with history and had been on her bucket list for as long as she could remember.
It was a monumental part of history, and she could not wait to see it in its glory and stand where devastation rocked an ancient city so long ago.
The class talked loudly, bursting and bubbling with enthusiasm. Professor Styles remained unphased by it all, waiting until the chatter had died down before he spoke again.
âWeâll be staying in Naples, however, the focus of our trip will be Pompeii. This will be your final paper and will be half your grade. This isnât a holiday or a time to slack off. Youâre here in this room for a reason, that applies to this trip as well. Think about the history there. The people, the politics, the daily life. The power of nature and the terror that it entices.â He took a slow breath, as if bored or tired. Perhaps both. âIt wasnât my first choice, naturally. But seeing as it is one of the most famous natural disasters in ancient history, the board saw it fit to touch on, considering it differs from any other material weâve studied so far.â
âCanât we go to Paris instead, Professor Styles?â One of the girls at the back of the glass giggled. It was clear that the only reason she took this class was for someone nice to look at. âItâs the city of love.â
âLove?â He laughed but it was void of humour. âIf you want love, youâre in the wrong place. Maybe if you spent less time daydreaming, and more time paying attention, you wouldnât be failing my class.â
Violet laughed under her breath, doodling in her notebook. His eyes went to her at the sound, wondering if she found the girl's suggestion funny or his response.
She looked up at him, brushing her hair over her shoulder. He clenched his jaw and looked away, locating the documents that contained everything regarding the trip.
He handed piles to the desks in the front row, telling them to take one and pass it back. He stopped before her, placing the papers in her waiting hands and staring at her with an unreadable expression.
âSee me after class.â
âMe?â
His voice was low and deep. âYes, you.â
She was perplexed. See him after class for what? He said that heâd go over her paper during the weekend, so she doubted it would be about that.
Maybe he wanted to torment her about her neck some more. Really rub in the embarrassment and taunt her for it.
It was hard to focus during the whole class. She jotted down notes every now and again, but her mind was honed in on him. Even more so than usual. The authority in his tone as he told her to cover her neck, his confident stance, and the way his lips caressed words.
He rambled on about the trip, what to expect, and in turn what he was expecting from them. He adjusted his glasses, searching the student's expressions and finding her eyes. He ran his tongue along the inside of his cheek before looking back at his notes.
By the time class had ended, she had written down things she wasnât paying attention to. Sheâd been paying attention to him. Only him. And she couldnât even fool herself into her fascination with him strictly existing just because of his teachings. It was far past that now.
She gathered her things, the room emptying of students. She stood, her gaze falling to him, stood behind his desk organising his folders.
She approached his desk, standing before it. She noticed that his jaw clenched, looking up at her from the frame of his glasses and raising his brows.
"You wanted to see me?"
âI did.â
She waited as he righted his desk, ensuring everything was in order before he finally regarded her.
âYour paper. I want to talk to you about it.â
Her stomach dropped. âThe paper I just handed in?â
What would he have to say about it considering it had only been mere hours since heâd received it? She felt a flash of irritation, wondering if sheâd ever be able to please this man.
âI donât have time this week, so itâll have to be next Monday. Youâre my last class so Iâll be able to give you all of my attention.â
She felt warm at his words. At the promise of having his full attention, her body was alive with need and desire. His eyes were so intense, deep, and thick with thoughts she could see the complexity of.
But as the foggy haze of her absurd fantasies cleared, she frowned. Monday? It was Thursday now. Why didnât he bring this up closer to the time? Did he just want her to stew in her worry until Monday?
Surely he couldnât have read her paper already. Maybe heâd read the first paragraph only to crumble it up and lob it into his trashcan.
âIs it that bad?â
He shot her a look that she couldnât decipher. âMonday, Violet.â
As she left the classroom, completely vexed and anxious, Charlie caught up with her.
âHeâs a real piece of work, isnât he?â
âWho?â She felt like she was barely there as she navigated the old building toward her next class.
âStyles. I mean, that paper we just did, for example. He ignores all of my hard work and focuses on the shit Iâm doing wrong.â
Violet shrugged, âI mean, isnât that what makes him a great professor? He points out what you need to improve on to do better.â
âWhatever. I feel like thereâs no winning with him. At least we have this trip. You and I can ditch the group and do our own sightseeing.â
She didnât miss the way his eyes sparkled at his suggestion. And maybe if she wasnât so hung up on someone she had no business being hung up on, sheâd reciprocate Charlieâs enthusiasm.
Monday. Sheâd be seeing her favourite, constantly disgruntled professor on Monday.
It wasnât hard to keep herself distracted until then. She attended her classes, her study load growing as each one passed. Her flatmate held a party on Saturday night, in which sheâd spent most of it pressed up against Charlie, however avoiding his advances of something more.
He was sweet and funny but he wasnât what she wanted and she was just a fuck to him. She felt bad that sheâd even let that night happen. Sheâd just needed to feel something, something that wasnât the ever-pressing crush she had on her professor.
She was wrecked with intolerable thoughts about her assignment. Was he going to fail her again? Tell that she wasnât cut out for his class that sheâd battled so hard to get into?
By the time Monday came around, she was a nervous wreck. She settled herself into a private nook in the library, her Walkman on hand and her collection of her favourite CDs.
She read every single piece about Pompeii that she could find. She wanted to be even more prepared for the trip, and have a better understanding of what it might entail.
And maybe having more knowledge of it would impress her professor.
Her last class on Monday was with him. As she entered and took her usual seat, he was setting up his material, dressed in plaid pants and a cozy looking sweater.
He used the knuckle of his pointer finger to adjust his glasses and flipped a pen in his other hand, staring over his class agenda.
She just loved watching him. There was something in his mannerisms that was so fascinating. He was mesmerising in the way he carried himself. From his large hands, which she always stared at, to his ever-expressive eyes.
The first time sheâd spotted the cross tattooed on his hand, she had to go into the bathroom after class and slip her hand between her legs to quell the dampness there.
With a deep sigh, he focused on the class and ran a hand through his curls, though they fell back into the middle parting as always.
He seemed even more put off today. He spent most of his time voicing more details about the trip to Naples and running through multiple checklists before handing them out.
Where he would usually throw her a glance, he didnât even look at her today. Not once. His seemingly permanent frown was set deeper.
Instead of his usual drabble, he had some poor soul at the front of the class read out the daily lives of those who lived in Pompeii before its demise.
She jotted down notes, but her eyes kept flickering to where he sat at his desk, leaning back in his chair with his eyes closed as if he were being read a lullaby.
As class came to a close, he stood, telling everyone to start preparing for the trip.
âPlease refer to the list I handed out, and if you have any questionsâŠâ He twisted his lips, clasping his ringed fingers together. âDonât.â
Her nerves were running haywire, sending electric currents through every part of her body as she stood with her bag and began to approach his desk. He was busying himself with the sprawl of clutter on the expanse of the aged wood.
She stood before it, and he looked up briefly before gathering a stack of papers and sliding them carefully into his satchel.
"Not here." His voice was so low that she felt it swirl in her ears like a thick, dreamy fog.
She took a deep breath and nodded, feeling intimidated to be alone with him again. Until a student approached the desk and asked for his aid on a project, and all she could do was stand there and wait.
"I just don't know how to make the connection." The student said.
He leaned over, staring at the paper. He nodded and then looked at Violet, "go and wait in my office. I'll only be a moment."
She felt her heart drop to her stomach at the authority in his tone. He looked at her for a second before focusing on the student who needed his help.
She tried to brush off her nerves as she arrived at his office and sat in the chair in front of his desk. She had no idea what was about to happen, but since it was regarding her assignment, she was beside herself with anxiety.
He stepped into his office with a sigh, running his hands along his thighs before taking a seat. He sifted through the drawer in his desk, taking out her assignment and reading over it.
âIâve read your paper.â His voice was void of any emotion and it made her feel uneasy.
She wasnât sure what to say, so she picked at the hem of her dress and avoided his eyes. He held up her assignment and stared at it.
âViolet⊠this is one of the best things a student has ever handed in to me.â
She took in a sharp breath, looking at him with wide eyes. She almost didnât want to believe him. Or what was more believable was that heâd be jesting and then fail her. This wasnât like the usual grumpy professor that she knew and she didnât know what to make of it.
âIâThank you, professor.â
âI could tell that it had potential when you handed it in. Iâve written some notes for you, but I wanted to go through them with you now.â
This was unheard of. He graded papers, jotted down brief notes behind his reasoning, and moved on. But this⊠this was beyond anything heâd ever done.
He was known for being insufferably unfair to his students. Yet heâd given her a second chance, and was now praising her work and wanted to express why.
âOkay.â She nodded, adjusting in her seat and trying to calm down her racing heart.
âOverall, itâs a well-thought-out paper. You have complete control of each point made and where your sources come from without sounding too recited. There are facts here, and youâve shown how the influence that ancient Rome had in its prime is perceived nowadays⊠impressively. Youâve portrayed its people and politics really well.â
âThank you.â She was struggling to believe this was actually happening.
âThis is why I made you redo it. What you initially handed in was bland. But this isâŠÂ you. Your authentic self and thoughts.â He gestured to the paper. âYouâre passionate, and I can feel that when I read it. Youâve taken every aspect of what makes ancient history so fascinating and made it your own.â
âI canât tell if youâre being serious right now.â
There was a flash of emotion across his face, his dimple appearing ever so slightly with a quirk of his lips. âTake my praise. I donât give it often.â
âWow, thank you.â
âYouâre welcome.â His tone was suddenly warm, and his gaze brushed her neck for a second before finding her eyes once more.
âProfessional opinion aside,â she toyed with the question on her tongue, feeling overwhelmed, âdid you enjoy it?â
There it was again. Her question made his brow furrow in thought. He rarely enjoyed reading his student's work. Oftentimes, he was too preoccupied doing his job to feel any sense of enjoyment.
Why was it so important to her that he enjoyed it? Heâd praised her work, and she wanted to know if he relished in reading it.
No one was as surprised as him when he found himself nodding slowly. âI did, actually. I like that it kept me intrigued and that I could sense how deeply you feel for the past.â
She wasnât in his class for the wrong reasons, like he could see a lot of his students were. Some werenât interested in anything past staring at him for an hour and then bullshitting their way through every paper they had to write. But she had a reason to be there, a drive to explore the past.
âIâm glad you liked it.â
Her expression was so burning and focused on him that he felt it in his gut. He remembered how she looked in that guy's arms and he swallowed, wondering if she would be just as soft in his.
He cleared his throat, shaking off the fog of her. She crossed one leg over the other and he blinked at the sight of more skin exposed under that sweet little dress she was in.
She released a breath as he stood, relieved that this whole interaction was one of positivity. She was elated that he had enjoyed her work, and moreover was elated that he had praised her as he did.
But as he stood, he rounded his desk and went behind her before he closed the door to his office.
She felt a wave of adrenaline wash over her, being alone with him. She questioned if he was even allowed to close the door, but she didnât want to stop it from happening.
She watched as he walked in front of her, leaning back against his desk with his arms crossed.
âWhy history?â
âIâm sorry?â
âWell, everyone has a reason for their majors. Whether youâre in it for archiving, research, or curating, youâve got a reason for choosing history. My question is why.â
She straightened under his scrutinising gaze. He adjusted his glasses before his hands rested back on the desk, curling around the lip of it. She stared at his rings, mesmerised.
âI find it fascinating to observe how humanity has changed, to see how weâve improved and what we still need to work on. I like studying the past, preserving the stories, the art, the structures they left for us to see their legacy.â
He was floored, although his expression remained a trained unreadable one. To meet someone with these values wasnât uncommon. However, she had a way with words that he adored.
Like every aspect of his own passion was laid out on her tongue and given back to him in a gentle vocal caress.
âSo, youâre just as intrigued by their way of life as well as learning from their mistakes?â
âIn fewer words, yes.â
âYouâre in it for the right reasons.â
âAre there any wrong reasons?â She frowned.
âGreed.â He said simply, not giving any clarification.
âWhy do you teach?â
He tilted his head, his hands smoothing down his strong thighs. âI have a lot of experience in the field, as you may know. I wanted to extend that knowledge to people with the kind of drive I admire. The lust for research and preserving history. Iâm good at it, and I have a lot to give you so that you can be just as good.â
His choice of words turned her mouth dry. I have a lot to give you. She knew he meant a lot of his wisdom and knowledge, but his eyes were sparkling with something she couldnât decipher.
âI love your class.â
âIs that so? Is that why you asked if I enjoyed your paper?â
âYes.â
He pursed his lips. âAre you trying to impress me?â
She smiled. âI donât see anything wrong with that. I like the assignments you give us and the way you teach. Itâs informative and exciting at the same time.â
âI like that,â he said, mulling deep in his thoughts, âitâs a nice change. To have someone care about their studies as opposed to struggle through them.â
âOh, the struggle is still there.â She laughed and she spied a hint of a smile teasing his lips before he could disguise it.
He took a step forward and her eyes followed as he gauged how close he wanted to get. She gripped the arms of the chair as he stood in front of her, a jeweled hand reaching out to brush a few strands of her hair away from her face.
She hoped he couldnât tell how hard she was shaking. Their eyes didnât leave one another as his fingers brushed softly down, moving her hair away from her shoulder so he could look at her neck before he retracted all touch completely.
âYou covered it.â He mumbled, his voice so low that she thought she imagined it.
âI did.â
âGood giââ He cleared his throat loudly. âGood. Itâs not professional.â
Her brows raised at his almost slip up. She wondered if he was going to say exactly what she thought he was. And she almost begged him to call her that. Just once. Just so that she could go home and think about it in the shower, alone with nothing but the memory of him.
He leaned against his desk again, his gaze searing. She couldnât breathe and pressed her thighs together to dull the ache his touch had left.
âDo you want to impress me, Violet?â
âYes,â she whispered.
âIâm going to give you some extra work to do for me.â
For me. Her eyes fluttered. âYou are?â
âI am.â His voice was slow, dreamy. âFor my enjoyment, and your benefit.â
This, he thought, is where he should stop. He could feel the vapour of arousal lick at him in warm swirls. The way she was looking at him had him near crumbling. So innocent and intrigued by the prospect of impressing him. He wanted to reach out and touch her again, but he wasnât sure if he could stop himself again. From going too far.
âMy benefit?â
âYes. Iâll reward you, of course.â
âWhat kind of reward?â
âWhatever the teacherâs pet wants.â
Her entire body became warm and gooey, though her nerves did not settle. Instead, they amplified the longer he simply stared at her, unwavering.
âWhat does this extra work entail, Professor?â
He didnât smileâalthough he wanted to, and straightened. He rounded his desk, producing a small stack of papers, the top one decorated with his sprawl. He walked back over, handing it to her.
He looked her in the eye, his face serious. âOnly do what you want to do. Extra work and rewards. Do you understand?â
âOkay.â She said simply, feeling overwhelmed and heated. As if he had read her mind, viewed her deepest, darkest fantasy of being his pet and making it a reality. Her mind was buzzing with what extra work heâd have her doing.
âThere are only a few things there.â He nodded to the papers. âSome extra assignments if you can do them as well as this one. Also, some preparation for the class trip if youâre up for it.â
She scanned through the list, seeing the assignment topics from subjects heâd vaguely taught them about. She felt a twinge of excitement at the idea of doing more for him.
âAnd my rewardâŠ?â
His lips twitched like he was amused. âExtra credit, of course.â
She felt a pang of disappointment. But then what else was he meant to offer her? She wasnât about to turn town extra credit or the chance to impress him. She was already on his radar as someone he could count on. The thought made her all giddy and warm inside.
âIâm very grateful, professor.â
âYou have potential. As you finish each one, come and see me.â
âThank you, I will.â She nodded. Sheâd try her absolute hardest to complete them, and as he said, only the ones she wanted to. She eyed the list again.
He stepped forward once more, and she braced herself for the contact again. She was still spiraling from when he touched her. Her cheek still tingled from his fingers and she felt desperate to have that feeling renewed.
But then someone knocked on the door once before entering. âHey, Harry, Iâoh. Hello.â
Another faculty member she recognised from the economics department. Her cheeks flushed as he eyed her before looking at the grumpy professor in front of her.
Harry. Sheâd always known his name, but hearing someone actually call him by his first name made him seem more⊠real. Less like a history robot and more like the man she fantasised about.
âForgive me.â He cringed, âI didnât know you had company.â
âThatâs generally why you knock.â Professor Styles grumbled, however checking his watch with a sigh.
âI didâ"
âGet started on those, Miss Walters. Iâll check in with you in a few days.â
Blushing, she stood and ducked her head, leaving the room hastily. The list was crumpled in her fist as she made her way home. Alice was ready to ask her about her day, and they quickly got distracted watching reruns of some old sitcom. But the list heâd given her stayed on the forefront of her mind.
And as the week dragged on, she made her way through the few assignments heâd given her. They werenât full-length assignments and differed heavily from the kind he handed out to the whole class, as heâd stated. She found them quite easy, the basis of them fitted her strengths.
Had he tailored these to her? Had he enjoyed her work so much that he wanted more? It was like heâd hand-picked his favourite topics theyâd briefly covered in class and was now asking her to do what she pleased with them.
She spent all of her time between classes in the huge library. It was undoubtedly her favourite section of Oxford, and she spent many hours getting lost in the ornate building, the old books, and the history they shared.
She sat at one of the aged desks, a sprawl of books in front of her as she finished up her second extra assignment. She took on his advice. She double-checked her facts, and added drabble that made the paper more exciting and gripping to the reader. Him.
Sheâd even gotten a head start on the third assignment heâd given her. Although she knew sheâd have to spend more time locating sources for the topic, she figured it would look good if he saw that sheâd started it. All she wanted was to impress him. To prove herself. She knew she had the talent, and he was fully appreciating it.
As her day wrapped up, she found herself swirling through the halls towards his office, a completed assignment in hand. Considering their class trip was only in a matter of days, she figured heâd be too busy to see her.
She approached the oak door and knocked, hearing his voice on the other side telling her to come in.
She opened the door, and his eyes fell on her immediately. On her pretty yellow dress and the hem that fell to the middle of her thighs. Her hair was in its usual ponytail held together with a pale blue scrunchie. He liked watching it swish through the air as she walked.
âHi,â she said softly, while his expression was hard. âI finished another assignment. Do you have time?â
Technically? No. He had a pressing amount of things to grade. But the hope on her face and the way she looked so fucking pretty made it impossible for him to turn her away.
He moved his work aside, clearing his mind so that she was the only thing on it. âTake a seat.â
She took a deep breath and entered the room fully, leaving the door open which was a detail he didnât miss. She placed the assignment in his hand and he felt the urge to read it immediately. To be wrapped up in her thoughts.
âDidnât take you long, did it?â His voice rolled through her ears like a steady stream tumbling over smooth rocks.
âI felt inspired.â
âBy what?â He tilted his head.
âNot what,â she whispered, holding his gaze. âWho.â
A sliver of a smile touched his lips before it was gone without a trace. âOkay, then. Who?â
âYou.â
âMe.â He parroted as if he didnât believe her.
âYou always have inspired me, but hearing what drives you and how you came to teach made me want to work harder. To give history as much as youâve given it.â
He felt something warm him. He was almost bashful at her praise, where usually it would inflame his ego. But coming from her, from her earnest and sweet heart. It was different.
âIâm glad you find my teachings useful.â
âThey really helped with this paper.â
âHow did you find it?â
She mulled over her thoughts. Endearing. Intriguing. Enriching. âThe perfect amount of challenging. It made me think but my thoughts came naturally.â
âGood.â He pursed his lips. âI knew youâd apply all that Iâve taught you and pull through.â
âAnd I hope you enjoy it as much as my last one.â
âIâm sure I will. Come and see me tomorrow after your last class and Iâll give you my notes.â
She liked the idea of hearing his musings on her own work. He saw her potential and her drive. Enjoyed what she handed in and told her how much and why.
âTomorrow.â She smiled a little, standing and slinging her bag up to her shoulder. âI canât wait.â
There was something in her tone at the sentiment. The hue of it. A soft, wispy colour as pretty as her dress. He wondered if it was flirtation but quickly threw the idea aside.
He couldnât wish for such things with his student, no matter what signals she sent him. But she was his little teacherâs pet now, and something about having that claim on her was driving him mad.
After a grueling study session in her well-loved nook of the library, she went home to pack for the trip to Naples. There was a checklist criteria for what to bring and what to leave behind.
She threw some of her favourite summer dresses into her suitcase, a few pairs of shoes, and a few extra outfits of baggy jeans and band t-shirts.
She had class with Professor Styles the next day, in which heâd handed out light material in preparation for the trip. Essential knowledge and ground rules.
It seemed he viewed the whole ordeal as a burden. An annoyance. He was taking twenty students away, with only one other member of the faculty joining to help him out. A teacher, who happened to be from Naples, would be staying with their family between class adventures.
Heâd rather be sunbathing in Naples than traipsing around ancient ruins with students he despised. Mostly.
He didnât acknowledge her for the whole lecture, save an initial glance as sheâd taken her usual seat. But heâd almost switch off any form of warmth he had towards her when they were in the class environment.
He was his usual grumpy self, impatient with everyone and snapping at anyone who was talking when he was.
She had a free period to end her day, and she used it to finish up some assignments for her other classes as well as work on one of the extra ones he had given her. It was about half done, but she knew to prioritise her other class papers over this one.
She made her way to his office again, and this time it somehow meant more. She felt the weight of entering his space, and it was because of how he seemed to change around her.
That icy demeanour of him melted just enough for her to see the genuine man that lay beneath it.
She knocked, waiting for him to tell her to enter before opening the door. His outfit palette today was soft browns and beige, his glasses perched on his nose while his eyes gleamed behind them.
He looked at her briefly before nodding to the seat and turning back to his work, his expensive ballpoint pen twirling between his fingers. She stared at the bright yellow pen with a smile, noting how it was the exact opposite of his mood; bright, sunny, and cheerful.
She sat in the chair and realised that she felt less and less nervous with every moment she spent alone with him. Sheâd never felt uncomfortable around him per se, but his intimidating nature was a constant reminder that she couldnât want him. Shouldnât want him. But she did.
His jaw worked on a piece of gum, and he frowned as he adjusted his glasses and continued writing on whatever he was working on.
She decided to get comfortable, settling deeper into the chair, figuring he was deeply enthralled with his work. She eyed the bookshelf to her left and scanned his personal library.
She didnât even realise that he was trying to get her attention, too focused on his book collection, searching for clues as to who he was. Who he was outside of this office, outside of his profession.
âViolet?â
âHm?â She turned to face him.
He retrieved her assignment from under a stack of other ones he was grading. âIâm wondering why every assignment youâve given me hasnât been as good as these last few.â
Oh. Her brows raised. It was a compliment to her most recent work while putting down everything else sheâd given him prior to these. Sheâd always had the drive and passion, but it was evident that something had changed.
âI guess I just felt more inspired. Iâve enjoyed these topics a lot and felt compelled to do them well.â She frowned. âI thought Iâd done well with every other assignment, though.â
âYou didâobviously, as I passed you. You clearly didnât do them as well, however, hence my praise.â
âThatâs very nice to hear, especially from you.â
His lips quirked at her sheer and utter adoration for him. She valued what he had to say, looked up to him, and the influence heâd had in the younger demographic of Ancient History.
âWell, you deserve it. You work hard, and youâre driven by your passion. Thatâs rare to come by.â
She could only imagine what he himself was like as a student however many years ago. Like her, heâd studied at Oxford, and after not too long in the field, had felt the need to come back but as part of the faculty.
âThank you.â She replied, unsure of what else to say. She felt like she was being pinned to her seat by his searing gaze and she wriggled in it, hoping he wouldnât notice.
âHelp me with this itinerary for the trip.â
âThe itinerary?â
âItâs mostly done. Thereâs a bunch of books and brochures here, if you see anything youâd particularly like to do, add it to the timesheet and make it work.â
She gawked at him like heâd grown three heads. Her? Help him with the itinerary for the class trip?
âIsnât this your job?â She felt brave enough to ask. âLike, am I allowed to be doing this?â
âYes it is, and yes you are.â His tone was so final that she didnât feel a ribbon of unease lace through her mind.
She scooted forward so that she could use the desk, while he sat at the other side and graded papers. She scanned through the travel brochures and circled things she thought could be educationally beneficial, and eventually started going through the itinerary.
She loved planning and organising, and she wondered if he knew that. Maybe heâd picked up on how pedantic she was about her own class planners and thought this little job would be fun for her. He wasnât even marginally wrong.
Over her work, she risked quick glances at him. Ones that dared to adventure over his posture, his stern, and concentrated expression. The way he chewed on the tip of his pen, how he would take off his glasses to pinch the bridge of his nose.
He was so endearing and she found herself watching him more and more, getting lost in how effortlessly beautiful he was.
He was still grouchy and short with her when she asked questions, and she had smiled whenever heâd huff and grumble under his breath at whatever he was grading.
âYou seem particularly melancholy today.â She observed softly, and his eyes flashed to hers before he placed his pen down and laced his fingers together, leaning forward on the desk.
âAm I always melancholy?â
âI think so.â
âAnd youâre always vibrant.â
As bad as his mood appeared, he seemed to enjoy her company.
She mulled over the itinerary that heâd drafted, editing bits here and there. She had a sprawl of books on his desk, scanning through top tourist spots and mapping out the best walking routes.
There was a moment where he took a break, stretching his arms high over his head with a soft groan she almost missed. She hadnât even realised that she was looking at him, enamoured and intrigued by his display of exhaustion when he always seemed so energised.
âStop staring.â He stared at her over the frame of his glasses, his head tilted down.
She blushed, looking down at the itinerary. âIâm not.â
âI saw you.â
âSorry.â
He watched as she focused a little too hard on a not-so-interesting book and he smiled. Heâd called her out, as if he hadnât been staring at her, too.
She hadnât realised the time, unknowingly lost in her work for almost two hours. His pager beeped and he checked it, flipping his pen between his fingers as he read.
He reached over, grabbing the itinerary, pretty much complete, and nodding as he scanned it. He could see the depth and excitement that she had added to it and he suppressed a smile.
âIâll go over this tonight.â
âI added a few different things there. Restaurants, as well as some historical sights and important cultural landmarks.â
He nodded, impressed. âVery good, thank you.â
âYouâre welcome.â
âAs for the next assignment, I want that tomorrow.â
âWe fly to Naples tomorrow.â She frowned,
âI know.â
His icy and cold guise returned. He was her professor demanding something, and she could hardly turn him down. The paper was half done and lucky for her, it wouldnât be difficult to complete.
âOkay.â She nodded, standing and gathering her things. âItâll be all yours tomorrow.â
He didnât respond, turning back to his work. Sheâd learned to decipher his cues, and took his silence as her own time to leave. She had a lot to do before their trip and she took one last glance at his solemn expression before leaving.
As she closed the door, his eyes went up to the door. Then to the chair where sheâd been sitting. His office now felt like a void of who he wanted to be. Influential, important, inspiring. All things that he rarely felt while he was stuck in an old classroom all day.
But then students like her came along. The ones alight with wonder and fascination that wanted to have his success touch them. They werenât in his class simply because it was a requirement. They were in his class because they were eager to harbour influence of their own.
She spent all night going over her pack list, finalising her outfits and essentials for a couple of nights away. She dotted back to her paper often, wanting to have it complete. She struggled to wrap up her conclusion, and no later fell asleep on her bed, surrounded by her books and topic materials.
Her alarm went off, shrilling deep in her skull. She groaned, killing the sound and stretching. Checking the time, she noted that she only had a matter of hours until she needed to be at Heathrow airport.
She was in some type of trance as she got herself ready. She showered, ate a light breakfast, and readied her luggage. At the last minute, she grabbed the assignment that needed to be done and shoved it into her purse.
After securing a seat on the train, she got to work on it. Tossing back and forth between an abundance of different conclusions. Why did preservation matter? Why were artifacts archived how they were? How were stories of history pieced together?
All such basic questions to her whirring mind, and yet she struggled to encapsulate her thoughts in the unique way that she knew he loved. With a sigh, she put it away. Sheâd finish it on the flight.
After she arrived at the airport, she headed towards check-in, her small turquoise suitcase in tow. That's when she saw him, and she stopped dead in the hustle of travelers.
She had never seen him so paired back. He was dressed far more casual than his dress pants and sweaters and suits. But he was no less fashionable. She eyed his black, loose fitted pants, the worn vans on his feet, and yellow-stained sunglasses. As loose as his pants were, his t-shirt was anything but. A graphic white one that hugged him and left little to one's imagination.
And tattoos. Lots of them.
She'd only ever seen the cross on his hand and the inklings of something on his wrist. But she could see that his full arm was covered with them. Smatterings of ink, personal depictions, and dedications.
The ship on his upper arm rippled as his muscles flexed, his designer suitcase in his hand.
He looked grumpy, like always. However, the yellow sunnies over his eyes concealed some of his irritation.
His eyes found hers and he peered at her as she approached. She smiled, shy and suddenly nervous about this trip, and moreover, him.
She noticed that the rest of her class was already present, and Charlie wrapped his arm around her shoulder as he greeted her. Professor Styles' mouth twisted at the physical touch between the two before clearing his throat.
No one was paying attention until he stuck his fingers into his mouth and released an ear-piercing whistle, quieting down and facing him.
âRoll call. Be quiet.â
It took some time for every student to settle down, far too excited and chatty to keep quiet enough for him to call out everyone's name to confirm their presence.
As he called out Violetâs name, she raised her hand and watched his expression sour at Charlie's arm still wrapped around her.
Not wanting to be inappropriate, she slowly stepped away from Charlie, who was far too concerned with scoping out the other girls who were around.
They gathered, waiting in line to check in per Professor Stylesâ instructions. He handed out the finalised itinerary that they had both worked on, and now everyone had their own copies. She wanted to approach him, but he was busy keeping everyone organised while the other teacher talked at the front desk.
It wasnât until they were on air side, that he found her in line for coffee and pursed his lips.
âDid you finish the assignment?â
âAlmost.â
He raised a brow, his arms crossed and accentuating his muscles and how inked they were. âAlmost?â
âYes, almost.â She affirmed, not missing his look of surprise at her tone, but she continued. âIâll finish it on the flight.â
âWeâll be in the sky for five hours, Violet. I expect it to be done, so donât get distracted.â
She almost snorted. What could possibly distract her on a flight? And right on cue, Charlie popped up next to her with a cheeky grin.
âHowâs it hanginâ, sir?â His grin widened as he stared at their disgruntled professor.
âFine.â He grumbled, staring Charlie down before looking at Violet. âI want it before we land.â
As he sauntered off, Charlie released a sharp breath. âYouâd think heâd crack a smile considering the fact that weâre going on holiday.â
âOf course, youâd see this as a holiday.â
âI heard our hotel has a pool.â He bumped his hip against hers.
She gave him a fake smile, worming out of his hold. âCanât wait.â
Half way through the flight, sheâd found herself polishing off her paper, just how he ordered. The conclusion was strong and unwavering, her skill and passion shining through each word.
Sheâd managed to avoid sitting next to Charlie, instead, she was next to two girls she enjoyed talking to, although they were a bit quiet during class and outside of it, it was so different. Everyone seemed to busy themselves with studying the itinerary for the trip, bubbling with excitement.
She read over her paper twice, thoroughly proud of it, and she couldnât wait to have her favourite professor read it. She knew he was a few rows back, and stood, remembering that he wanted it before they landed.
Standing with a stretch, she made her way towards the back, scanning the faces for his, and finding those expressive eyes almost immediately. He was sitting alone in a row of three seats, and she wondered if heâd just gotten lucky or paid for three tickets.
His attention had been on a book before heâd found her eyes. She didnât get the chance to study the cover of it before he was tucking it away and staring up at her expectably as she came to a halt by his row.
âYes?â
She held up the completed paper with a look of triumph. âItâs done.â
He felt at odd sensation of pride wash over him. To be fair, he had given her quite a lot to do. And for her to finish it within such a small frame of time, while maintaining the immaculate value of her work, was an incredible feat.
So, he actually smiled. It was small but big enough that his dimples indented his cheeks a little.
âAttagirl. I knew you could do it.â
Her cheeks flushed at his praise and his smile. Two glimmeringly beautiful facets of him that sheâd never seen, especially the latter. Fuck, his smile. So soft and serene and dreamy. It was verging on heartbreaking that he didnât wear it more.
âI hope itâs good.â
âKnowing you⊠it will be.â
âYouâre too kind.â She said bashfully.
He flipped through the assignment, nodding his head with pursed lips. He opened his mouth to say something, gesturing to the empty seat next to him before the sound that accompanied the lighting of the seatbelt signal interrupted him.
He sighed, adjusting his glasses before buckling up. âYou better get back to your seat.â
She nodded, unaware that it took everything within him to not invite her to sit on his lap.
They landed in Naples in the early hours of the afternoon, and were shuffled onto a waiting bus towards their first destination of the trip. Professor Styles had done a roll call and had already lost all patience with the loud group he was stuck with.
Their luggage was sent to their hotel, where theyâd be turning in after their activities. They were given a tour of the huge city. The driver pointed out landmarks as they passed them.
The expanse of the ocean was pristine cerulean, invitingly crisp, the shore framed with exquisite buildings that crawled up the steep cliffsides. It was bright. Awash with blues and yellows and pinks and reds. Hues that depicted such a lively city so well.
Violet practically had her face pressed up against her window in the bus, admiring how glorious it was. It was densely packed with culture and entertainment and history. She was itching to get out and explore, smell the fresh air and taste the experiences on her tongue.
Their first tourist spot was the National Archaeological Museum. Professor Styles separated his students into two groups, one with him, and one with the other teacher.
To her delight, she was with him, and by the look in his eyes, he was just as happy about it. Maybe he even planned it that way. What he didnât plan on, however, was Charlie sneaking into his group so that he could be with Violet. He gritted his teeth and tried to ignore the flash of irritation that almost blinded him.
The museum was phenomenal. Showcasing historical artefacts that had been unearthed by many. There was an abundance of exhibitions, which they were led through by their professor.
She took photos on her disposable camera, one of which had him in the frame, and she wouldnât realise until she got her film developed.
Following the tour of the largest part of the museum, he turned to face the group. He had noticed Charlie being a nuisance, especially towards Violet and he made a point to ask her about it if he got her alone. He cleared his mind, trying to remain professional but struggling when she was staring at him like she was.
âArchaeologists and historians work together to teach the world about history. About daily lives, historical events, and structures. They excavate the history, and we tell its story. I hope you all feel inspired by what weâve seen today because I want you to choose a piece and include it in your assignment.â
The group murmured, gathering their notebooks and fluttering around the exhibitions, attempting to find one that could merge in with the topic seamlessly.
Violet found herself on the second floor of the impressive building, completely enamoured with how beautiful it all was. Rich with history and chronicles of the past.
She found a detailed model of what Pompeii had been in its prime. Detailed, intricate and precise. Her eyes wandered the tiny streets where people walked thousands of years ago.
It changed her perspective, seeing it all laid out in front of her gave it so much more weight in her heart. She felt the passion and interest wrap warmly around her like how the Italian sun had kissed her skin; new, inviting, and blissful.
She took a few pictures of it, wanting something to refer back to just in case. As she stared through the lens, she felt a presence behind her. Her professor, stood tall and intimidating, though his expression was composed yet warm.
âItâs impressive, isnât it?â He nodded towards the model.
âItâs amazing.â She breathed, sharply aware of him standing next to her.
His shoulder brushed hers and she froze. She wanted his touch. Wanted him to out his hands on her and praise her. She hadnât stopped thinking about when he reached out and brushed her hair away in his office.
âIs he bothering you?â
It appeared that their minds were in two separate places. Her, desperate for his attention, and him, desperate to keep Charlieâs attention off of her.
âWhoâCharlie?â
âBecause if he is,â he continued, frowning. âHe can do his assignment back home.â
And perhaps knowing that she and Charlie shared a night together, sending him away wouldnât be strictly for her benefit. He felt protective over her, and yeah, he was jealous. He wanted her and he hated to admit it. But seeing her here, in this city, in this room, felt like the final nail in the coffin.
âItâs fine, I can handle him.â
If only she knew how much he saw the depth in that statement.
âOkay, just let me know.â
âWhy?â She was perplexed. His tone was almost⊠territorial. It was more than a teacher protecting his student.
âBecause I want to take care of you.â
Her eyes fluttered as they found his, and she felt a rush of arousal spark between her legs at the sheer hunger on his face and in his tone. Fuck. This couldnât happen. He was her professor.
This was far from appropriate but the way he was looking at her like he wanted to devour and savour her at the same time was driving her wild.
She didnât know how to respond, but let him take her hand and lead her towards some shelves in the back of the room. They housed artifacts from Pompeii, preserved from excavation sites.
She barely had a chance to look before he was leading her on towards the Gabinetto Segreto. She frowned, halting.
âWhat is this?â
âMy favourite exhibition.â His eyes told her nothing but mischief, and he made sure the coast was clear before ushering her in.
She was taken aback. His favourite exhibition threw all inhibition out of their minds. Sexually graphic paintings, carvings, molds, and statues. Incredibly erotic and lewd.
He watched her in the room, thankfully empty of any other museum visitors. She approached a particularly sensual painting, framed in deep marble, a woman on top of a man, both in seated positions.
âWhat do you think?â He asked her, his veins thrumming with life and excitement.
Her cheeks were warm, and she was very aware of his gaze on her in the room full of sexual depictions. âI think⊠people have always had fascinations about bodies. About sex. Itâs humanising to see it depicted so early in human civilisation.â
Was it normal for that to turn him on so much? She was clearly feeling the intensity of the room and yet was in her mind enough to give him an answer that reflected her passion for his class.
âMm.. and how does it make you feel?â His voice was so low as he came to stand behind her.
âFeel?â
âTo be surrounded by ancient erotic art. How does it make you feel?â
She let out a shaky sigh, unsure of how to answer. She felt lightheaded and heated and knew the only way to quell it was to have some attention between her legs.
He picked up on her silence, thinking maybe she couldnât gauge what kind of response he was wanting. âIâll start. It makes me feel like recreating every piece of art in here.â
Her eyes widened at his confession, feeling so shocked that he would go in that direction but so pleased that he did. Was he just as deep in lust for her as she was for him?
âMe too.â She breathed out, and he swore lowly.
âThese were all excavated from Pompeii and Herculaneum. They were kept in brothels, homesâanywhere, really. They had an appreciation for erotica and displaying it. So they allotted this space in the museum. For a time, they only allowed men to come in here and view it.â
She could listen to him talk for hours, and then she realised that she did. And loved every millisecond of it. How his lips caressed words, how he spoke a few octaves lower than most, but it was still a milky and warm voice that rang through her ears.
âLucky me.â She smiled. He wondered how she truly felt. Aside from the obvious, she found it almost funny to think that people thousands of years ago were fortifying lands and yet found a common ground in sexual art.
He huffed out a laugh and her heart just about stopped at the noise. âNot as lucky as whoever had this hanging on their wall.â
He pointed to a large painting of a couple embracing, his skin golden against the womanâs fair skin. The preservation was amazing, aside from slight erosion of the colour and some cracks near the bottom.
âItâs very intimate.â She observed. It wasâlike everything else in the roomâsexual. But the strokes of paint were soft, their hold on each other even more so. Love. Care.
He wanted to know if someone had held her like that. So gentle, savouring every inch of skin. Worshiping her like the piece of art that she was.
After a filling dinner at a nearby restaurant, they all found themselves at their hotel. They gathered their room keys, and each partnered up to share a room for the trip. As Violet and her professor were the last two standing in the lobby, they eyed each other awkwardly.
âThis has to be a mistake.â He frowned, staring at the concierge. The other teacher was staying close by with family. Harry was sure that heâd requested his own room in the hotel. This couldnât be happening. âIs there another room available?â
âIâm afraid not, sir.â
He sighed, clenching his jaw. He wanted to hole up in his room and order expensive wine and listen to music. Now he had to face the reality that heâd be sharing a room. With her. Maybe heâd sleep out in the hallway.
Instead of making a scene and taking out his frustration onto the person at reception, he stared at Violet, whose eyes were wide with what appeared to be apprehension.
âI can find another hotel to stay at.â He said lowly to her.
âWith the number of people youâre caring for, I would advise against that, Sir. The nearest hotels are also fully booked.â
Harry glared at the concierge. The concept of staying in the same room as one of his students was a harsh pill to swallow. A jarring sensation. He was being faced with one of his deepest fantasies but now all he felt was that he was a creep.
He sighed, and met her eyes. âCome on.â
She blinked away her surprise and followed him. She could see how tense he was as his knuckle jabbed the button to call the elevator. She bit her lip and stared at him.
âProfessorââ
âI swear to you I demanded a separate room.â
She frowned, seeing the worry in his eyes. He thought she saw this as something he had planned out. He felt sick about it.
âItâs out of your control. They clearly messed up the bookings, itâs fine.â She assured him, although her nerves were shooting through the roof. She had no idea how the night was going to go, or the rest of this trip, for that matter.
They arrived at their room and he took a deep breath before opening it. It was lavish, thought she expected him to book nothing less. A small seating and kitchen area, and a set of double doors that must have led off to the bedroom.
He located his duffel bag dropped off by the staff and rummaged through it. âIâll take the couch.â
She stood awkwardly in the room. âOh, okay.â
He took his toiletry bag, sauntering into the en suite in the bedroom. âJust gonna shower.â
Her eyes followed him, his tense body language putting her on edge. Sheâd never seen him so uncomfortable. Once she heard the shower turn on, she quickly changed into her sleepwear, soft silk pants, and an old t-shirt.
To keep herself busy and keep her anxiety at bay, she began working on her assignment for the class trip. Taking notes and jotting down observations sheâd made. She was cozied up on the window seat, overlooking the city with a soaring heart.
He came out, his hair dripping, wetting his white t-shirt. The grey sweats on his bottom half left her speechless. Now, this was the most dressed down sheâd ever seen him.
âWe should get some sleep.â He said, eyeing the notebook in her hand.
âYeah, oâof course.â
âAnd donât worry I⊠Iâll see about getting another room tomorrow. Surely theyâll have a free one by then.â
âI donât mind.â She blurted out, worried that he thought she was seeing him as utterly inappropriate. âItâs not⊠I mean, it is kinda weird but this whole mix-up is out of our control. Weâre adults. Weâll make it work.â
âYouâre right.â He huffed out a breath, seemingly relaxed at that. They could make it work. It was going to be a mission to shelf his attraction to her, but he kept putting on his professional hat, even though her wandering gaze was warming him up inside.
âIâll see you in the morning.â She breezed past him, and he could smell her sweet scent.
âGood night, Violet.â
She paused at the door, about to close them when she turned back to look at him with a sultry expression that made his dick hard.
âSweet dreams, professor.â
Suffice it to say, his dreams were anything but.
âListen up! Iâm not in the mood to repeat myself.â
It had been an eventful morning and they hadnât even left the hotel yet. They were piled into a bus, and Charlie was sitting next to Violet, chatting her ear off.
She couldnât keep her eyes off her professor's disgruntled expression. How sheâd seen more of him than any student had before.
How heâd hidden his smile when she offered to make him coffee that morning, how his voice was far deeper after sleep.
How heâd effortlessly slipped back into his cold and disheartening demeanour after heâd gotten dressed. A pair of grey slacks and a light blue dress shirt. She tried to brush it off and pretend it didnât bother her, but she wanted his warmth and all he gave her was soft glimpses of it before he shut her out again.
âRemember what we are here for. Keep your minds open and explore this unique opportunity. I wonât be supplying material when we return to class, so gather everything you need today. Is that understood?â
The students nodded, hearing him loud and clear. Violet checked that she had her notebook and disposable camera on hand, feeling inspired to make this assignment her best one yet.
Pompeii was everything she had dreamt of and everything she never knew she could experience. It was a phenomenal sight to see. To really walk the streets which had been wandered down before. Where lives had fled as Mount Vesuvius unleashed its wrath, coughing up poisonous ash and spewing deadly lava.
She trudged through the fallen streets, imagining what it must have been like. Danger looming. Harrowing screams. Grasping for valuables as they fled.
Her disposable camera seldom left her hands, and the click of her taking shots set off Charlieâs impatient streak in him.
âLet me give you a personal tour.â He wiggled his eyebrows at her suggestively.
âI really want to focus on this.â
âCome on, Violet. Youâll have way more fun with me.â
She sighed as he attempted to take the camera from her hands. âCharlie, please. It was one night and it wonât happen again. Let it go.â
âWhy the sudden switch up?â He frowned.
âI just⊠I want to focus on passing this assignment, okay?â And she was bored of him. Another, far more intriguing man has eclipsed her every thought.
âFine by me. Iâll show someone else around.â He sauntered off and she glared at his back.
She rolled her eyes and tried to focus on the task at hand. At being in such a beautiful place, struck by such a disaster.
The class had all spread out by that point, and she fought to stay by herself. She worked best that way, alone with her thoughts. No pressure to fake her interest in anything aside from the historical site before her.
She sat at the edge of a small field, framed by stone arches and fallen buildings, crumbling walls. She began to sketch out the scene before her, listening to music on her Walkman, lost in her work as Duran Duran blessed her ears.
She felt the presence of someone sitting next to her, and she looked up, surprised to see her grumpy professor. His mouth moved as it formed words and she frowned, pulling her headphones off.
âIâm sorry?â
He looked amused, albeit annoyed that he had to repeat himself. âI said, I didnât know that you could draw.â
She smiled sheepishly, staring down at her drawing. âItâs just a rough sketch. Iâm a visual learner, so it helps, gives me something to refer back to if I need it.â
âItâs pretty good. You could incorporate it into the assignment.â He seemed impressed.
âThatâs allowed?â
âOnly because I said so.â
She bit her lip to hide her smile, although he saw her cheeks become a stunning shade of pink that he associated only with her. Like saturated carnations or his favourite ice cream, boysenberry with strawberry swirls.
She was worming her way into his brain like a rotten apple and he could only sit and watch the decay.
âI just called the hotel. Theyâre still fully bookedââ
âLast night wasnât horrible.â She said. âWe both kept to ourselves and slept well. Unless you want a turn in the bed tonight.â
It was his turn to blush now, and she didnât miss it.
âThe couch is fine.â He grumbled, embarrassed.
She wanted to tease him. To tug that soft side of him out. But a large part of her knew heâd reprimand her for it. Use his authority on her. Not that sheâd mind, but it wasnât a way to get through to him in the slightest.
âWhatâs on the itinerary, then?â
He shot her a look. âYou should know, considering you did it.â
She laughed. âI wasnât sure if youâd like what I chose. If I remember correctly, I put us down for an afternoon of relaxing at the beach and self-appointed activities.â
âI never did ask what self-appointed entails.â
âWell, it could entail a number of things. Exploring the city, working on papers, grading papers,â she leaned in towards him. âAnything, itâs just downtime.â
âDowntime.â He parroted.
âThatâs a completely foreign concept for you, isnât it?â
He stifled a laugh and nodded. âAny and all free time I have is spent on you,â he cleared his throat, âmy classes, I mean.â
âMaybe take some time to relax today, then. Even if just for a few hours before dinner.â
âIâll try.â He sighed, staring down at her Walkman. âYou always carry that thing around.â
He was a lot more observant of her than he was ever going to admit. And they both picked up on it. He stared at her red and white sundress for a time, wondering if sheâd worn it just for him to agonise over. He had been all fucking morning. He pushed his glasses further up his nose.
As she opened her mouth to respond, he stood with a gruff, âI need to check in with everyone else. Keep working.â
She did, the sun browning her skin, her tiny sundress the only thing he could think about as he talked with other students and showed them around.
She ventured Pompeii some more, taking pictures, penciling quick sketches, and let her eyes wander over to him whenever she thought he wasnât looking. But he always was, and they both looked away quickly.
Charlie seemed to forget all about the rejection sheâd given him by the time they were at the beach and lounging on sunbeds. Violet had taken a dip, but was mostly into reclining in her little yellow bikini.
She slipped her shades up onto her head as she took in the scene before her. Most of the students had joined them, a few had ventured into the city.
But it was a rarity any of them got to see the sun and sand like this, so they practically melted in the experience, vowing to never leave.
She let her eyes scan the beach, her book tucked into her side on a dog-eared page. She enjoyed people-watching. Seeing her fellow students thrive under the golden sun, and seeing families make memories.
And Professor Styles. Stretched out on a sunbed far from everyone else. Yellow swimming shorts, bronzed skin, decorated in tattoos, both arms flexed as he stretched them above his head.
Her mouth dried at the sight. How toned and prominent he was. She could easily imagine herself sitting on top of him, mapping out each tattoo, licking, kissing, biting. Admiring.
As if he could sense her eyes on him, he looked up, a lone finger sliding his shades down to look at her. And lip quirked up on one side in a subtle smirk that made her toes curl. So, he got especially cocky when he was half-naked.
She tried to turn her attention back onto her book, but it was an effort to think of anything else other than him. She craved his touch, even though all he had given her was a whisp of it in his office.
They were dangling themselves in front of each other, temptation and lust awry, waiting for who would take the plunge first.
Following a game of cat and mouse, trying to catch each otherâs eyes, it was time to head back to the hotel and get ready for dinner at a local restaurant.
She beat him to the room, grabbing a quick shower, almost ready by the time he entered the room.
He could smell her sweet perfume as he entered the room, the air humid from a long shower. She was sitting at the vanity in the bedroom, swiping mascara on her wispy lashes.
Her eyes met his in the mirror, disappointed to find him dressed in a t-shirt, those same yellow shorts allowing her to see his tattooed thigh.
âHow was your downtime?â She asked him.
He came up behind her, still watching each other in the mirror. âIt was good. Although, a girl was gawking at me the whole time. Didnât think my body was that atrocious.â
He was teasing her. She wasnât sure what to make of it, and so she played along.
âIâm sure atrocious was the last thing on her mind.â
âYou think so?â
âMaybe you should have asked her.â
âI thought about it.â
She held her breath. âDid you?â
âMm. Thought about inviting her over to my sunbed⊠asking her what had captured her attention. I knew what she was thinking but I just wanted to hear her say it.â
âSay what?â She breathed out. His eyes were so intense. Molten and demanding, holding hers with such a ferocity that she felt it between her legs.
He leaned down, his lips brushing the shell of her ear. âNow Violet, when have I ever given you the answers to a test?â
She released a shaky sigh, tilting her head away from him, allowing him access to her neck.
He smirked at her eagerness. âYouâre a bad girl. Finish getting ready.â
âThen stop distracting me.â
He growled deep in his chest, taking a step away from her. âDonât talk back, Violet. Ever.â
He sauntered into the bathroom, locking the door with a click. She fanned herself with her hand, quickly slipping on a white summer dress and heading downstairs to hang with her classmates.
Everyone was unaware of the fact that she and their professor were sharing a room, and she cringed to think about how theyâd react if they found out.
The attraction they had for each other was undeniable, but she saw it as harmless flirting. Until⊠he touched her. Until he took her into that erotic room. Until he told her not to talk back. She was fucked.
He led them to the restaurant, pointing out architectural phenomena, and different historical sites for them to make note of. He looked so pretty that it hurt. Light pink dress pants and a matching blazer, a white singlet underneath. His glasses were perched on the bridge of his nose, his curls falling down on his forehead messily.
She lagged behind, and he noticed, subtly falling back, She was stopping to take pictures of different buildings, in awe of the structures and local ways of life.
He slowed his pace, keeping close to her just in case. She wasnât overly warm towards anyone else in the class, and it made him feel glad in the sense that she focused on his class, but he couldnât help but wonder if she had many friends outside of class.
Perhaps thatâs why he was so protective over her. How territorial and irrational he became towards her. How enamoured by her he was. Buy her words and her confidence, whether in corduroy pants or little sun dresses.
He shoved his hands in his pockets, trying to appear relaxed, but he was crawling out of his fucking skin. He needed her. Wanted her. Had to have her. He just didnât know how to do so. He sucked at talking to women, but he knew how to fuck.
Just getting them on their backs was the hardest part for him. He had never struggled with men, but women terrified him for some reason. Especially women like her.
He kept watching her like sheâd drop a clue behind a step on the cobbled street.
And when he noticed that one of her sneakers had become untied, he felt his heart begin to race.
The group was further ahead, and he fell into step beside her, grabbing her hand to garner her attention.
She turned to look at him with wide eyes, her camera clicked, and as she spun around, his face fell perfectly into the frame. But the two of them were too focused on his touch to notice.
âYour lace is untied.â He explained simply, his touch gone.
She looked down, âoh.â
âLet me,â he knelt down on the ground, lifting her foot up onto his raised knee. She gasped at the feel of his fingers wrapped around her ankle. How they softly caressed her skin before they got to work tying her lace.
His ringed fingers were a wonder to watch. So precise and nimble. She felt her cheeks tinge pink as she stared down at him on his knee for her. And when he looked up, it was almost as if he was in awe. Worshipping.
His hand slid up her ankle, cupping her calf and sliding higher. And then he dropped his touch, realising how inappropriate he was being.
âThank you, professor.â
His jaw clenched slightly before he stood, adjusting his suit jacket. âWe should catch up with the others.â
They were the last to enter the restaurant, and the universe pushed them together once again with two remaining seats. Next to each other.
Her leg was still burning from his touch and she wanted to experience it over every inch of skin on her body.
It was a wonder she could even focus on eating. He was so powerful in his presence. Even when she wasnât looking at him she could feel him. This tar-thick sensation next to her, begging to be pulled in, begging to have her attention.
He ate his meal in silence, drinking a cider, offering bits to the conversation here and there.
She was a nervous wreck. She could smell his cologne. How it was sweet and spicy and sultry all at once.
At some point, restless and on edge, she crossed her leg, her foot accidentally nudging his ankle. He shot her a look through the corner of his eye, his mouth on his drink.
She blushed, apologising to him under her breath. But he moved his leg towards hers a little before retracting. Intrigued, she extended her foot out again, letting it trace up his leg.
âCareful.â He warned lowly.
She stared up at him with wide, innocent eyes. âOr what?â
âYou donât want to start trouble with your professor, do you?â
She pursed her lips. âMaybe I do.â
âI pegged you for a good student, Violet. Perhaps I was wrong.â
âIâm a good girl where it counts, professor.â
âThen be a good girl and go settle the bill. We need to get an early night.â
He handed her his card, watching as she stood and went to pay. He eyed her thighs at the hem of her dress, remembering how soft sheâd felt as he tied her shoelace. How lulled her expression became when she was teasing him under the table.
He thought about how it felt to be kneeling before her. How if he leaned forward just a little, heâd be able to see up her dress. See the colour of her panties. Flick his tongue out and get a long-awaited taste.
He skipped the dessert menu because he knew nothing would satisfy the sweet tooth he had. Only she could quell the craving.
Fuck. He couldnât share a room with her tonight. Not unless he wanted to fuck her against every surface of it.
The walk back to the hotel was tense for the two of them. They tried to avoid each other, she tried to spark conversation with other students, while he conversed with the other professor who was probably triple his age and insufferable to talk to.
He felt especially creepy when he realised the most interesting conversations heâd ever held had been with a student of his. One who was ten years his junior.
The other professor split off, heading to his family home while Harry was in charge of leading everyone back to the hotel.
He was back to his short and curt self, subdued by his own thoughts. She eyed him, wondering if he regretted getting so comfortable with her. Because she sure as hell didnât regret anything.
Everyone parted ways, heading to their designated rooms, while she lagged behind, completely on edge.
Their eyes met as they leaned on opposite walls in the hallway. Waiting. Gauging.
âI should find somewhere else to stay tonight.â His voice broke through the tension.
Her heart dropped and she started to panic at the prospect of him leaving her. âYou donât need to do that.â
He sighed, torn. âVioletâŠâ
âI promise Iâll behave. You wonât even know Iâm here.â
He watched her, internally debating. Could he behave? And would she stay true to her word? It was later in the evening now, and he hardly felt like trudging around the city until he found an available room.
He sighed again and nodded, entering the room wordlessly. She followed after him, watching as he stripped off his jacket and ran his hands through his hair.
She slipped into the bedroom, and as she went to close the door, decided to leave it slightly ajar. An invitation.
He sat on the couch, spreading his arms along the back. His mind was a jumbled mess, the only clarity were liquified swirls of violet skies that gave him a sense of constant.
His eyes found movement in the gap of the bedroom door and his mouth went dry. Violet pulled her tiny white dress over her head, her matching white bra and panties revealed to his hungry stare.
She pulled her hair free from its ponytail, the yellow ribbon falling to the ground in a tiny silk puddle.
She bent over, unlacing her sneakers before pulling them off. He knew he had to look away. But he couldnât. He was staring directly between her legs. The softness of her hips and her thighs. His stomach clenched.
Reaching back, still facing away, she unclasped her bra and let that fall to the floor carelessly. He internally begged her to turn around. But he knew that if he saw her bare tits it would be game over. He already felt like he was going to finish in his pants.
And then she stepped out of view, appearing moments later in a white silk camisole and matching shorts. He looked away quickly as she exited the bedroom, trying to hide the fact that sheâd put on that show just for him.
âCan you please help me?â her sweet voice caressed his ears.
He still didnât look at her. âWith?â
âMy necklace.â She came to stand in front of him. âItâs tangled.â
He eyed the dainty jewelry around her neck and wondered how his hand would look in its place.
âDo you ever take yours off?â She nodded to the cross pendant dangling from his neck.
âNo. It stays on. Always.â
âEven when youââ
âTurn around, Violet.â
She giggled and turned while he stood, his body shaking with desire. She scooped up her hair out of the way, a few strands tangled in the clasp of her necklace.
âYou like doing that, donât you?â
âDoing what?â
âTeasing me and acting oblivious to it.â His fingers began to unwork the tangles of her necklace.
âHow do I tease you?â
âWell, the little show you just put on is a great place to start.â
She smirked. âI donât know what you mean.â
He growled and brought his hand around, cupping her throat and encouraging her to lean fully against him.
âDonât make me out to be a fucking pervert, Violet. Prance around in your tiny little shorts all you want, just as long as you know that youâre doing so for me.â
âWeâre not in the classroom anymore, professor. No need to boss me around.â
âBrat.â He said through his teeth. âIâm always the boss.â
She gasped out in the authority in his tone, at the sureness in his actions. His hand around her throat just like sheâd imagined a million times while he taught a class.
âI know you daydream about me.â He whispered in her ear. âI can see your mind wander when youâre sitting at the front of my class. You think about all the things you want me to do to you.â
âThatâs a bold assumption.â She continued to tease him.
âMmm.â He rumbled in her ear. âAnd I bet youâre wet right now.â
âYouâre wrong.â She whimpered.
âAm I?â
âYes.â
âProve it.â
She stepped away, staring up at him. âHâHow?â
He feigned a bored expression, shoving his hands into his pockets with a sigh. âYouâre a smart girl, Violet. Figure it out.â
All confidence she had was shredded away by his condescending tone and she released a shaky breath. Prove it? She sat down on the couch, finding his eyes willingly.
Fuck. This was everything the both of them had been daydreaming about. Releasing the tension that had been building between them ever since she started his class.
He would have stopped her if she didnât want this. And she wouldnât have given him a show if she didnâtâ want it. She slipped a hand down her shorts, her eyes lulling while his widened at the scene.
Her fingers found her core, throbbing and wet already. She whimpered, trying to look unfazed but he could see how much her legs were shaking.
âThatâs a good girl. Let me see.â
She retracted her hand from the silk of her shorts and displayed her fingers, glistening with her excitement.
He grabbed her wrist, investigating the wetness. He tutted. âNow, what are we going to do about this, hm?â His eyes met hers and she melted.
âI donât know.â
His gaze hardened on hers. âPart of your studies have been based on problem-solving, Violet. I know Iâve been doing my job right. The question is: have you been a good student?â
âYes,â she whispered, shaking.
âIs that so? Then tell me how we solve this problem that you have.â
âProblemâŠ?â
âYouâre sitting in front of your professor, dripping for him. Tell me how we can fix it before you make a mess.â
She swallowed, her mouth dry. âTouch me.â
âRaise your voice when youâre speaking to me.â
She cleared her throat, mildly embarrassed. âTouch me.â
âTouch you? I could fail you for this behaviour that youâre displaying. I canât think of one reason not to.â
âPlease,â she whispered, âplease, touch me.â
He sat on the coffee table opposite her. âI canât risk it⊠we canâtââ
âPlease. Just once, itâs all I will ever ask of you.â
He stared at her, his expression disgruntled. Like she was causing him actual annoyance by asking him such a thing.
âFuck it.â
He took her fingers past his lips, saturated with her wetness, and sucked on them. Cleaning them and tasting her. Heavenly and sinful.
She gasped as he did so, unable to even wrap her head around what was happening before his lips met hers, his hand on the nape of her neck.
âKiss me.â He ordered against her and she obliged, whimpering as his tongue found hers.
He stood and leaned over her, pushing her back into the couch. He pulled away momentarily, as much as it pained him.
âYou want this?â
She nodded, leaning forward to kiss him but he shook his head.
âWords, Violet. I need to hear you say it.â
âI want you.â She assured him, glad to finally have the words leave her mouth.
âShow me,â he breathed out. âShow me how much you want me.â
He sat back on the table again, leaving her panting and shaking while he slipped his glasses from his face. She bit her lip, finding every ounce of courage that she had before slowly slipping her shorts down her legs.
His eyes never left hers as she got herself comfortable, and he untangled her shorts from her ankle, his cock hardening further when she giggled playfully.
She spread her legs a little, her hand finding its way back between them. He hissed as she played with herself, and he could hear how wet she was as well as see it.
He leaned forward, his hands on her thighs. âAre you this wet for me during class?â
She shook her head slowly.
âAre you lying to me?â His hands smoothed up her legs and he could feel how hard she was shaking having his touch on her.
âNoâŠâ
âMm...â His hands found her sensitive inner thighs and her legs spread further, enticing him in. âI think youâre lying, Violet.â His thumb brushed her sensitive clit and she gasped. âI thinkâŠâ A little more pressure. âYou sit in my class, fantasising about me.â Small circles. âAnd then you go home, get yourself off and imagine that itâs me doing it.â
âPleaseââ
âAm I wrong?â
âFuck,â she cried out as his fingers built up speed and pressure. âNo, youâre not wrong.â
âI never am.â He smirked, pulling her so that she was laying down flat on the couch.
His mouth found her cunt in a deep kiss and she rolled her hips up towards him, his hands cupping under her thighs to keep her where he wanted her.
Her back arched at the sensation of his mouth. So wet and hot and skilled. Sheâd known how good he was with his mouth, as sheâd listened to him talk for hours. But this was something else, and she knew sheâd never look at his lips the same again.
His brow was furrowed in concentration, and he moaned against her, loving how sweet she tasted. How she was shaking and heâd only just gotten started.
His tongue found her clit in delicate flicks, sucking and nibbling it until she was gasping.
The straps of her camisole fell down her shoulders, and her tits came into his view. Her nipples were pebbled from the cool air and he reached up, pinching and squeezing them with deft fingers.
All he could think of was the fact that she was lightyears better than anything heâd viewed in Gabinetto Segreto. But he knew that before heâd seen her naked.
His ears were ringing with how good she felt and he couldnât wait to feel her wrapped around his cock. God, heâd grasp onto the feeling forever. He could already see himself begging shamelessly at her knees for a pity fuck.
Her hands came down and entwined with his curls, determined to make a mess of them. She had spent far too many hours admiring the perfect shape of them and the precise middle parting.
He groaned as she pulled them, his eyes finding her blissful expression. He ate her like heâd never had a satisfying meal in all his years. After tasting her, it felt like he hadnât. And nothing would ever suffice again.
She brought Gabinetto Segreto fucking shame.
He gave her a finger, testing the waters with what she could take. Her body went lax before tightening up in pleasure. His jaw dropped at how warm and snug she was.
âOh, pet. Youâre going to get me addicted to this pretty little pussy, arenât you?â
She whimpered, rolling her hips up in desperation. The way he was talking to her. Encouraging her and talking her through it. It was all so surreal.
âProfessorâŠâ
âWhat?â He pulled away, annoyed to have her interrupt.
âItâs okay.â
He frowned. âWhat?
âIâItâs okay. You donât have toâŠâ
âDonât have to what?â He was getting pissed off now.
âYou donât have to do this.â
âWhat, make you come?â He frowned further, bewildered.
âItâs hard for me to do that.â
His eyes softened and he crawled up her body, his hand cradling her jaw tenderly. âHas anyone ever made you come, pet?â
âNo.â
âNo?â
âJust my vibrator.â
He pouted a little. âThatâs a shame, isnât it? I bet you get so creamy⊠so relaxed and soft.â
She could feel his hands massaging her body, but she felt lightheaded with how he was talking to her.
âI can make you come, pet. As many times as you want.â
âI donât know how.â
âYou donât have to do a thing. You just lay back and let your professor look after you, okay? You deserve it after all of your hard work. Iâm very impressed.â
âReally?â Her eyes were wide.
âReally. Daddyâs going to reward you, now. Would you like that?â
Her eyes lulled the second that word fell from his mouth.
âYes.â
âMy good little pet.â
His mouth found her core again, reveling in her taste and the feel of her. He helped her relax enough that she could simply feel the pleasure and nothing else. She had been so stuck in her mind but now all she could fathom was pure bliss.
He gave her two fingers, massaging a spot inside of her that she had not discovered before. It was overwhelmingly intense. Pressure and sensitivity and euphoria.
âRelax, Violet. Can you do that for me?â
She focused on keeping relaxed, but almost laughed at his request. How could she relax with his head between her thighs?
She must have done a good enough job because he moaned, closing his eyes and kissing her cunt almost romantically.
He wanted to watch her. To guide her and talk her through it. He came up, licking inside of her mouth, sucking on her tongue.
Youâre doing so well.
So sweet for me.
Youâre milking my fingers, pet.
Breathe, thatâs it.
He could tell she was close and he was watching her in awe. Watching her write in pleasure that only he had ever been able to entice from her. He was far too in his head to feel smug about it, but he knew heâd come back to that later.
âOhâŠâ
âThatâs right,â he coerced. âYouâre gonna come all over my fingers, I can feel it. Fuck, do it on my tongue instead.â
He swiftly placed his mouth on her again, paying all of his attention to her clit while his fingers worked inside of her. She was pulsing and it drove him to take her harder, moaning against her.
His arm tensed, the veins in it prominent, snaking around his muscles. He couldnât fathom why the men before him hadnât got her here like this. He was addicted to everything about her. Her body and her mind. Her jaw dropped in pleasure.
His mouth latched onto her clit ferociously, and the intensity of it knocked her over the edge of bliss. She writhed around, crying out as it overwhelmed her. He pinned her down, helping her ride the wave.
âThaaatâs it, pet. What a good girl.â He soothed her as she came down.
She gasped out, grabbing his wrist as he slowly fucked her with his fingers.
âFuck.â She smiled, meeting his eyes.
âHow did that feel, hm?â He checked in, his mouth and chin drenched in her. He kissed her inner thighs, pulling away.
âSo good.â
âYeah?â He came over her. âLetâs get rid of this, shall we?â
She barely had time to register what was going on before he ripped her silk camisole from her body, discarding it behind the couch.
âHey!â She yelled out. âThat was expensive.â
âDaddy will buy you another one.â He promised, his eyes falling over her bare breasts. âFuck, look at you. Gorgeous little thing.â
She moaned as he gripped her breasts, toying with her nipples. He spat down on her chest, wiping his spit around her tits with a devilish grin.
âYouâll let me do what I want, wonât you, pet?â
âYes.â She whispered, meaning it.
âThe next time youâre in my class,â he pinched her nipple. âIâm gonna make you sit on my lap. Make you read out your paper while I play with your clit and fill your cunt with my cock. Make you cream all over me while everyone watches.â
âProfessorââ
He stood abruptly, ridding of his shirt and pants, allowing her to see him as bare as sheâd ever seen him. His inked torso and arms. His strong thighs and toned tummy. She felt her insides melt and warp.
He grabbed her hand and placed it over his clothed cock, hard and throbbing.
âFeel what you do to me?â He asked, wrapping his hand around her throat to hold her still while her hand felt him. âI get so hard every time I see you. I canât fucking stand it.â
Her mouth was watering and she shifted forward, kissing along his length. He growled lowly, feeling his cock twitch and his balls tighten.
âYouâre a naughty pet. Come to my class in those tiny dresses because you know I think about pinning you against the wall and slipping inside of you.â
âI wish you would.â Her eyes were wide, staring at his.
He tilted his head, gripping her hair in his fist, his rings catching. âYou do, donât you? Little whore.â
She nodded eagerly, whimpering when he pushed her face forcefully against his crotch. He leaned down, his fingers finding her pussy, slick from her orgasm. He hummed, gathering her wetness and spreading it along his covered cock.
âMessy girl. Clean me up.â
âMake me.â
He glared darkly, his nostrils flaring at her disobedience. He gripped her hair hard enough that tears formed, and he moved his hand to pinch her jaw until she opened it.
âTongue out.â He barked and she slowly did as she was asked. âWasnât so hard, was it? Now, clean me up or Iâll fuck my fist and make you watch.â
He spat on her tongue and she hummed, swallowing before leaning forward and licking off her wetness from his crotch. His brow furrowed at the sight. His feisty little pet.
She sucked on the tip of him over his boxers, and he whimpered before pushing her away. He quickly rid of his boxers, impatient. He had to be inside her. He prided himself in his ability to last but that seemed to be irrelevant when it came to her. Just looking at her naked and pouting was enough to set him off.
She reached for his cock, hard, a bead of pre-come on the tip. He throbbed in her palm, so hot and ready for him. He ran his hands through his hair, his body tingling.
She took him past her lips, her eyes fluttering. His head fell back on his neck as she took his tip, sucking and flicking her tongue against the slit. He encouraged her, his hand tangling into her hair.
âTake more.â He rasped, moaning loudly when she fit half of him in.
She used her hand to work on what she couldnât fit yet. He was losing it, spitting down on his cock to get it nice and wet before forcing her to take all of him.
She choked on him, her eyes watering as she gagged.
âFuck,â he gritted his teeth, his abs flexing as he pushed his hips forward.
Tears streamed down her face, smudging her mascara. His thumb wiped under her eyes, smearing it further. He wanted to destroy her.
He took her throat in slow, rolling thrusts, allowing her to breathe and watching when she tapped his thigh when she needed a break.
She picked up her pace, and his knees buckled. He attempted to pull away but her hands wound around his thighs, holding him in place.
âPet,â he whined, âyou gotta stop.â
She eyed him mischievously, moving her mouth harder. Faster.
He swore, grabbing her hair and practically ripping her from him. He threw her back and slapped her cheek before gripping her jaw and pressing his face against hers.
âYouâre a fucking brat, you know that?â
She giggled, her cheek stinging, but it fuelled her arousal.
He clenched his jaw, holding hers harder. âYou promised youâd behave.â
The feral rage in his eyes made her gulp. She did not fear him, per se, but feared what heâd do to her as punishment. Feared that sheâd like it too much.
She wanted him warmed up to her. But she wasnât sure that he was capable of that.
âI am behaving, professor.â
âI donât think you are.â
She frowned, pouting. His expression softened, loving how she looked all vulnerable when she did that little face.
He cupped her reddened cheek, looking at her wet eyes and swollen lips from his cock.
She opened her mouth to protest, to apoligise, or to plead. She wasnât sure.
âIââ
âShh.. sit back and take my cock, pet.â
The willingness in her eyes melted him and she fell onto her back, pressing her legs together with her knees bent and swaying them side to side.
He took a step forward, fisting his cock with a shaky breath. He had fantasised about this for so long and now that it was finally happening, he couldnât believe it.
âYou look so good.â He complimented, his voice low. His hands ran down her body, feeling every inch and every curve. He settled over her, hitching her leg high over his hip.
âSo do you.â She breathed out, her hands running down his sides, feeling the muscles flex.
âYou were made for fucking.â He spoke his thoughts, running the tip of his cock between her slick folds. âMade to take me. Made to be used by me.â
She whimpered, rolling her hips up. âTake me. Use me.â
He kissed her, pushing his hips forward a little. She made a soft sound as he pushed inside of her, able to take the tip of him before her body tensed.
âYouâre so big.â She whimpered, wide eyes staring up at him.
âYou can take it.â
He held her in place, pushing forward and breaking through her tightness. She gasped as she took half of him, and he reached down, rubbing her clit to lessen the sting.
She mewled softly, her body relaxing as he slowly took her. He pushed all the way in, and he swore quietly as she rippled around him.
âAttagirl.â He praised. âI knew you could do it.â
âOh⊠my god.â She moaned, her eyes watering at how fucking good he felt. He was so big that she felt him everywhere. He was pressed snugly against that spot heâd found not long before and the pressure of it was blinding.
It was the fact that they definitely should not be doing this that made it feel so much fucking better.
âIâm going to move now.â He informed her, retracting his hips until only his head remained inside of her. He slammed back in forcefully and she cried out, her back arching.
He didnât stop. He screwed into her relentlessly, pounding her down into the couch. She couldnât get a single breath in with how hard he was fucking her. His touch never left her clit, until he wrapped his arms around her and stood, holding her up as he fucked up into her.
She bit into his neck, his skin warm and damp beneath her. Her nails embedded themselves into his shoulders, trying to hold on as he took her.
He pressed her against the wall, his head dropping back with a growl. She watched him in awe. The sheer power he exerted on her body was blinding. He was so in control, so feral and animalistic but in control nonetheless.
She had never had someone fuck her like this. He was confident in the classroom, but having him even more so while he was naked and inside of her was something she never knew that sheâd experience.
She gripped onto his hair, near on sobbing as he took her. âProfessorâŠâ
âHarry.â He gritted out, his curls a mess.
âHâHarry, please.â
âPlease, what?â He breathed out, grunting. âTell meâfuckâtell me what you need.â
âTouch me.â
His hand wound around her throat, his gaze searing on hers. âTell me where you want me to touch you, pet.â
âMy clit.â She whispered out. âI need it, please.â
âFuck, say my name again.â He huffed, staring at her desperately.
âPlease, Harry. I need it.â
He groaned, pushing two fingers in her mouth until she gagged, getting them wet. Then he connected his fingers to her clit and rubbed in delicious circles. Her toes curled, her hands raking down his shoulders and sides as he took her.
âYou like that?â He checked, knowing full well she loved it with how tight her pussy was around him.
She nodded, whimpering as he slapped his hips against her.
âYeah, you do, donât you? Your pretty little cunt is squeezing me like a fist. Dirty girl letting me use you like this.â
He placed her on her shaky legs, slipping down to his knees. He aided her in placing a leg over his shoulder, opening her up to him. He latched onto her core with a loud moan.
âTaste so good.â He said between licks, her core trembling around his tongue. âLove feeling how my big cock is destroying your pussy.â
He ate her, addicted. He held her up as her body became weak with pleasure. His fingers found her core, fucking her with two fingers while his mouth sucked and nibbled and licked her clit.
She looked down at his face, seeing his eyes closed as he ate her. He was enjoying it just as much as she was. Her professor was on his knees for her.
From tying her shoelace to eating her out in a matter of hours.
He loved being able to taste his cock while he ate her. Able to taste where heâd claimed her and destroyed her. His dick twitched, missing the warmth of her. Wanting to spread his cum inside of her and watch it leak out.
He grabbed her, bending her over the window seat. She stared at the view of the ocean as he stared at the view of her.
âSpread your legs.â He ordered.
She bit her lip, looking back at him. She pressed her legs together and wiggled her ass.
He glared, slapping her ass. âWhore.â Another slap, to which she cried out, clawing at the window. âI said open your fucking legs.â
He kicked her legs open forcefully, spreading her cheeks and staring at her dripping cunt. She moaned as he massaged her skin, his thumb dipping to press against the tight opening of her ass.
He spat down on it, massaging gently before he bent his knees, guiding his cock back to her drenched heat.
She held back her pleasured cries as he fucked her, his skin slapping mercilessly against hers. His thumb played with her ass, watching as she moaned and flowered open to him. His to use.
âGood girl.â He praised. âTake me so fucking well. You love having my big dick fill you up, donât you?â
She whimpered, rolling her hips back against her thrusts.
He slapped her side. âDonât you?â
âYâYes, Harry!â
He grabbed her by her throat, pulling her back while he kept fucking her. His lips found her ear, biting on the lobe.
âCall me daddy.â He growled. âCall me daddy and Iâll let you come again.â
She could feel the swirls of it blooming and she swore, her walls clenching around him.
âPlease, daddy.â She whimpered, loving calling him something so naughty. âPlease let me come.â
âYou need daddy to rub your pretty little clit? Huh?â
âFuck, please, yes I need it.â She gasped, her tits bouncing, drawing his attention to them. He played with her nipples. Twisting and tugging before his touch veered south, finding her clit with an expert touch.
She exploded around him, her body growing lax against him. He allowed her to melt onto the floor, not stopping his thrusts as he helped her through her orgasm. He screwed her on the ground, grunting animalistically in her ear.
They were sweaty messes, writing and naked on the floor as he took her, feral and obsessed. He lifted her ass up, taking her harder and harder, his hands gripped tightly onto her hips.
She clawed at the carpet beneath her, trying to hold onto anything that would keep her steady against his intense thrusts. The sheer power he had was astonishing.
He picked her up, sweeping knick-knacks and a lamp off a side table with a smash, throwing her against the newly cleared surface. Her chest was pressed against the cool wood, and he quickly began fucking her again.
Her knees betrayed her, and he spun her around, sitting her up on the side table. She wrapped her legs around his waist, their bodies pressed tightly together, sweaty and needy.
He pinned her back to the wall, his hand around her throat. They watched where they were connected before locking eyes, moaning before kissing with an intensity that made her toes curl.
He couldnât get enough of her. His body was wound so tight with arousal, the feeling of finally having her driving him wild.
âFuck,â he panted, âso fucking good.â
She purposely pulsed her cunt around him, his head going dizzy.
âStâgod, you have to stop.â
The expression he wore was hardly an incentive to stop, and she did it more.
âStop, stop.â
Pulling back, much to her dismay, voiced with a displeased moan, he stepped back from her. He grabbed his cock in his fist, playing with himself while she sat there watching. Desperately writhing, her chest heaving.
She whimpered as he fucked himself harder, the pleasure displayed clearly on his face. She shuffled forward a little, wanting to be the only form of bliss he felt.
He glared. âDid I say that you could move?â
âNo, butââ
âDo as youâre told or I will come all over my hand while you watch.â
She bit her tongue, settling back into place with a pout. He chuckled lightly, his stomach tightening at the sight. He wanted to come so fucking bad but he wasnât done with her.
âGet on all fours, pet.â He instructed, his fist still wrapped tight around himself.
She slowly lowered herself to the floor, on her knees in Infront of him before getting on her hands as well, on all fours just like he asked. He smiled proudly at her, watching her wait for the next instruction.
âI want you to crawl to the bedroom for me.â He purred. âSlowly.â
She bit her lip, hiding her smile, trying to remain unfazed. She did as he asked, just as she always had. Always wanting to impress him. He stalked behind her, watching the way her hips were shaped, watching how her ass swayed as she crawled, watching how her hair fell over her shoulders. She looked back to meet his eyes before picking up her pace a little.
He felt something spike in his bloodstream, and he ran after her, grunting as he picked her up and threw her onto the bed.
âYouâre a fucking tease.â He chastised her as he followed. She crawled away, curled up at the top of the bed. âYou want to run, pet?â
She shook her head, a mischievous smile lighting up her face as he narrowed his eyes.
âI better make sure you stay put.â
She watched as he went out to the lounge, fishing through his duffel bag before heading back to the bedroom. He began wringing a sage green tie between his hands, eyeing her.
He made his way towards her, gauging her expression. âGive me your hands.â
She did as she was told, mesmerised.
âGood girl.â
He tied her wrists up, not too tight, but tight enough that she wouldnât slip out. Then he tied them to the white iron headboard, her arms stretched up. He couldnât resist reaching down to bite and lick her nipples until she was whining and begging him to take her.
âYou want this cock?â He shuffled forward until he was kneeling over her chest.
She nodded eagerly and he gripped the hair on top of her head. âOpen your mouth. Taste your pussy on my cock before I give it to you again.â
She opened, her eyes fluttering when he pushed his dick into her mouth, all the way, not letting her adapt to his size. Just letting her taste him. Feel him.
âSo pretty with your mouth full, arenât you?â
She choked, her eyes prickling with tears that threatened to roll over before he pulled away. And then he was flipping her over, pulling her up onto her knees and elbows and fucking her so brutally that she feared the whole hotel would hear.
He made noises that were animalistic. Feral and unhinged. He fucked her so hard that neither of them could see straight. Hitting her so deep she could feel it in her throat.
He wasnât sure he could last much longer, and he wanted to hold her. He moved her to her side, spooning behind her. He lifted her outer leg up, slipping his throbbing cock into her drenched heat with a deep, rolling moan.
His fingers found her clit again, and she reached back to kiss him messily. Their tongues met, wet and unashamed. He wanted her to come again, and his cock screwed into her relentlessly while he drew tight circles on her clit.
âCome for me.â He panted. âPlease. I need it. Give me another one, all over my cock. You can do it, pet.â
She whimpered, her brow furrowed as he growled, taking her harder than he had all night. Her orgasm shattered her before she knew it was upon her.
She keeled forward, and he wound his arms around her to keep her steady while she came, crying out his name so loud that he had to give her two of his fingers to bite down on.
He swore at how tight she became when she climaxed, her walls pulsing and clenching around him. He fought to hold on, but his body was overworked and she felt so fucking good.
With a whine, he untied her hands and gently moved her onto her back, slipping inside of her with a long sigh. He took her, deep and slow and with a fluidity that had her legs shaking.
He wanted to come staring into her eyes. With her legs wrapped around his waist. His name was on her lips as he pounded into her relentlessly.
âWill you tease me again?â He asked her, his eyes searing.
âYes.â She gasped out.
âYouâre my little fuck toy.â He was a mess. âMine to fuck and fill with my cum. Reward you for your hard work in my class. Make you come every time you pass.â
âAll yours.â She breathed out, desperate to get him there. âIâm your dirty secret, professor.â
âCanât fucking stand how you make me feel. Filthy fucking girl. Tell me you want my cum.â
âI want your cum, professor.â
âHow bad do you want it?â
âI need it so bad. Please, fill me up with it.â
He growled out her name, burying his head in her neck and biting on the skin. His orgasm rocked through him, and he fucked her through it, not caring when she cried out in discomfort.
He wanted this. To fill her. Claim her. Stake his mark seeing as sheâd sought after him. Teased him and poked until he gave in. Heâd rip every one of those sundresses off her for a taste of how magical she was.
Like visiting all seven wonders of the world and discovering millions of new ones all at once.
prompt years after youâve broken up, harry styles names a song after youâŠ.and references youâŠ.and mentions you quite a bit. (18+)
in this: exes / enemies to lovers, angst (one direction breakup), miscommunication, jealous harry, stubborn y/n, falsehoods about the one direction breakup for drama, eventual smut <3
a.n. reading the 1st part honestly isnt that necessary!
harry styles has always been annoying.
he never waved off attention or pretended he didnât like it. he did. most people do. it feels good to be seen, to be chosen, to be reflected back brighter than you remember yourself being.
itâs just most people werenât him.
anyone couldâve predicted harry styles. just look at him. jesus christ.
with him, attention was never incidentalâitâs just the way things are. if heâd never got up and changed his life, he still wouldâve been swooned after and gawked at and whispered about in the cheshire streets. so, noâseeing his face plastered over billboards and pressed between glossy magazine folds isnât a shock. whatâs strange is seeing your name slapped right beside it.
a number one trending single.
you donât acknowledge him. youâre private and classy and donât really know how to, so you spend most mornings floating between stupid los angeles fitness trends to get your mind off him. thatâs the cityâs greatest asset: selective blindness. the average local know better than to ask. the usual tourist is too intimidated to try. instead, they whisper, very poorly, like you canât hear your own name mispronounced three treadmills over, but still. no real confrontation.
the paparazzi hasnât quite figured out these hot yoga studios yet. no good leaks, you suppose. too much distractions. bad lighting. youâre sure you could outrun them now anyway. your mile times were getting impressive.
still, his perfect fucking face beams down from sunset boulevard in thirty feet of curated effortlessness, mouth slightly parted, soft curls falling just low enough to look accidental. you want to honk at every pedestrian who stops to take a photo.
a number one trending single.
fuck.
you werenât going to see the end of him any time soon.
the track list isnât even out yet, and youâre refreshing like youâre sixteen again. thumb hovering. itâs normal. everyone is curious about their ex. itâs fine.
you really canât help it.
you want to know if you made the cut.
if thereâs something more. something humiliatingly specificâthe quick breakfasts, the nights on the kitchen floor, the way he whispered your name in your neck. some detail no one else would know, something for only you to hear.
but there was this strange fear. what if that was it? doesnât he write songs about all his exes? could it be the great, tortured poet didnât need you at all?
you donât mean to hear him on the radio, but you do.
the radio host (you never remember his name, just the cadence of his voice) opens with the usual trained warmth. big congratulations. record-breaking numbers. âsummer already belongs to you.â that sort of thing.
âyour lead single is complete gold,â he says, a soft, almost disbelieving laugh tucked into the compliment. âitâs bright. itâs fun. but itâs also refreshingly personal.â
thereâs a pause.
âyouâre opening this new era by revisiting a relationship that predates your solo career. thatâs not something youâve really done so directly before.â
âis it not?â harry asks lightly. you can hear the eyebrow in it. the small smile.
the host hums. âyouâve written about love, sure. but this feels uncharacteristically specific.â
âiâve always written about my life,â harry says lightly. âiâd be in trouble if i stopped.â
âhey, i donât mean this provocatively,â he adds, which of course means he does. âbut y/n has always been a bit of a recognizable name in her own right. people remember this moment, people remember her.â
âas do i.â
still playful, but thereâs a bit of sharpness under it now. you imagine harry leaning back in his chair. fingers tapping the armrest. smile still there, but thinner.
the host laughs. âi guess my question is, why now?â
another pause, softer this time.
âi think sometimes it just takes a while to say something properly,â harry says. âyou can feel it for years and not have the language for it.â
âand you found it?â
âi found a melody,â he corrects quietly.
thereâs a breath. maybe the energyâs changed in the room, because harry moves to steer it.
âtimingâs funny,â he says. âsometimes you can only write the truth once youâre far enough away from it to admit youâre still in it.â
âstill in it?â the host catches.
a laugh from harry.
âdonât twist my words nowâŠâ
the host clears his throat, voice turning a little lighter.
âsheâs been spotted at a few of zayn malikâs vegas shows,â he says casually. âthey seem close. front row, backstage. should we be reading into that?â
harry lets out the faintest laugh.
âvegas is a very social city,â he says.
âright,â the host nudges, âseeing her at his shows. cheering him on. that doesnât sting at all?â
harry hums like heâs thinking about it.
âi think itâs lovely she supports live music,â he says cheekily.
the host grins. âhave you been?â
âiâve seen him perform once or twice over the years, yeah.â
laughter swells around the studio, but you still feel harryâs presence. itâs another energy. heavier. you can almost hear him shift in his seat.
harry continues mindfully. he almost deflects.
almost.
âi think itâs always nice when someone who knew you before⊠sees what youâve built.â
the host grins in his voice. âwould you like her to come around and see the empire youâve built? could we expect her front row any time soon?â
âitâs⊠ah,â he starts, then stalls for half a second. âi donât fill my days making seating charts.â
the host waits.
âthat would have to be her decision,â harry finishes, a little softer.
âso youâre leaving it up to her.â
âsheâs got good instincts.â
âeven if those instincts land her in someone elseâs front row?â
another pause.
âif she wants to see a show,â he says, âi hope itâs a good one.â
âyours?â
a faint smile creeps back into his voice.
âweâll leave that up to her.â
smart.
you try to make sense of it all. his media training team has always been better than yourâs. thereâs a whiteboard somewhere with arrows and contingencies. he pokes at all of this because itâs funny to him. the mythology. the think pieces. the way your name trends every time he smiles or frowns.
he hasnât contacted you since vegas. not once.
and now that you think about itâharrys never actually chased you. not really. there was no grand gesture. no airport sprint. no drunk voicemails or missed calls. he hadnât even asked zayn about you.
if he were in love, at least it would be embarrassing. at the end of the day, thereâs no dramatic rejection to recover from. one day, harry was there, and then he wasnât.
youâre not together. youâre not estranged. youâre not friends. youâre not anything.
time has thinned it out. what used to feel sharp now feels⊠foreign? sharp? you catch yourself polishing it, sanding down the parts that hurt.
it was 2014 when he first started talking about going solo. really talking about it.
âyouâd leave the boys?â you asked, eyebrows raised like you already knew the answer.
âweâd have to discuss it,â harry said softly. his hand was already under your shirt, just there. thumb tracing the edge of your ribcage like he was memorizing you in pieces.
the moonlight had made everything forgiving. your bare legs tangled with his. the air heavy and still. he pressed his forehead to yours and said, âweâd do it properly. amicably. like adults.â
you remember frowning.
amicable. proper. adult.
they werenât the first words that came to mind when you thought about your boyfriend harry. you stared at the ceiling, suddenly aware of how careful he sounded. how managed. it wasnât your place. it wasnât. it wasnât. it wasnât.
the rise had already changed the air around him. you felt it in the way his phone never really rested anymore. new names kept appearingâproducers in malibu, stylists in new york, some directorâs daughter who just âgets itâ in a way you donât. you couldnât avoid it. itâs in the way he disappears mid-dinner to take calls he wouldnât have taken a year ago. itâs in his journaling in the middle of the night. itâs in the way heâs keeping things from the band.
does it matter? really? this was about the work. about contracts and industry things. not you. itâs work.
but work used to mean rehearsals and inside jokes and the boys piled onto one hotel room.
but every new season seemed to come with new ideas. and new rumors, new hobbies and new friends. and this new notion that there was a life beyond this boyband gig. there was some other big dream he was chasing now.
it was all becoming a bit⊠confusing.
the sudden interest in party sightings. the top charters suddenly orbiting around london and new york. the taylor-swiftification of it all. you felt sick and silly and stupid for being jealous of this friendship that barely exists. and you really try not to look at the screen when it glows against his jaw in the dark, but you do.
it isnât your place. itâs just work.
youâve watched him get invited into rooms that wouldâve swallowed him whole two years ago. he walks into them like he belongs there. like heâs always belonged there.
you feel your chest tighten because you can see how easy it would be.
still, you asked. your voice smaller than you expect.
âwhat happens after?â
he didnât answer immediately. his thumb kept tracing the same idle line across your hip, like he could smooth the question down if he ignored it long enough.
âafter what?â
âafter this,â you said. âwhere do you go?â
harry exhaled against your mouth. didnât answer right away. just kissed you, reeling you back in. his hand slid down your spine, slow, possessive.
âanywhere,â he said finally.
the next morning he wasnât there.
not in the shower. not downstairs. not pacing on the balcony with his phone pressed to his ear. there was no time for breakfast. or a note. or a text.
you stared at your phone. refresh. lock screen. refresh again. you waited at the window like a forgotten pet.
downstairs, the street was buzzing. security, handlers, luggage being rolled out in neat lines. the boys are leaving for the next tour date. itâs loud and organized and efficient.
one of the car doors opened and zayn lingered a second too long before ducking in. he glanced up âquick, almost accidentalâand for a heartbeat youâre certain he catches you.
your chest tightened in that ugly, humiliating way.
the door shut. engines hummed. the cars pulled away in a smooth line, turning the corner without hesitation.
you watched until they disappeared.
days pass. weeks.
you check your phone again anyway, furious at yourself for hoping.
nothing happens.
until itâs a fucking ambush.
him outside some west hollywood restaurant youâve actually waited outside before, back when things were smaller. black suit, hair pushed back, hand settled low on the waist of a girl built for the fast lane. los angeles supermodel. legs for days. goddamn it girl.
itâs so public it almost makes you self-conscious. you stare at the images and assume what youâre supposed to assume. heâs moved on. of course he has.
you think about that morning. about him slipping out before you woke up. you picture it nowâharry moving carefully in the dark. phone light instead of the overhead light. suitcase zipped slowly. shoes in hand so they donât scrape the floor. pausing for a second, maybe, to look at you asleep.
or maybe not. maybe he didnât look at you at all.
when zayn leaves the band months later, the statement polite and strained, something in you feels vindicated. you canât help but read the words back and laugh.
because you know, you just know, that harry was pissed.
not because zayn left. because zayn did it first.
itâs a nice feeling. itâs petty, and itâs nice. you donât feel like the most dramatic person in the world anymore. for a while, you questioned, wondered if youâd maybe misread it all. if maybe you were just young and sensitive and orbiting someone whose life was always going to be bigger than yours.
but zayn proved that wasnât true. there was a way to navigate that world without succumbing to it. harry just wasnât interested in finding it.
you couldnât talk about it with zayn, not in the mean, petty, and childish way you wanted toâbut it felt appropriate to hate harry. it keeps you upright. motivated. even now. you know he left years ago. you know he chose everything else. you know he could have reached out and didnât.
still, there was so much about harry styles that kept you wondering.
even now.
especially now.
youâre standing barefoot on your own front step, hair still damp and salty from the ocean, skin tight from sun and cold water. mani had sworn by those stupid early beach dips, it was something sheâd heard on a podcast.
but now heâs here.
on your doorstep.
you feel ugly immediately.
not objectively. just exposed. no makeup. oversized sweatshirt. sand still clinging to your ankles. like a kid again, in that uncomfortable way, too open and a little ridiculous.
âharry?â you say, and it comes out sharper than you meant.
he turns.
he looks unfairly composed. hair pushed back, skin still flushed from a morning rush of his own. some casual version of him you were no longer used to.
ây/n,â his eyes scan over you in that slow way he hasânot leering, just assessing.
âwhere were you?â he asks.
the question irritates you immediately.
âwhat are you doing here?â you shoot back at him.
harry shifts his weight, hands in his pockets. he always buys himself time before answering.
âi was just⊠in the area.â
you almost laugh. sure, of course.
âzayn mentioned you got a nice house out here,â he adds.
âso you decided to drop by?â you ask.
his jaw flexes slightly. âi didnât know if youâd answer if i called.â
you fold your arms over yourself, partly cold, partly defensive. âi didnât know you still had my number.â
his eyes drop briefly to the ground, then back to you. âi do.â
but he doesnât look like heâs done.
âi didnât think youâd actually let him in,â he mutters.
you blink. âlet him in?â
âinto your life,â he clarifies. âlike this.â
youâre not even on the porch. youâre standing in the driveway, car still warm behind you, sand clinging to your ankles, keys digging into your palm.
âheâs never really here,â you point out, though the point feels stupid and useless immediately.
âhe hates california,â you add. âwonât shut up about it.â
harry exhales through his nose. âright.â
heâs a more than a few feet away, close enough that you can see the way his chest rises too fast, far enough that he canât touch you without asking.
and then you notice the coffees, sitting pretty in an up-cycled egg tray: one hot. one iced.
itâs already sweating through the plastic. he mustâve gone out of his way to stop somewhere before coming here. planned this.
âi really donât get it,â you say, irritation cutting through the delicate morning. âwhat are you doing here?â
âi wanted to see you.â
âwhy?â
his mouth presses into a thin line.
âbecause he gets to.â
you should slap him. really. you should throw the coffee in his face.
âyou donât get to be jealous,â you say.
âiâm not jealous.â
you arch a brow.
harry exhales. âfine. i am.â
itâs what you wanted, but the admission still hangs heavy. what were you supposed to do with that?
the ocean hums faintly in the distance. a neighborâs sprinkler clicks on. normal morning sounds around something that feels anything but.
âiâm sorry,â he says. âi just couldnât keep pretending i didnât care. i thought the song⊠i thought the song would rid me of you, but it didnât. i still feel it. you. all the time.â
your pulse is loud in your ears. was this really happening? now, after all this time?
he breaks off, frustrated with himself. âiâm not asking for anything. i just donât want you thinking it was easy for me. when i left,â he says, softer now, âi thought i was fixing it.â
âfixing what?â
âeverything,â he exhales. âthe work, the pressure, the timing. i thought if i stepped back from you⊠i thought if i got everything else together first, then when i came back to you, nothing wouldâve fell apart. i shouldnât have done it. i shouldnât have left you. and iâm sorry.â
you nod slowly.
âso the supermodel?â you ask. itâs petty and stupid and you canât help yourself.
âthat was part of your fucked up plan to get your shit together?â
his jaw tightens. âthatâs not fair.â
âitâs not unfair either.â
he looks away for a second, then back at you, frowning.
âshe was helpful,â he says finally. âshe got me in tight rooms. thatâs all she ever was-â
âbe honest with me,â you cut him off, voice sharper now. âwere you already seeing her?â
his head snaps back slightly like youâve slapped him. âwhat?â
âitâs not a complicated question.â
âi would never cheat on you,â he says.
your throat goes dry.
harryâs voice drops. âyou really think iâd do that to you?â
âi think youâre perfectly capable of choosing yourself over me.â
his throat works like heâs swallowing something sharp.
âi left badly,â harry admits. âi handled it wrong. i was selfish. but i didnât cheat on you.â
you look awayâat the hood of your car, at the street, at the neighborâs uneven hedges, at literally anything but him.
âi hate that you donât believe me,â he says. he doesnât look away when he says it. he just stands there, jaw set, like heâs forcing himself not to soften the admission.
you donât answer.
âi hate that i have to knock,â harry continues. âthat i donât get to just walk in and sit on your couch. that i donât get to be there when youâre tired or annoyed or happy.â
your jaw tightens.
âi hate that he does,â he adds. âi hate that i still thought maybe part of you would still beâŠâ
âjust stop, harry,â you say. thereâs an unexpected strain in your voice now.
he stops. he waits. waits until he could come out with something collected, something sincere, something real. his brain is racing, tearing itself apart at the same time. it would be easier to build a time machine.
just believe me. iâm here. iâm here now. i should have been sooner. i know. i know that. iâll be better now. canât you see?
âwould you like me to leave?â harry asks.
it would be easier to snap at him. to roll your eyes. to say something cruel and mean and true, but you canât. here it was: the answer to your looming nightmares.
harry didnât cheat. he just left.
thereâs nothing more, is there? thatâs it. the closure. the end of the mysteries of your ex-boyfriend.
âi think that would be whatâs best.â
âis that what you feel?â
âyou came here to see me and you saw me,â you point out.
âi actually came here for coffee,â he counters, somewhat light despite the awful tension in the air. you take yours, finally. some caramel concoction with oatmilk written messily on the side.
you stare at it for a moment.
âin the most polite way,â you start, hesitant. âi really donât think we should maintain any sort of relationship. i appreciate the gesture, but i do think its time for you to go.â
you see harryâs face twist and your stomach sinks a little, because you already know heâs going to argue.
âi believe you, harry,â you say, and it stops him like you knew it would. âi believe you didnât cheat and you did it for your career and it worked. everything worked out.â
you hear him mutter something under his breath. the wind rises and falls again, but the frustration stays on his face.
he feels his chest rise, and in a strange, complicated moment of bravery,
he pulls himself forward and kisses you, like he couldnât hold himself back another second.
and the kiss is so strange and thrilling and familiar you almost let him.
harryâs lips crashing against yours in a frenzy of frustration, of necessity. this kiss is different than any of the others. less sentimental. rough. like every ounce of fear and devotion heâs been holding inside has finally broken loose.
you break away. youâve dropped both your coffees on the floor.
âyours was watered down anyway,â harry murmurs, reading your mind. he moved only to drag his lips across your cheek, your jaw, the edge of your throat.
âi donât think we should be doing thisââ
âyou think too much,â he groans, still working at marking your skin.
he kisses you again, deeper, rougher, like heâs trying to make up for every moment he made himself stay away from you.
you gasp against his mouth when his hands, big and warm, slide down to your hips, pulling you against him with a force that makes your breath draw. the friction of your clothed bodies is enough to send a shudder down your spine.
harryâs grip on your hips tightens, and you swear you can feel his nails digging into you through the fabric of your shorts. he pulls you down against him, harder this time, and the pressure is almost too much, his hard cock rolling against you form waves of heat that comes so pleasurably itâs like water in the fucking desert. fuck. what the hell was happening?
he was sinking himself further and further into your cunt. he swore he could feel you, all of you, even just like this. youâre in a haze when he says, âturn around.â
âwhat?â
âi want you to be a good girl and turn around for me, yeah?â
you do, of course you do. you've never seen him this desperate. harry was all about passion and a lover of intimate moments, but this is far from that. it's not just rough, reckless. itâs near fucking animalistic.
âfuck, i missed you,â he groans, pounding his big cock straight into your wetness.
itâs rushed and itâs hard, but so, so deliciously good. right against the side of your car.
wet, lewd sounds of skin slapping fill what once was an innocent california morning, filling your ears and send you even faster to the edge than you were already reeling. that feeling storming, spreading, twitching inside you.
âharryââ you whine. youâre too embarrassingly close. itâs all too much. too good.
he doesnât bother to cover your mouth. he likes you like this. needs you like this. seriouslyâhe canât help the sick, twisted, jealous part of his mind wants you both to get caught. your pussy was dripping and enveloping him like a tight embrace, refusing to let him go, milking him for everything he had. you were his. undeniably. his, his, his.
he groans. his girl. no one elseâs.
âtake it,â harry murmurs in your ear. âtake it all of it. youâre gonna keep it in, yeah?â
he buries himself in as you both reach your orgasms. hot and heavy as he pumps you full, his breath unsteady against your neck as you realize the damage. youâre stuck under his spell again, soaked, stretched and overflowing.
âgood girl,â he says. âknew you could do it.â
you turn and pull away, though itâs obvious harry isnât worried about how close he is.
âcleared your head, didnât it?â he continues on. ânow we can talk. properly. like adults.â