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Realizations

Months have passed since I wrote here. A lot of things happened, I’ve graduated from college and will now contribute to the workforce. Idk why but I feel so empty. I’m not actually happy. Last night was a wake up call to me, I was a fool. Too childish and so selfish. I feel so neglected and unloved. I don’t feel important. What should I expect? Am I just over-reacting? Am I too shallow? I don’t know what’s the right thing to do.I don’t have anyone to talk to with this kind of problem. 

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3rd monthsary xx

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Crying all night because I'm missing you guys. And I don't have the guts to approach all of you and ask if we could talk. #wildlife

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Currently listening to Boom Clap by Charli XCX

Oh hey, the song is superb. I feel so inlove. Lol. #jokelang

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I don't really have any talent in singing no matter how much I tried to. Dang. I even tried to record my voice on soundcloud and I almost died from hearing it. My voice sucks. 

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How will I put these into words? Uh, probably by saying that I don't feel my new friends surrounding me? Yes. I don't feel them. It's like they're forcing you to do something that is beyond your will. Another thing is, I lost two of my things just because I agreed to lend them those things. I'm afraid to tell them frankly that I don't like them maybe because they almost got most of my friends in their side. But, I promise, starting tomorrow, if they do that again, I will just go by myself. 

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Ugh. Too much loads of school works is killing me. 4 marketing plan/research project and one term paper in almost one month's time, isn't that fun? Very challenging. I haven't even got a normal sleep in the last few days, more likely I only got 2-3 hours of sleep and that's the maximum. Argh. Plus I'm only experiencing the effect now.. My head's still aching and my eyes weigh too much and I can't think properly. Ah. anyways, I'm still waiting for the trailer of The fault in our stars. Ciao! Goodnight.