i'm crazy. i'm crazy! reading through anaxa's character story and i'm just. i'm insane. these are the ramblings of a crazy person. ignore me.
he's always been a huge nerd, but the fact that his sister died while he was on his way to the grove after struggling to send him there is so... why. WHY. first you orphan the siblings, have little anaxa bullied for being curious and nerdy, and then you KILL HIS SISTER. and to make matters worse, this poor man has no privacy since cerces is in his head all the time.
i wonder what that must feel like to him. can he literally feel cerces flipping through the pages of his memories? or can he hear her musings as she does so? i wonder how he locks her out.
...and now i'd like to think about that 15 days with anaxa thing. maybe he's ignoring you for the sake of pursuing his end goal, but with cerces constantly searching his memories, she discovers you. i'm thinking of it as a memory bubble that she might come into contact with – just touching anaxa's memories of you causes cerces to feel many different emotions, none of which belong to her. she's probably in awe at the intensity of said emotions, especially because it's hard to believe that anaxa, of all people, would feel this way toward something that wasn't his research.
so for those 15 days i'd like to think that cerces sifts through anaxa's memories and questions him. canonically i know she can't control his body, but for the sake of this hypothetical fic, maybe she can. she seeks you out and tries to interact with you, but somehow, you see through her act and call her on it. you don't know that it's the titan of reason, but you know for a fact that that's not anaxa you're talking to.
...i wanna.. hm. HMM. I CANT SHUT UP PLEASE SHUT ME UP