In @godkilller's redemption verse where Gin survives the Winter War and has to atone for his crimes against the Soul Society, Rangiku truly grapples with her feelings towards him. On one hand, she's incredibly grateful that he survived and that they can work towards repairing their broken bond. But on the other hand, she still hurts so fucking deeply.
Rangiku was forced to grieve Gin in so many different ways... she experienced immense anger towards him at his initial betrayal, and then eventually that anger coalesced with bargaining during the war, itself. Guilt, depression, shock... all of those feelings hit her tenfold when he all but died in her arms. She still holds onto those last few words he said to her, about her being in the way.
For as stubborn and strong-willed as she is, she still wonders if those of her colleagues that judge her for sticking by Gin's side are right in their opinions of her... of them. And while Gin is fighting his own personal war within himself upon his failure to return back the piece of her soul that was taken, Rangiku has her own demons to face.
She also isn't able to drink away her problems at the beginning of this verse, either ----- mainly because she doesn't want to hear about the way all of her colleagues talk about her behind her back ----- nor does she want to experience her friends walking on eggshells around her.
tl;dr ----- his whole verse really challenges Rangiku to rediscover herself and her own wants and needs.
