What Could Have Been - Hiba x fem reader (Chapter 2)
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After my experience with Hiba she had started giving me disapproving, sometimes taunting looks whenever I walked past her.
From time to time I could also hear her making fun of me with Tasneem.
That was my clear sign to give up on her. My self esteem surely was not as low as to attempt befriending her again.
I kind of settled on getting by instead of having a great time. It was my last school year anyway and I was sick on starting fresh over and over.
Being alone was better than this drama. Less risky in general.
After school I was mostly at home, retreating to my hobbies. If I was in the mood for it I would also go out on a walk.
I needed the time to reset after the stressful school week.
Unfortunately my mom did not understand that, or most likely did not care.
She took me to one of her events, underlining how much it would hurt her image if I did not come along and behave.
After all there was going to be a kid in my age as well and we were supposed to spend time because our parents knew each other.
I would probably never get this logic, but I did not have a say in it anyway.
So reluctantly I tagged along, not wanting my mom to make my life even more of a hell for missing out on this event.
It was pretty fancy or in other words boring and fake.
I caught myself wishing for the person my age to make all of this more bearable, until I reminded myself that I did not even know who it was.
After about ten minutes my mom talked to another woman who suggested that I should go out with the other girls as the area was supposed to be popular around teens and they wanted to talk about business.
Why did they drag as along if they did not want us here?
I agreed, assuming time would at least pass faster.
But I regretted that quickly as I got to know that her daughter was Tasneem.
It only seemed to get worse as I found out that she had invited Hiba as well because she had not wanted to be stuck here on her own.
I hated my luck.
The smile on the faces of the girls faded for a second when they recognized me, although they immediately put on a fake one in front of our moms.
As soon as we were outside and had put enough distance between us and the restaurant the event was at, they stopped and turned to face me.
“I can't believe they forced us to go with you”, Hiba stated, her voice dripping with disgust and annoyance.
“You don't seriously think I'm happy about this, do you? I didn't wanna come in the first place”, I complained.
“Why don't we just split up then?”, Tasneem considered.
“To get into trouble because she screws it up in some way? No, thanks”, Hiba proposed. “Let's just go into some stores together to pass time.”
Of course they wanted to go and try on some clothes. Another time I did not get a say.
I had to follow them around.
In the beginning I dared to pick up some clothes myself, but the way they were whispering and laughing in my direction made me put them back without trying them on.
Instead I was scrolling on my phone to zone out.
It worked out pretty well until I felt my phone buzz inside my pocket when we were walking down the busy street.
I stopped in my tracks and took it out, not daring to walk while looking down with all those people around.
Great! My phone had died on me. Apparently my scrolling had been more excessive than I had thought.
Suddenly I realized that I was not wandering around on my own and looked up to search for Hiba and Tasneem.
No sight of them.
I groaned in frustration.
Could this day get any worse?
I walked around in the attempt to find them, which was pretty ironic as I was usually avoiding them.
After a while I gave up, sitting down on a bench, close to the main street.
I was still scanning the crowd for the familiar faces though.
To my surprise I was able to spot Hiba a few minutes later.
She was turning around wildly.
Was she searching for me? She did say that she did not want to get into trouble …
It was still weird to see the worried expression on her face replacing her usual scowl or mocking smirk.
I made my way over to her, tapping her shoulder.
She turned around immediately, anger and confusion evident on her face.
I could hear her mumble my name, although it was almost drowned out by the noises of the people around us.
“Where the hell have you been?”, she ranted. “Why didn't you answer your fucking phone?”
“I got lost in the crowd and my phone's turned off. It's empty”, I explained calmly.
Her behavior was irritating me to be honest.
Hiba moved her hand through her hair, before she sighed and called Tasneem to tell her she had found me.
We all met up and decided to get some ice cream to calm down.
For the rest of the day I could not help but wonder about Hiba's strange behavior. Tasneem had been way more casual about the situation.
What was wrong with Hiba? It was not like I owed her to know where I was.
It all did not make any sense.
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Hey guys! I know it's been forever since i last update for alrawabi. Thank you all for your patience! I hope you enjoyed this chapter.
Feel free to make suggestions for the following chapters.
Shoutout to @wireheadbird for making suggestions for this chapter.
Note : Hi, damn its been about a month since I posted. This is the most i could write tbh i literally squeezed my brain for this chapter to be written and its short i know BUT its different than the ones before.
Warnings : slight mentions of grief, S.A, slut shaming, mentions of a gun, threatening, blood, swearing, slight angst.
Summary : Hiba and reader get somewhat closer all because of an incident in their neighborhood.
I walked through the always empty streets admiring how the leaves danced with the afternoon wind. I had woken up on my bed a few hours back which led me to think all the events that had happened the day before were just a bad dream. But the stinging pain and scabbing over red lines under my bangs said otherwise. Judging from the sound of the radio playing old music and no sounds coming from the television I could tell right away it was only my mother and I at home. She had suggested I take advantage of my weekend and go get some fresh air and socialize, and said something about how we’ll talk about what happened later. Which brings me here.
Looking up at the sky I realized the sun was about to set which was my sign to go back home. I was just a few blocks away when I recognized someone crossing the not so busy streets, she had headphones on with her hair fluffed up and a pair of ripped jeans with a brown shirt.
I quickly averted my gaze when I realized it was Hiba, hoping she wouldn't notice me. But in doing so I accidentally made eye contact with a group of teenage boys who were for some strange reason already looking at me.
I swore under my breath keeping my gaze on the floor and rushed past the boys, which resulted in me bumping straight into someone’s back. “Watch where yo-” the voice paused, “oh, it’s you” Hiba snorted mockingly, turning to me. Her smirk was quickly wiped off of her face when she saw the scared expression on my face, before she could say anything a whistle sounded from behind me.
We both turned to look at where the sound was coming from, and spot the four creepy looking boys approaching us. I instinctively grabbed her hand in fear, which she squeezed in return but not taking her glaring eyes from their smirking faces. “Hey there you two, need a good fuck?” the one in a hoodie, which seemed to be the ‘leader’, taunted “We could share you know”. This caused the others to burst into laughter. A rotten smell coming from them.
Weed
“Lets just go, please” I pull her back whispering into her ear. She turns deeming the boys not worth it and I followed along not looking back but letting go of her hand. “Oh come on,” one of the other boys whined while reaching out to grab me “It’s very obvious you don’t have an issue slutting around” I feel his disgusting eyes lingering on my neck.
A click is heard from behind me and I freeze, I could see a glint of fear flashing on their face. I looked at her and instantly recognized the small yet vital weapon she held in her hands. The same weapon that killed her. “Aw think we’ll be scared of your toy gun?” another round of laughter rings through the empty streets.
She points her gun upwards and pulls the trigger making me almost jump out of my skin. Hiba gives me a look of…concern, but doesn’t hesitate to point it back towards the boys who make a cowardly run for it. I watch them carefully from a distance until I feel a hand turn my face to the side from my chin, a pair of worried eyes made contact with mine. Her hands tug mine down away from my ears and wipes my tears. “Let’s get you home, hm?”.
I glance at her pocket where the, now obvious, pistol pokes out. She notices me looking and I guess she felt my fear. “It’s a toy” she takes it out and shows that the bullets are red paint-balls. “Makes them cower like puppies” she grins then helps me up.
Hiba is one of the most popular girls at ‘AlRawabi School for Girls’. She is best friends with Tasneem. She and Tasneem are the “queen bees” of the school. They are popular, adored and looked up to. Well Tasneem is, Hiba is known to have a more “Bully-like” Persona, she is bitchy, rude and she isn’t afraid to state her point. Which meant that Tasneem was seen as a complete angel,a girl who could do no wrong. You were friends with both of them,despite all the negativity you got,especially since you were closer to Hiba.
You were hanging out in your room,waiting for the rest of the girls. It was your turn to host the sleepover this time,you noticed Hiba staring at you.
"What Hiba?” Hiba chuckles to herself.
“Oh I’m just thinking” You notice a small smirk on her face, you can’t really tell if it’s sinister or innocent. She is thinking about something.
"Well don't hurt yourself" you teased
“Oh shut up..” She said with a giggle,she obviously didn’t mean anything by it, just some light-hearted teasing.
"What's on your mind?"
“You wouldn’t want to know…” She replied,she seemed distracted still, and not in the mood for any long or deep conversations. Just a light chat and a quick catch up. She looked over at you with that same smirk.
"So it is something dirty" you teased,you knew her too well. She rolls her eyes, trying not to giggle.
“You know me so well, don’t you?” She smirked playfully, she had always been rather vulgar when it came to these things. She liked talking about things that were inappropriate. You moved closer to her
“And what would that be?"
“Why do you wanna know so much?” She chuckled,she was enjoying playing this small game with you. She looked over at you,her eyes narrowing a little as if she was observing you. She still hadn’t answered your question about the ‘something dirty’ part.
"Since when did you become so shy?" You teased her even more,as you moved even closer. Hiba’s face began to heat up, she didn’t realize how close you had gotten to her.
“I’m not shy…. I just… don’t see why it matters…” She kept her gaze focused on yours, she felt a little embarrassed. She was just playing the game back but it looks like she was slowly losing. She looked away from you
"If it doesn't matter then tell me,what were you thinking about?" Hiba looked back at you, slightly flustered, she looked quite embarrassed now, since when was she so shy? She was normally so blunt and didn’t care about this type of stuff, she hated being vulnerable and this feeling.. She didn’t like it. She sighed.
“You know.. just stuff you don’t wanna hear about…”
"What if I wanna hear about it?" Hiba is now more embarrassed and slightly red, she glances back at you, avoiding your gaze
“You really don’t.. you’d think it was really gross…” She didn’t even realize how much she was blushing, this was not normal, she was never this shy before and the fact that it was with you was even more surprising.
"Just tell me,I can handle it"
“You really sure you wouldn’t hate me afterwards?…” She looked back at you for a split second, the heat wasn’t easing or going away, she was trying her hardest not to burst into a fit of giggles, her mind just raced with possible scenarios and things that could happen after she told you. She was hesitant, so she looked away again.
"Whatever it is,I promise I won't hate you" Hiba looked back at you, she looked so nervous to even speak about this, she hated feeling this way, but you were so persistent. She could tell you genuinely weren’t going to hate her. She gulped.
“Umm…. It’s really gross, I swear….” She was so shy now. She had never been like this before, especially around you.
"Hiba,just tell me"
“Okay, but just for a second you can’t laugh alright?” She cleared her throat, she didn’t like being this nervous in front of you, she was losing the game and you had already won before she even started playing, now she was stuck at the “Tell me” stage with nowhere else to go. Now she had to say it.. she’d never been this embarrassed before. Her heart pounded so fast and she could feel her hands trembling.
“Are you ready?” She swallowed, her voice had broken a bit, in her mind, this sounded way worse than it actually was. She had never spoken about these things ever.
“It’s… uh…” She glanced away again, she couldn’t get her eyes of your gaze, they were so pretty and they seemed to be staring at her soul. She sighed again. “Fine. But I warned you…” You waited for her to speak up. She sighed one last time before she finally spoke. Her heart was beating so fast, she felt the adrenaline course through her veins. She hated this feeling so much, but there was no getting around it. She had to do it. She spoke.
“I was thinking… ab… about…” She paused, she didn’t want to utter those words out of her mouth. She felt as if she were too embarrassed she’d just burst out crying. A nervous chuckle escaped her mouth, she looked over at you, wondering what you’d say now..
"About what?"
“D… Don’t laugh ok…?” She kept glancing away with each word she said, she didn’t want you to think she was some sort of perv. She felt sick, she felt like throwing up thinking of how you’d react but she just had to do it, she had come this far. She decided to speak it out just to get it over with. She sighed once more,opening her mouth to say it again finally…
"I promise I won't laugh"
“Fine…” She cleared her throat, she took a deep breath to prepare herself for what was to come. She looked at you one last time before she said it. As soon as she spoke, she felt such an enormous wave of regret washing over her. She felt an enormous rush of shame that could practically suffocate her.
“I was thinking about…” She gulped. “….you…”
"Me,what were you thinking about me?" Her heart beat even faster than before and she flushed a bright red. She was now just staring at the floor, she felt like she could just faint at any moment. She was trembling and felt the heat rise up in her face once more. She was regretting every second from her mentioning you… why was she so shy all of a sudden? Her voice turned weak, her throat was choking up on its own. She swallowed, she felt like any minute she’d pass out from all the adrenaline rushing through her body.
“I was thinking about… u… um…” She glanced away from you and hesitated for a second before she finally said it, she was scared she’d end up not saying it. “I was thinking about… K… making out with…you…” You blushed at her confession
“You were thinking about kissing me?" You asked as if you didn't believe her,a part of you wanted to hear her words again. Hiba’s stomach flipped as she heard you ask her this. She was trembling, her cheeks flared up even more with the red of her blush.
“Y…Yes..” She didn’t believe herself as she spoke those words either, the adrenaline was making her body go crazy as her stomach churned with nerves and emotion. She glanced at you once more, the heat radiating off her as she tried to maintain herself with what little of control she had left..
"What did it feel like? Did you like it?" Your mouth moved before your brain could stop you. She looked at you, her heart pounding at a million miles per hour, her face so red it was nearly glowing. She swallowed as her throat went dry with every single breath she took. She stared at your lips, your soft full lips were her weak spot.
“It felt…” She gulped. ”..nice..”. She paused, she had to say it as she was feeling braver now, she took a breath in as her heart beat fast. “I liked the thought of it”
"Do you wanna see if you're right?" A sudden wave of disbelief washed over her once you got those words out. She glanced at you once more, her mind ran wild with thoughts once more. The adrenaline hit her once again as you spoke those words to her. Her breath hitched in her throat, she thought she would collapse on the floor.
“You… r…eall…y want to?…” You leaned even closer,so your face was inches away from her.
"Don't keep me waiting" When she saw you inch closer, she looked like she was about to pass out, a bright red blush covered her face, her throat and heartbeat were both racing. Her legs felt shaky and her knees were close to buckling. She gulped, she felt the urge to just kiss you right now but she was still a little nervous. You were still so close to her face, that she could feel your breath grazing against her skin. Her heart thumped so loudly in her chest it made her entire body vibrate. She couldn’t hold it back anymore. Without even knowing she was doing it, she leaned in to you and pressed her warm lips against yours. She paused for a moment, her lips locking with yours, she pulled back slightly as her breath hitched, her lips slightly grazing with yours. She was so caught up in it all that she barely realized she was making a move. Her lips were against yours. Her heart was pounding so loudly that you could practically hear it. You pulled away after a few minutes to catch your breath "was it like you imagined?" She was breathless, her heart was still pounding, her eyes were glazed over as if she were in a trance. She was at a loss for words, she was speechless, her lips were still buzzing, she was so out of it. She could barely believe that she had actually done that. She had wanted and imagined this for so long, so here she was. She gave you a little tiny nod as she looked down at the floor, too embarrassed to even meet your gaze. "Is that all?" You asked,a little disappointed that she didn't give you a proper answer. You straddled her lap,your hand moving to unclip your hair clip and let your hair fall. She did always say that she liked your hair when it was down but it rarely ever was. So this was guaranteed to drive her crazy. "I guess I just have to try harder" you cupped her face and kissed her again. She was still in disbelief that this was actually happening, it had been one of those things she had constantly fantasized about but never actually believed would happen, but here she was. A wave of disbelief washed over her as she felt your mouth against hers once more. She let out a small whimper as you straddled her, your hands cupping her face as she felt your tongue press lightly against hers. Your soft lips pressed against hers as her mind ran wild with thoughts and emotions, her body trembled under yours. She kissed back, her lips locking and pressing into yours. Your hands moved slowly down to her neck and kept moving your hands further down. Her breath hitched when your hands slid down to her neck, she couldn’t believe what you were doing. The rush of adrenaline was overwhelming at this point as the heat and sensation started to overtake her. Her muscles tensed as your hands slid down her neck and down to her chest. She swallowed, her breathing was becoming more shallow and irregular. Her hands began to curl up at her side and her body trembled more with the sensation. You pulled away and moved your hands back to her face. She looked up at you with bright eyes and flushed cheeks, as you pulled away from the kiss. Her face was radiating heat as her breath still heaved and her heart was about to burst out of her chest. When you had moved your hands back to her face, she looked at them, then at you, and then back again. Her lips still had that soft, warm, tingling sensation from when we had kissed. Her gaze was slowly tracing back up to you and her lips were slightly parted, she looked at you, waiting for the next move. "So how was that?" She was still breathless as she managed out a couple of words. Her heart was still pounding and her breath was still irregular as she looked at you. Everything was so surreal, she still couldn’t believe we were even doing this. She gulped, she looked down at your hands, which were still on her face, she felt that tingle again and she liked it. She looked back up at you, her eyes were glazed with lust.
“It was… better than I could ever imagine…” You leaned in to kiss her again but your phone rang. She groaned when you pulled away from her, she was enjoying the moment way too much, and now that phone ring cut the moment short, like a knife cutting through the anticipation. She felt a wave of annoyance wash over her but she didn’t dare to show it. She didn’t want you to feel guilty. She wanted you to answer the call. She was dying to kiss you again but she understood that this call could be something urgent, so she kept her lips sealed and remained quiet. It was Tasneem,you picked up.
"Hello" Hiba glanced over as you picked up the call, she didn’t dare to listen to your call, she was too busy trying to remain calm, even though she was feeling extremely restless and on edge, the thought crossed her mind to listen in but she held herself back. She still wanted to respect your privacy, although the feeling of annoyance still lingered, she was trying to ignore it. You heard Tasneem on the other end
"Hey,me Sarah and Farah have been standing outside ringing the doorbell for the last 5 minutes" Hiba tilted her head and raised an eyebrow as she heard Tasneem speak. The annoyance continued to linger as you spoke with Tasneem, it was almost as if she were the one interrupting the moment between you and her.
"Sorry,give me a minute" you hung up and turned to Hiba. "They're here,I'll go get them and try to calm down before you come down stairs" Hiba listened to your every word as you hung up and spoke, her cheeks were still burning red with heat from the rush of adrenaline and all of the other feelings she was experiencing.
“They’re here huh..” She muttered,you clipped your hair back.
"Yeah,we'll be downstairs when you're ready to join us" She sighed as you straightened yourself back up and clipped your hair back, this action seemed to make her feel so impatient and frustrated, the feeling of annoyance began to intensify. She wanted you to stay right where you were, her mind was going crazy with thoughts of what might happen if you did stay. However all she could do was remain silent as she nodded her head. You made your way down and opened the door "hey girls" Hiba’s head tilted to the side as she heard you call out the girls’ names. She heard each girl’s voice reply with a simple “hey”, followed by a giggle. Her mind raced with thoughts, mainly of curiosity. She wanted to know what the girls were doing here, and what was going to happen next. Tasneem immediately asked
"Where's Hiba?" Before you could answer Hiba had made her way downstairs.She was now standing at the bottom of the stairs, her feet shaking as she looked at each girl with a soft smile. She had made her way downstairs a few seconds later than you expected her to, her cheeks still had the pink tinge to them. She glanced at each girl, unsure of what to say. Tasneem’s sharp eyes saw her before anyone else as she called out her name, asking where she was "Why's your face red?" Tasneem asked,Hiba immediately felt more embarrassed and her face turned even more red, as a nervous chuckle escaped her mouth. She scratched the back of her neck, she didn’t know how to respond to that, so she tried to go with a vague answer.
“It…it’s nothing” She uttered out, her heart was still beating rapidly, so the words felt a bit jumbled. You could tell Tasneem wasn't convinced but she didn't ask anything else. Hiba sighed, Tasneem was smart and quick. Even if the other two hadn’t noticed, Tasneem would’ve noticed straight away, she was like a hawk that didn’t miss a thing. Hiba could see a smirk on Tasneem’s face as she eyed her up, Hiba knew that Tasneem had noticed. Hiba just rolled her eyes and brushed her hair back. She felt a bit uncomfortable due to the smirk on Tasneem’s face. You were soon all sat around a table with snacks and sodas,except Tasneem who had brought a smoothie with her. Always keeping up her appearance even with her friends. Part of you felt inferior compared to her. But you pushed that feeling down.
"So what should we play first?" Farah asked,Hiba sat at the table with each girl, including you. She watched as Tasneem had her smoothie, looking all fancy with her straight, sleek hair and designer clothes. A sense of envy started to kick in as she observed her. Tasneem looked more like a model than she already did,but then she caught you staring and she glanced back at you. Her smirk was replaced with a small grin and a small teasing smirk as she drank her smoothie. She knew what she was doing. The girls started discussing possible games until Farah came up with one. All of you would put your phones on the table and whoever got a notification would be forced to read it outloud. The girls chimed in,each putting their phone on the table.
"I'm in" you said as you placed your phone alongside theirs.The game idea seemed pretty simple, but she liked how it involved everyone. She placed her phone on the table alongside theirs and folded her hands as she waited, waiting to see who would get the first notification. It didn’t take long until Tasneem had already received a notification, her phone had gone off first and she had been forced to read it out. She picked it up, looking at the notification as she cleared her throat.
“Ugh, a reminder to join the gym” She snorted. “So basic..” She said with a condescending pout as she placed the phone back on the table. Hiba didn't believe her and just grabbed her phone to check. Tasneem’s face immediately turned sour and she began to whine as her phone was whipped from her hands. “Hey! That’s not fair!” She exclaimed, her voice was suddenly higher pitched and her facial expression was one of betrayal, she tried to reach for her phone but you pushed her hands away. Tasneem continued to whine as you picked up her phone and opened the message. As you looked at the message on her phone, it was a text message from her personal trainer. Tasneem got caught out in her lie, and she didn’t seem pleased about it. A pout instantly spread across her face as she watched you read her messages. Out of all the things to lie about, she chose that her expression was like that of a kid that had been caught in the cookie jar with their hand still in. You leaned over to read the message. As you leaned over to read the message, Tasneem’s pout grew even more, she looked so irritated that she had been caught out in a lie. The text message was from her personal trainer and it read
“You missed your session today, just a reminder for when I next see you.” You knew what this meant, Tasneem had skipped her training session for some reason. The pout grew even more as you continued to examine the text message. A part of you was worried
"hey,he's not forcing you to workout or anything else?" You tried to sound as gentle as possible. Tasneem’s pout dropped slightly as she heard your concerned voice. She shook her head in the denial as she glanced over at you with a slightly embarrassed look on her face.
“No.. No,he’s not forcing me. I just thought I would skip today” She muttered, a small blush appeared on her cheeks, before she quickly shook it off.
"Okay,but we're your friends and if anything happens you can tell us" She nodded her head in agreement, she didn’t want to seem as if she was lying again, even though you still had a slight feeling of mistrust, you decided to let it go for now. Tasneem seemed more reassured now that your response had been so calm. She gave a small smile as she took back her phone from you. She picked it up from the table and put it back in her pocket. Now you were waiting for the next phone to ring or the next notification to pop up. The game was quite exciting, you had already got pretty comfortable with each of the girls so it was always fun to see what kind of notifications they would get. You sat and waited for the next notification to pop up. The anticipation was building up inside you along with your curiosity, the suspense was killing you. It didn't take long until another vibration was heard, this time from Farah’s phone. Her eyes darted down to the notification as she picked up her phone. She looked down at the screen with a curious expression on her face. Her brow furrowed as she opened up the message.
"What is it?" The girls all looked at her as she opened it, everyone was curious to see what the notification was. She clicked and her brow furrowed even further when she read the message. She went silent for a moment, before giving a small chuckle. She clicked on the message again, scrolling it up and down. The other girls waited a while before they realized that Farah was not going to say anything about the message she had received. The other girls glanced at her questioningly, and Tasneem nudged her.
“Well?” Farah then glanced back at Tasneem as she looked up at the girls. She looked down at the screen once again before her face turned bright red. She put a hand up to cover her blush. She mumbled out a few words.
“It’s nothing..” Obviously,none of you believed her. The others continued to nudge her,
“It’s obviously something..” Tasneem started to giggle slightly, looking at her with a teasing smirk. “We won’t laugh so tell us.” Tasneem said, a playful smirk on her face as she gestured for her to speak out. Farah just sighed and rolled her eyes playfully before looking back down at her phone and speaking out.
“Fine.. it’s from a boy that I’ve been talking to for a while.” She muttered out. There was silence for a while,it was the first time Farah had ever mentioned a boy. The others looked at her, their eyebrows raised with surprise. They knew that Farah had never had a boyfriend up until this point. So this was quite the shock. Tasneem and Sarah shot a glance at you, both of their expressions contained small smirks. Tasneem was the first to speak.
“Is he cute?” Farah rolled her eyes once more when she heard the question. She let out a small chuckle as she kept her phone in her hands.
“Yes,he is very cute” She put her phone away and now you were waiting for the next one. The girls were eagerly waiting to see who would receive the next notification, they were full of anticipation, their emotions and feelings were starting to rise the longer the game went by. They were in for one hell of a shock when they heard another vibration. This notification had come from Sarah’s phone, which was sitting on the table. She glanced at the notification as she picked it up, her face became red as her cheeks filled with embarrassment as she realized who the notification was from.
"Alright we've been over this,what is it?” She was completely red in the face, and a nervous, sheepish smile was on her face. She didn’t wanna say anything but the other girls kept insisting until she finally spoke out.
“It’s a boy that I’ve been flirting with…” She muttered out.
"Gee is every single one of you dating some boy,and I'm the last to find out," Tasneem said. You and Hiba gave each a knowing look before giggling.Tasneem was the only one that had had a boyfriend before everyone else. Farah and Sarah had just started to talk to boys as well, which pretty much meant that you were the last to find someone. You and Hiba both looked at each other and laughed at Tasneem’s reaction. There were only two phones left,you and Hiba. All of the attention was now on you and Hiba, as you were the only 2 that had yet to receive notifications. Every girl sat staring at you, as if they could use their sheer amount of staring to make the notification come faster. Their eyes were like hawks, scanning your every move. Tasneem was the first to speak out.
“I bet your notification is gonna be from a boy as well” She murmured, her smirk grew wider as a small giggle escaped her throat. Sarah and Farah joined in with Tasneem,all of them were staring directly at you with smug faces, they were all betting that you would be receiving a notification from a boy also. It was all coming down to the last 2 phones.
summary: (f/n) is looking forward to a night out with her girlfriends. Little does she know that it won't end up how she expected it at all.
warnings: toxic relationship, ANGST
word count: 847
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Today was one of those days I could almost burst from excitement.
My girlfriends Hiba and Tasneem had invited me to go to Pins with them to have some fun together.
Of course Ali and Omar were going to come as well, but that did not worsen my mood in the slightest.
I had taken my time choosing the perfect outfit. Enough to look hot, but subtle enough to not look cheap. I had wanted to dress up for them.
I could not help checking my phone every minute as I was waiting for them outside. Tasneem had assured me that they were picking up and I did not need to worry about anything but showing up.
“Hey, hottie”, Hiba called out through an open car window.
She was wearing her signature smirk as she was eyeing me up and down.
“Are you gonna come in or just keep decorating your neighborhood?”, she teased me.
That made me snap out of my trance and jump into the car.
Hiba took a hold of my waist pulling me onto her lap when I intended to climb over her to get to the middle seat.
“Hey! Don't keep her to yourself”, Tasneem protested and pulled me away from Hiba by my arm.
A giggle left my lips at their behavior. They could be so sweet.
During the ride their whole attention was on me as they were complimenting my outfit and taking this chance to make out. The driver would never rat us out.
But the touches, compliments and kisses all stopped as soon as we left the car again. As if we were entering another universe.
All of a sudden Hiba and Tasneem were walking ahead and I was struggling to keep up with their fast pace.
They threw themselves at the boys, chatting away. It was like I did not even exist anymore, although I was right next to them.
Ali and Omar were nice to me as well, giving their best to include me in the conversation. But it was like Hiba and Tasneem were actively ignoring and excluding me, drawing every little attention away from me, even if it was merely a simple question.
Our teams were uneven. So Hiba and Tasneem just decided that I was not going to play and instead only watch.
When Omar considered that it was not fair to leave me out of it, he made the compromise to play together with me and switch between trys.
The girls were cheering the boys on while they played, giving them a high-five when they managed to hit a lot of pins.
Now it was my turn.
I picked one of the balls and got to the line in front of the bowling alley.
Before playing I turned back around to the others, hoping for some encouragment from my girlfriends. But they were not even looking at me. They were invested in another conversation with the boys. Honestly they appeared like they were flirting.
Tears sprung to my eyes, blurring my vision.
How could they do that to me? Why had they invited me in the first place if they did not care if I was here?
I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Then I rubbed my eyes to clear my vision again.
I had no idea how I did it, but somehow I managed to get a strike, hitting all the pins at once.
Suddenly my sadness and betrayal were replaced by excitement. Maybe I had overreacted.
I made my way over to the others. “Guys! Did you see that? I hit them all”, I declared proudly.
“Nice job”, Omar complimented me.
Hiba and Tasneem were still not paying any attention though.
My face fell again as the disappointment returned.
I sat down on a chair, swiping through my phone. I was skipping through the pictures we had taken mere minutes ago in the car. If I did not have those pictures I might have thought I had imagined it all, considering how different they were acting right now.
Without saying another word I stormed outside, glancing at the others on my way. They did not notice that I was leaving. Of course they did not.
By now the tears were falling, my head hanging low hoping that no one would see.
Should I text my mom to pick me up? But then I would have to explain the situation or at least come up with a decent lie. My mind was not ready for that.
So I decided to walk home instead.
I did not care that it was dark and I was alone. I did not care that I had to walk for two hours straight to arrive home either. I just wanted to get home and hide under my blanket.
The outfit that I had felt so confident in earlier was feeling suffocating now. Apparently it was not enough. I had pictured this whole night completely differently.
It should not have ended with me walking home alone, crying my heart out.
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Part 2
This was so heartbreaking to write! What do you think about it?
“Wait”, Hiba proposed with a slight chuckle. “That kinda sounds like a love confession.”
“You know what? Forget it”, I mumbled and turned to leave.
I had at least expected her to take me seriously. But apparently I did not know her as well as I had thought.
“It is?”, Hiba reassured. “(f/n), look, I ...”
“What is taking you guys so long? Are you okay?”, Tasneem interrupted her.
“Yeah”, I claimed and used Tasneem's appearance to flee.
Hiba had just been searching for a gentle way to let me down, which was absurd in itself. After all she was not one to take care of other people's feelings. So I must have seemed extremely vulnerable.
The rest of the evening was pretty uneventful as Tasneem had canceled the game after the call with Omar.
After playing some more games with less drama, we decided to go to bed. Now I was regretting settling my stuff right next to Hiba's because I had to lay down next to her after the awkward ending of our conversation.
I purposefully turned my back toward her to avoid looking at her.
But after a felt eternity I still was not able to fall asleep, the day spooking in my mind.
I almost cried out when a hand wrapped around my waist and pulled me closer. It could not be anyone else but Hiba.
I figured that she was asleep, but that quickly turned out wrong when she started whispering in my ear: “Hey, I know you're still awake. You've been ignoring me.”
I stayed silent.
“Why did you run away when Tasneem showed up?”, she inquired.
“We shouldn't talk about it here. What if anyone hears? It's already been bad enough for me”, I considered.
“They're fast asleep. Trust me”, Hiba proclaimed.
“What do you even want?”, I questioned.
“Finish our chat from earlier?”, she supposed. “I didn't get to say what I wanted.”
I could feel her breath on my ear and it was driving me crazy. Why did she have to be such a tease?
“Don't worry about it”, I assured her. “You don't have to let me down slowly.”
“I never intended to, anyway”, she noted. “I've been having my eyes on you for a while now, but I always thought you were with one of the boys.”
I could barely breathe at her words, struggling to process everything she was saying.
“So what do you say?”, she wondered.
I loosened her grip on my waist to turn around and face her. The sight of her was reminding me once again how stunning she was.
“You like me, too?”, I uttered, not sure if I could trust my mind right now.
Her eyes moved from my eyes to my lips. “Yeah”, she confirmed.
A bright smile captured myself, making her chuckle quietly, before she closed the gap between us to kiss me.
At first it was shy and hesitant, but it quickly turned more passionate and desperate as we had waited for so long.
When we parted again, Hiba was grinning at me, pulling me back into her arms.
The next morning I woke up in Hiba's arms. So it had not been a dream after all. I smiled at the memory of last night.
The others had already gotten up, leaving us behind to sleep in.
When I turned around to try regain the feeling in my arm I had apparently laid on for way too long, Hiba stirred awake as well.
“Who turned on the sun?”, she grumbled.
I could not help but laugh. “The others are probably eating all our breakfast”, I assumed.
“Don't care”, Hiba mumbled, burying her head in the crook of my neck.
Hiba was probably the worst morning person I knew. So I granted her a few more minutes before getting up.
“So you two have finally gotten out of bed as well”, Enas pointed out as soon as we entered the kitchen.
They were already finished with breakfast, just like I had figured.
“You two were so cute by the way”, Tasneem remarked grinning.
She pulled out her phone to show us a picture of us sleeping in each others arms.
“Give that to me”, Hiba demanded, snatching the phone out of Tasneem's hand before she could react.
“Hey, don't delete it”, she complained.
But Hiba had not deleted it. She had sent it to herself, which I only knew because I was able to get a peak.
Later that day the boys picked me up to hang out.
“You guys would be so dead if the night had turned out any different”, I enlightened them.
“What exactly are you talking about?”, Noor questioned.
“What do you think I'm talking about? Your stupid call! Do you have any idea how awkward that was?”, I ranted.
“Hey, don't make her angry!”, Yasser scolded him.
“Nah, you're all off the hook because Hiba's my girlfriend now”, I announced.
“She is? Congrats”, Safaa exclaimed and patted me on the shoulder. “Though I gotta say that I'm a bit jealous.”
“Watch what you're saying”, I warned him, but my serious attire was quickly replaced by laughing at his horrified expression.
No matter how much shit these guys were getting me into, I just could not be mad at them for long.
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Since it was requested, here's part 2. I hope you all like it!
summary: The sleepover at your best friends house doesn't go as expected as your friends call makes you wish you had left your phone at home.
warnings: slight homophobia
word count: 881
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“Sorry for being so late”, I apologized to Tasneem.
Usually I was one of the first to arrive as she was my best friend, together with Hiba of course. I would help Tasneem prepare everything for her famous pajama parties instead of being the last one to come like today.
But my parents had needed my help with no chance to decline.
“It's alright. You're just on time”, she assured me. “We're going to start playing some games now.”
“Great”, I rejoiced and made my way over to the living room that was almost as familiar to me as my own.
“Hey guys!”, I greeted the other guests.
I was surprised at seeing Sarah and Farah here, but decided against bringing it up.
Without thinking about it I settled down next to Hiba who immediately sent me a teasing grin, making my heart flutter. Damn gay panic!
“We're all putting our phones onto the table and read out any messages that come in. Calls will be on speaker”, Farah explained excitedly.
“Are you in?”, Hiba challenged me.
“Sure”, I agreed and pulled me phone out to place it on the table.
It turned out to be rather boring than thrilling when we were waiting.
That did not mean that I was happy about my phone being the first to ring. It did not help that it was a group call from my friends.
“Who is it?”, Enas wondered.
“My idiot friends”, I stated dreadfully.
“Come on, you gotta answer it”, Tasneem encouraged me.
Reluctantly I tapped on the accept button.
“Hey (f/n)! What are you up to? Wanna play some games together?”, Noor suggested.
“Sorry guys, but I don't have time for you right now”, I let them down.
“Oh, come on! Don't leave us hanging! It's gonna be fun”, Yasser tried persuading me.
“She's probably just too busy with Hiba to grant us her company. Seems to be the only thing on her mind lately anyway”, Safaa proclaimed. “We can't compete with her.”
“Safaa, shut up”, I growled, feeling my cheeks beginning to heat up.
“Why so shy now? The last time we talked about her you got way too overprotective. Where's your sass now?”, Noor reminded me.
“Just stop, guys! This isn't funny”, I proposed.
“It's not our fault that you're Hiba's puppy”, Safaa declared.
Now the guys started chanting the words “Hiba's puppy” in perfect sync.
Automatically my hand moved to end the call. Sometimes I hated my friends, although I loved them at the same time. It was complicated.
“Wow”, Enas exclaimed. “What was that about?”
“Yeah, (f/n)”, Hiba chimed in, grinning at me. “What was that about?”
“It was nothing. Let's just get back to the game”, I attempted changing the topic.
“Nah, you're not getting out of this so easily. So tell me”, Hiba requested teasingly.
She did not stop moving closer until I was basically trapped underneath her, nowhere to go.
“Why did they call you my puppy?”, she questioned, mere inches away from my face.
I could barely comprehend the situation, no chance of forming any words as my head felt like exploding from heat and embarrassment. Hiba was too close to allow me to think clearly.
That everyone was staring weirdly at us, especially me, did not exactly help either.
“So what is it?”, Hiba continued taunting me.
“Hiba, I think you're going too far”, Tasneem assumed, apparently noticing my dire situation.
“Come on! It's just fun”, Hiba brushed it off and sat back down, allowing me to straighten up as well.
My heart was still pumping hard and fast. This had gotten out of hand way too quickly.
Luckily for me Sarah's phone was the next to ring, leading to a way more severe kind of drama including Nadeen and Omar.
So I was off the hook. At least I thought that way until Hiba confronted me again when I got up to get some more water.
She stopped me in the kitchen. “Seriously. What was all of that about? Your friends calling you my puppy?”, she inquired.
This time she was not teasing me in the slightest.
“It's embarrassing”, I alluded.
“So what?”, she scoffed. “I've known you for years. What could be so embarrassing that you don't dare to tell me when we're alone?”
“Well, that's exactly it. It's about you”, I pointed out.
“Then tell me”, she encouraged me.
A nervous sigh left my lips. “Fine. Noor called you hot and ...”
“He did?”, she interrupted me, a victorious grin adorning her face.
“Do you want me to tell you now or not?”, I ranted.
“Okay, okay. Calm down”, she shot back.
“Well … I kinda got angry at him because … I was jealous … or overprotective like they called it. I mean he's right. You're hot. And funny. And loyal. And brutally honest from time to time. And I just wanted to keep it all to myself”, I confessed. “Because I don't want him to become your boyfriend or even a hookup. I don't want anyone to be … except myself.”
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Thanks for the request and (not) sorry for the cliffhanger. Was kinda in the mood for it.
