"Um..." // i hope its okay for me to pop up in here friend
( @hicyuu | meme )
Anger was something that Saeran had never been given the luxury of before. Living with his mother, if he had ever so much as considered responding aggressively his life would have become even more of a living hell. So whenever he had felt fire sparking in his chest, he would push it down in panic.
Even after leaving that place, it was difficult for him to learn that he was safe enough to be angry. His instant reaction to everything was still fear. He couldn’t fight back against anything, he could only hide and pray he wouldn’t be blamed.
But, slowly, as time passed it began to sink in that he would not be punished. The thought came to him that he was safe. But this was not possible. Saeran had never been in a safe place before- he could not believe that he was in one now.
Even so, when he felt the familiar burning rage start up for once, he decided against pushing it down. Instead he grabbed the first thing he could find ( a vase containing fresh flowers ) and hurled it against the wall with all of his might.
As he heard the crash and saw the shards shatter he felt something strange. Powerful. His anger disappeared almost as quickly as it had arrived and he stared at what he had done in awe.
Anything that he may have been thinking was cut off when he suddenly felt someone watching him. With a feeling of dread in his stomach, he slowly turned around. When he saw who was staring at him his eyes grew wide with fear and it took everything in him not to bolt.
“I- I- Jihyun I’m so- I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”