Can I just take a moment to say why I want to be visibly bi so bad?
Well, maybe not every reason, but one that's on my mind. Because I've seen the argument that it shouldn't be a big deal or whatever, and on one hand, yeah, it'd be nice if non-straight orientations were normalised to the point where it'd be casual mentioning any gender for a partner, but, amongst other things, we're not there yet. And I'm constantly watching what I say and am reluctant to say certain things even to those in the know because if I don't watch myself around them, I might let something slip around others. Send the culture we live in makes me, not really ashamed but nervous to talk about being bi even to people who are demonstrably okay with it. Sometimes I bring up my ex, but if I use that word, I need to be so fucking careful with pronoun use, and I can't use it around parents or extended family because they don't know I had a significant other at any point and it'd be weird for them not to know. It's constant, tiring self-censorship.
But if I were loudly, unapologetically, visibly bi, that would cease to be a problem. There'd be no need to watch anything because what the hell would I give away anymore. And furthermore, there is something empowering about owning it. It seems like a confidence booster to me. Boom, here I am. Deal with it.
This would all become much simpler were I out to my parents. I nearly came out to a cousin and aunt, and one reason I didn't is it seems awkward for them to know before my parents to. But I'm somewhat surer of them. I just wish I knew for sure. Maybe I should just get it over with...
