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I found my old Photobucket today... more nostalgia to come #tbt #throwbacktuesday #highschoolangst

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History Teacher: I want you have a binder for my class.

English Teacher: I want you to have a binder for my class.

Science Teacher: I want you to have a binder for my class.

Me: Three binders seems a little excess-

Teachers: Shhhhhhhhhh

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I can't even believe how irresponsible I am. Instead of studying for finals, I'm just browsing the homumado tag.

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Nonstop writing on Motivation with no revision

See here’s the thing about being motivated. It’s that no matter how motivated you are in the moment, it’s not like it’s a guaranteed momemtum that is going to last forever. So in that moment where you even have the slightest motivation you have to bite down hard, and use it to kick off into a steady run. That motivation is what builds you, what makes you great. Nothing great is made without motivation, and without it would be impossible to do anything. How would I ever get out of bed ever if I wasn’t motivated enough? What is my motivation, probably avoiding the law, and not falling apart in my studies. I don’t think I’m really motivated enough. I f was really motivated, would I join 6 or 7 clubs, always be working on homework and never hve time for myself?

Is being motivated the meaning of, absolutely sacrificing everything to successful? I think don’t think, but at the same time I’m not at that place I want to be. That place where I can honestly start working at a whim and not stop till the job gets done. This is the kind of worker I aspire to be, but am not willing to put work into. I am profoundly lazy, that is at least how I view myself. That might feed into the whole not being able to work thing, my self image. My selfimage is only propretuated every day when I get home and not start on my homework, but that’s also so hard.

But why is homework so had to start on? It’s crazy right? Just like 4 hours of work on a lucky day, and then I can just chill till I grind out the next day. If I was that type of dude I would be able to reap the benefits immediately, my friend is that type of dude and he’s playing video games at 6:10. Why am I not doing that? Because I chose the pacifist pleasure of being a consumer, not a producer. In the end I have to become the producer, but that kind of road is crazy hard to start on, and crazy hard to finish.

Being a producer means actually doing things, being a consumer means to sit back and just consume. I don’t know if that’s something that’s crazy, but that’s crazy to me. I am lazy as a sloth, and that isn’t something that can be broken in a short amount of time. How did I ever let myself spiral downward so fast and so hard? Is it possible to even get out of this rut? Entirely possible I’d say.

But it goes back to how much I’m willing to work for that. I see myself, shrouded in darkness at the bottom of the pit, and I can see the light at the top. But I have not want to reach that light, should it mean climbing up and straining myself. Why does that light not appeal to me? I think it’s because I’m so use the dark at this point that I’m no longer want to reach that light as badly? It’s definitely there, and it’s something that I should want. I do think I want it at least. The climb there isn’t even intimidating, it’s just something that I don’t start on because I think that there is something better to do? In this pit, there is nothing to do, so why am I so occupied at putting off the long climb and getting out? Conclusion: when you look into the abyss, don’t blink, because you will fall and never want to put in the effort to climb out.

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