I hate emotions
I'm honestly not one of those people who really cares what people think about what I have to say on the internet, because I have people in real life who will listen to me complain whether they want to or not but here goes:
SO, today I experienced a situation which I haven't been in a while and now I have completely lost my cool. "Cool?" you ask. "whats that?" you know my cool, my shit, my Mojo. I'm having a fucking mind hurricane and I can't stop it. The worst part is I haven't felt like this in forever-so I feel like I'm going backwards and all the hard work I've done to not mind fuck myself or catastrophize has gone out the window. I just wanna smack my head over and over into something solid and make it go away. violent yes-but I'm sure I'm not the only person who's ever felt this way. I know I'm over reacting but when I feel hungry-but can't eat...I know there's something wrong with me: I know my roommates would concur.
So ends my rant of insanity. I want it to stop so I figured; why not write my current feelings out-like a journal. yerp. I'm sorry internet world for doing this to you.