#hip fai

[quewinkle]

Tw: medical issues, self image issues and general negative thoughts will be in this rant

Found out that I will never exist without being in pain. I was so badly hoping for a cure or a solution- a pill, another surgery, SOMETHING- but I was met with nothing of the sort. My doctor told me all we can do is pain management, but even that will be (and I quote) “throwing cups of water on a house fire”. All we can do is wait till my condition deteriorates enough that insurance can no longer deny my total hip replacement. I wouldn’t be in this mess if they hadn’t denied it in 2022.

This body that hates me will be my forever, and the pain I was so looking forward to wishing farewell shall now forever be my companion.

I don’t really know how to deal with it. This knowledge that THIS is my constant state now. How am I supposed to move on? I have to. I need to. But this completely changes how i perceive myself and it is now something that influences every minute decision in my life. Marriages where one person experiences chronic pain or has a disability only have a 25% success rate. And luck has never been a friend of mine.

I can’t have kids like this. I can’t be the amazing auntie anymore. I can’t drive anymore. I can’t get another job.

I’m still in so much pain.

I hate this. I hate this and I don’t even know how to fully verbalize it. I don’t know how to deal. I will eventually. I always pull myself up even when things are shit. I just have to wait I guess. I just have to keep fighting and trying.

[quewinkle]

First surgery down. This one was the easy one- just keyhole incisions to shave down the bone. Next week is the big one where they’re fracturing my pelvic bone, rotating it, then screwing it into place.

Nurses were surprised by my reaction when I came to after the surgery. They said they’ve dealt with screamers, pukers, confusion, slight amnesia, and even violence. But me? I just kept groaning because I wanted to go to bed. If they asked me a question I just grunted. The only thing I would say was I’m sorry. Oh I also thew up a bit.

Minimal pain but I think that’s because I’m on Percocet still. I’m not allowed to walk on it at all so I’m hobbling to the bathroom on crutches. And and no underwear because both my current incisions are on the panty line. Can’t eat food other than toast and soup and crackers for a while. Which sucks cuz I’m hungry! Haven’t had a meal in like 24 hours.

I’ll update again later

[flyinglog]

Left hip surgery #2 - day 12

On the ice machine most of the day.  Hip feels good, saw Shirley at InMotion Rehab for some deep tissue work, mainly on the ‘good’ side, to loosen things up.  Crutching around and only really using one leg tweaks things out rapidly.  Stubbed my leg crutching through the house today but otherwise, no real issues and the recovery is coming along nicely.

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Rebuilding

Its been two years, and two hip surgeries, but I've finally started doing front squats and sumo pulls again. The weight is light (I can row more than either) but slowly we shall rebuild. Rebuild smarter, get more mobile, and enjoy every minute of it.

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Thankful. It Starts Today......

So thankful this year for faith, family, friends, and fully recovered hips.  No more nerve or joint pain in the hips.  It's been a long journey from bilateral FAI, but two surgeries later, I am finally healed.  So, time to get back in shape; and it starts TODAY.  What better day to start than Thanksgiving?  Nothing says getting fit like stuffing your face with the goodness of Thanksgiving grub.  I'll be starting slow, body weight exercises for a month or so, and back to boxing. I will also be putting a heavy focus on getting mobile, especially in the hips, calves and feet.  So, here's to good health, and good riddance to bad hips.

11/28

Warm Up - shadow boxing, dynamic stretches ~5 min

Chins, Squats, Shups, Lunges, Crunches, Hip Thrusts, Dips, Bis/Tris

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[flyinglog]

Day 1 Post Op

Feel ok today. Light burning in hip when sitting fully upright but otherwise I feel good. Loving the CPM and ice machine. They really make things feel better. Given what I had read on many message boards, I was expecting this to be way worse than it has been thus far. People are way too dramatic I think. Of course there are pain twinges when I move around but that seems reasonable given that I just had my hip displaced! I have full appetite and don't seem to have any drug side effects except for some light constipation. Sleep last night was good, though I woke up about 4am and moved to the couch and cpm machine as it felt more comfy than the bed. Oddly enough, the most pain is on the foot of my good leg. The traction boot must have been really clamped down.