To my Lord and my Savior...
past couple of weeks I haven't been the best daughter...I was so busy with so many other things that I neglected His words. The cool thing is that I do this ALL the time, but God reaches out to me ALL the time. He's the one that's committed to this relationship. He's the one that tries in this relationship. He's the one that shows unconditional love. what am i doing? constantly running away from him. Then coming back to him to repent. However, God still loves me unconditionally. haha say what?
After my surgery, I finally had the chance to open up my bible to Ezra 1:1-11. Before reading, I asked God to give me the desire to want to forgive certain people in my life. It is so hard for me to forgive certain people. However, God has been telling me to forgive and be merciful through sermons, friends and daily bible verse. He loves me THAT much to reach out to me through so many different options to tell me that -_-. and of course Ezra was about God moving Cyrus's heart to fulfill his will. Through this chapter I learned God is a promise keeper and he's almighty but is gentle at the same time. He reassured me if i'm not ready to forgive them it's okay. because he IS patient. However, God did asked me to give him my heart. completely. not just part of it but every single part of my heart. even the broken sides, scratched up sides..even the parts where there are scars everywhere. He wants it.
Trusting in HIS characters and HIS promises..knowing that HE is merciful/gracious/loving/just/powerful God...and that he keeps his promises..May God use my heart to whatever pleases him. Lord here is my heart, move it to wherever pleases You.