#hisdeerflower

[cunningisms-blog]

@hisdeerflower

“Hey mom, why does the sun and moon appear to be the same size?”

[loathedlineage-a]

@hisdeerflower​​ ♡ starter call

                           “What good use is it being a witch with magic it if                             we can’t hocus-pocus the cupcakes out of thin air?                             Why do we need to make them by hand? I’m gonna                             like ... totally die of starvation, Mum!”

[chasingxprongs]

@hisdeerflower wanted some memory modified DE James

The house was dark, a lone light shining through the living room window and it took a second for James to remember why he was here. The last time he’d been in this house, had been a confrontation with the beast, the blood traitor and the mudblood. Pleading with him, crying like the weak people they were. Lying to him. Messing with his head in ways the light side pretended they weren’t capable of.

The urge to walk through the door, calling out joyfully to his wife was strong. Taking his breath away for a minute, causing a look of confusion to pass over his previously emotionless face. He didn’t have a wife. He’d been duped by the Mudblood and the blood traitor, not to mention the Beast. His Lord had explained it all, how they’d messed with his head. How it was important he fixed the tainted blood line.

He knew he was right. Knew that he couldn’t have a half-blood running around with his name. Knew that it would dilute their magic, would ruin the lives they were building for themselves. There was no place for this child in their world, even if the child was supposedly his. 

Hand on his wand, he burst through the door. He was the only one who could do this, the only one who was able to get through the wards that had been provided. He wasn’t ready to think about why that was. He was disarming the Mudblood before she’d even had chance to acknowledge his presence, catching the wand in an outstretched hand as he smirked in her direction.

“You Mudblood’s are living it up nowadays aren’t you?” He glanced around the room, his face a picture of disgust as he took in the homeliness that existed here. The more he looked, the angrier he got. At the small things, the small stain on the carpet in the corner, the pencil markings on the doorframe. Homely things. Like this Mudblood had any right to be here, to be at home in a world she didn’t belong in. 

“So, you wanna start begging now, or are we gonna save that for when things get interesting?” James grinned, shooting the woman a wink and for a second he froze, the action stirring something within him. Some sense of familiarity he couldn’t quite place, a feeling of being displaced, twisted and tainted and he couldn’t shake it. He pressed one hand against his temple, heart pounding in his chest as he fought against the conflicted thoughts and memories rushing to the surface.

“Run.” He managed to force out through gritted teeth, unsure why he was saying it, what it even fucking meant or why the urge to give that warning was rapidly retreating. Or why his hand was throwing her wand as hard as he could towards her, his own following like it was going to buy her some time. “I’m gonna kill her Lil. I’m gonna kill Jamie. Run. Now.”

The pain stopped suddenly, and he snapped his eyes back up to the Mudblood, schooling his features to hide the confusion on his face. A mask of disgust, of glee at what he knew he’d been sent here to do. He was going to be the Hero, in it for the eternal glory. Going to be the right hand man of the dark lord and it was all resting on the death of a child.

[eccentriclookingwizard]

Letter #1

Xeno,

I hope you won’t mind me including you in this little campaign of mine; just as I hope you won’t mind me asking a few small (and one not so small) favor of your husband.

I don’t know if I ever told you how excited I was when you joined our little group. And if I didn’t, I’m sorry for that. To know that Remus had found someone who loved him as much as we loved him, who accepted him and his…furry little problem (to borrow from James) – it meant the world to us. You are truly one in a million Xeno and I am so grateful to have been able to count you among my friends.

My family.

I’m not sure if Remus has told you what I’ve tasked him with. But I have no doubt he will. Just as I have no doubt you have probably already guessed. You always saw things that the rest of us didn’t – sometimes it was because we didn’t think to look for them and sometimes it was because we were trying hard to ignore them. With me…with all of us…I think it was the latter. James and Sirius…they worked so hard to convince themselves it was nothing. And I…I don’t know…I just know that I probably should have done something sooner. But I was selfish. And afraid. Afraid that maybe, when I had finally come to realize how much I loved James, that he didn’t love me. That I was just…just part of what he was expected to do.

I see now how silly that was. And if we come out of this, I promise I will fix it. And if we don’t…well, I can maybe still fix it. With help.

So help me. Help me as I’ve asked Remus to help me. Help me set right what I should have done so many years ago. You’ve spent years observing, seeing what we could not. Maybe it will help you see the direction in which our boys need to be nudged.

I miss you, Xeno. Miss our chats, our time together. Miss the afternoons having tea in one of our kitchens. And I’m sorry. Sorry to have left you with this mess.

Forgive me?

- Lily

@hisdeerflower

The letter had been sent to her specifically, so she took the time to read and re-read it, since it was obviously important. Trembling fingers traced every word once she was through, lingering on the letters that made up Lily’s name. Oh...Lily. How Xeno missed her lovely Lily flower. How sad it was, for Xeno to be able to see Lily’s children grow up and play with her own daughter, and knowing that she wouldn’t.

She laid back, pressing the letter to her chest, letting the words wash over her as she heard Lily’s voice, asking her to help. Lily’s smile, her soft hair, her laugh, she remembered all of those before making her way back to her office, where she took up her own quill to respond.

Dearest Lily Flower,

You don’t need to ask for my forgiveness. You would have had it, even if you had done something wrong. You haven’t. 

I miss you too, Lily, so very much. I look at Jamie and Harry and I see you so often, and it breaks my heart at the same time it makes me smile. They’re so beautiful, Lily, and I love them so. The way they play with Luna, I know my daughter will grow up with friends who love her, and I have you to thank for them.

I never had friends before I met Remus, much less other female friends before you. I love you for accepting me into your family. I love you for loving James and Remus and Sirius in the ways that you did. You love so hard, Lily, and that’s what makes this so hard. We love you so much, it’s hard to let you go.

Remus and I are at your service, of course we are. For however long James and Sirius need us, we’ll be there for them. I promise. I promise to always see them, and help Remus to see them, and I promise we’ll make them see each other.

I love you Lily Flower. I miss you. I’ll give your love to everyone, shall I?

Love,

Xeno

P.S. If you see my mother, give her my love? I don’t know if she’s there, but, you know, if you see her.

The letter is wrapped around the stem of a Tiger Lily flower, and placed at Lily’s grave. Xeno talks with her for a while, sits on her grave and makes sure the grass is growing evenly.

There’s a lot of work to be done.

[potterlyjames]

James & Lily obvs

WHO SAID “I LOVE YOU” FIRST: I always imagine that James told Lily I love you in the most romantic way ever, during a picnic when they were stargazing late at night. He probably walks her through all of his favorite constellations before telling her that they paled in his eyes because he loved her and she was his shining star. 

WHO WOULD HAVE THE OTHER’S PICTURE AS THEIR PHONE BACKGROUND: I feel like they both would? Lily because she’s sentimental and would want to look at a cute photo of them and James because he wants to be reminded that Lily Evans does love him and that he finally got the love of his life. 

WHO LEAVES NOTES WRITTEN IN FOG ON THE BATHROOM MIRROR: That definitely depends…James leaves Lily stupid notes on the mirror all the time and Lily sticks post it’s on the mirror with things like “PLEASE LEAVE THE TOILET SEAT DOWN!” 

WHO BUYS THE OTHER CHEESY GIFTS: I feel like Lily tries to buy James sentimental gifts and while James often presents her with jewelry and flowers he almost always gives her a stupid cheesy gift that he just has to get. 

WHO INITIATED THE FIRST KISS: Even though James has been trying to get them to kiss for year(i.e the first 5 attempts were done by James) it was Lily who initiated their first “real” kiss. 

WHO KISSES THE OTHER AWAKE IN THE MORNING: Lily, because she wakes up before James and honestly if she didn’t James would never wake up. 

WHO STARTS TICKLE FIGHTS: James, because he’s in immature git. 

WHO ASKS WHO IF THEY CAN JOIN THE OTHER IN THE SHOWER: James always asks Lily if she would like to join him in the shower after quidditch practice. 

WHO SURPRISES THE OTHER IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY AT WORK WITH LUNCH: I feel like they both would surprise the other. 

WHO WAS NERVOUS AND SHY ON THE FIRST DATE: James honestly, because Lily had rejected him so many times he was scared to mess things up. 

WHO KILLS/TAKES OUT THE SPIDERS: Both, neither are scared of spiders. 

WHO LOUDLY PROCLAIMS THEIR LOVE WHEN THEY’RE DRUNK: Depends, Lily loudly proclaims her love for him when she’s drunk and she sees other girls go for James. And james just loudly proclaims their love every time he’s drunk.