@inksplattered
trust is chipped glass , the pressure of every mistake cracking the surface until there’s nothing left to break --- today’s words pinch her nerves and leave a hot sweat on a pale visage . another bad decision , another slip of the tongue ; damage already done . the day fades to darkness and her feet ache from a night out --- a night meant to be with him . her mind is filled with a thousand apologies , yet she falls just short of saying any one version of it , too scared to hear her own voice in the SILENCE . she wishes she could drown in it , melt into the quiet darkness and everything she wants to say falls into the space she’d occupied . life isn’t so easy . standing in front of him , she runs through the scenes she’d played out in her head so many times on her way here --- every scenario turning sour in the imagination that runs wild . ‘ miyo , can you please listen to me ? ‘ the pleas shake at her voice , lips moving faster than she can even think . her mind is filled with the sounds of the distant world , the far - off vehicles and the winter wind rustling the large pines towering over them in the darkness . it’s all too much , she thinks she’s going to be sick . ‘ you can’t shut me out too . ‘