clark’s exactly the kind of dork who’d purposefully leave his watch in your apartment just so he could find a reason to see you again.
it’s completely transparent and juvenile, but you’d fall for it anyway. not because you’d been dumb enough to, but because of the stupidly earnest line of texts he’d send — clearly, he held some pride in his sneaky methods to court a girl he really really liked the old fashioned way.
except, even with his heart set to being a gentleman, it was hard to deny chemistry, and ever harder to deny you when you’d curled your arms around his neck, pulling him into a gentle kiss.
he had you hoisted up, guiding your thighs around his hips in a swift move. kissing you was the most natural thing he’d done, even more than even establishing anything with you. once he’d gotten a taste of your sweet, soft lips, he couldn’t stop.
head bowed, tilting his head as he slotted your lips against yours while lowering you onto the softer duvet. it’s when he sees you — lips flushed raw, hair pressed against the gentle white, that he figures, to hell with the proper order of things.
cw: 18+ MCD (Soap post MW3) implied body/cadaver mutilation. Obsessive behavior. Ghost's unhealthy coping mechanisms. Some darker content than I'm used to writing... just dipping my toes in, trying it out.
The base is quiet. It's usually quiet this late at night. It's become a familiar quiet, what he's spent most nights wrapped in.
Simon sits where the floodlights don’t quite reach, beyond the last wash of artificial glow. The concrete at his back leeches heat through his shirt, but he doesn’t move.
He prefers the cold. Can't feel much of anything else now anyway.
The moon hangs thin and hazy above him, silvering the world into bone-pale light.
As pale as the small carve of collagen and calcium in his hand.
He hasn’t opened his fist since he left the morgue.
His knuckles ache from the tension, but he keeps them locked tight, as if even some small creature in the night air might try to take it from him. The faint edge presses into his palm, it bites in, huts just enough to keep him here.
They’d cleaned Johnny too well.
Brushed and flattened his mohawk, folded his hands all neatly, even smoothed out the crease between his brows as if he were only resting. They had made him look at rest, presentable for anyone who came to view him on his final day whole.
But dead bodies aren’t sleeping bodies.
Simon had known that the moment he touched him.
The pale skin and relaxed muscles weren't temporary. The lack of movement wasn't calm and at rest. It was absence. Final and utter nothingness.
He’d traced the line of Johnny’s waist beneath the sheet. Memorized the slope of his shoulders. The stupid, stubborn mouth that had never stopped talking. The hands that had always been in motion, gripping, tugging, holding.
Now they’re still.
Tomorrow they’ll burn him.
Turn him into ash. Into something smaller than he is. Into something tidy and acceptable.
All for the sake of some thing Johnny had said in his will, "just spread me to those highland winds. Somewhere I can hear the sea."
Simon’s jaw tightens. Sentimental bastard.
But the wind won't get all of him.
His fist presses slowly to his sternum, right over his own ribs. He breathes in through his nose, slow and measured. It should fill his lungs, but there’s a hollow in it.
A yawning space where Johnny used to live, loud and bright and relentless. Fury that filled rooms. Heat that soaked into sheets. A heartbeat that had thudded steady against Simon’s chest in the dark.
He can still remember the rhythm of it, for now, for as long as he can manage.
“You’re not gone,” he says quietly.
His fingers tighten instinctively. The bone in his palm digs sharper now, and he welcomes the sting. Proof he's there, Johnny's there. He has Johnny.
He knows what he’s done. He knows it was selfish. He nows if anyone ever found out, they’d call it wrong. Hell, they'd probably send him to a shrink and he'd never see the base again.
He doesn't need some shrink.
Not a single person here would understand that the alternative, letting Johnny slip entirely into smoke and memory, was worse.
Simon thinks, for a moment far too long, of going back inside. Finishing the job. Taking Johnny with him. He could do it, find a swappable body, get it cleaned in time. Be on the water in the sea before Price could figure out it was him.
A faint, broken ghost of a smile drifts to his mouth.
“Mad bastard,” Johnny would’ve said.
Simon exhales.
“Maybe,” he murmurs into the cold. “Yours though.”
The word settles between him and the moon. Clouds drifting in, fuzzing the light again.
He stays there long after the frost creeps through denim. He'll have to find a place to keep Johnny safe. Clean out the bone properly. Keep it white and clean.
The thought crosses his mind again: There's still time.
Instead, he drags himself back to his bunk. Settles into the too soft, too cold sheets, on a pillow that still smells faintly like sea salt and cheap soap and something warm. And tucks his hand beneath it, still wrapped around that small, pale piece of Johnny. His piece.
im like really curious why rlsei had to hide from asgore specifically. like its been established that hes Not asriel and doesnt even rlly look that much like him.. and even asgore himself acknowledges this when he sees raslei in the dim light near the end. so why hide.. and why disguise...
