Theme: Angst, explicit SMUT, open ending, fantasy au
Wordcount: 2.0k
Summary: You are lonelier than anyone he has ever witnessed. Your loneliness comes with an intensity that matches his, maybe that’s why he is so attracted to you? Maybe that’s why he wants to give you his final moments of existence?
Warnings: Mentions of drinking, loneliness, kind of philosophical, explicit sex, unprotected sex (it's a no no), it's kind of sad. NSFW!!
Minors are not allowed in this blog!!
A/N: It's my man's birthday in less than 24 hours! Yoo-hoo! *sigh* only if he knew that I exist and I love him with my everything. *another sigh* but it's okay! Jung Hoseok, I love you regardless. And I hope you are happy and healthy.
and to my precious readers. hope you guys enjoy this short babie. let me know how is it, if you want! (also if you feel this is My Demon coded then that's right. But I haven't even watched the drama lmao!)
Hoseok can’t read humans’ minds and he thinks it's a handicap.
No matter how much he loathes the fact, he, still, is a demi-god. One prefix in his title has pushed him down in the hierarchy, taken away his right of authority, his right of serving the verdict and he hates it all.
But what he hates the most is that he is left with this half-assed power of sensing despair in humans but is totally unable to do anything about it.
His hand itches to right all wrongs whenever he comes across something that should not be happening, that should be mended by the gods above. On those occasions, he curses those so-called gods a little more than usual.
What did they say? That Hoseok meddles too much in human business? Just because he saved a 5 years old from a deadly accident? That he has no right to change their fate? That he is just a lowly god that is not even worshiped? That he is to be perished into ash as soon as he changes another human's life directly or indirectly?
Huh! As if he cares.
He actually does. Not that he is scared of turning into scattered dust and disappearing into air, but he wants to change someone’s life before he does.
If he is going to disappear, then he might as well do something worthy of disappearing.
Like getting to know you, offering you with his company and changing your fate of being alone even if it’s just for a night.
It has been 2157 years since Hoseok has descended to earth and he has been keeping receipts of every single day.
He has come across a lot of humans and their despair but he hasn’t done anything. He held himself back and waited for that one final occasion.
He knew that final occasion was going to be you as soon as his eyes landed upon your figure a year ago.
That day, he walked into this dimly lit pub to enjoy a glass of whiskey that he came to love so much and to observe some humans for his own record.
That was then, you walked in.
More beautiful than some of the goddesses they worship, more mysterious than those unearthly creatures and you made him more intrigued than he had been for 2156 years of his time on earth.
And also, you are lonelier than anyone he has ever witnessed. Your loneliness comes with an intensity that matches his, maybe that’s why he is so attracted to you? Maybe that’s why he wants to give you his final moments of existence?
Just like any other Friday night, you are sitting in your usual spot. Tonight you have chosen Gin and Lime to be your companion.
You look as unapproachable as ever, so much so that even Hosekok feels weak on his knees while gliding smoothly towards you.
Your eyes are trained on your smartphone when Hoseok slips beside you and heaves a little “hey” to grab your attention.
You look up at him, your eyes meet him and he knows he is going to be one of those very few lucky men whom you don’t ignore.
And then you smile, an unusual, non-formalitic and genuine one, and greet him back, “hi”.
He is astonished to find you keep smiling at him, “Do you mind if I-”
“Not at all. I have been waiting for you to approach me for a good 10 months now.” you cut him off.
Hoseok is astonished yet again, or maybe shocked will be a better word. He knows not everyone can notice him. He is noticeable only when he actually wants to be, for instance by being noticeable to the bartenders, so that he can enjoy his drinks.
But he never intentionally allowed himself to be noticed by you. Or maybe he did? Because all along that’s what he actually wanted?
“Ah really? You noticed me then?” he breathes slowly, trying not to scare you away.
“It’s impossible not to notice someone as good-looking as you. On top of that you are a regular here and you look as lonely as I am.” you voice fades by the time your sentence ends. You punctuate it with a sigh.
He gives you a tainted smile. It’s the first time someone has caught upon his despair too. For the first time he doesn’t feel things are terribly one-sided. For the first time he is not pitying a human but resonating with her. For the first time he feels his ending inching closer.
“I am Hoseok, by the way.” Hoseok introduces himself while ordering his usual.
“I am Y/N” you reply. Your name rings in his ears, even though he already knew who you were and what you do, but hearing you introducing yourself to him has some weird effects on him.
“Do you always have the same thing?” you point towards his whiskey.
“Yeah. I’m not a great fan of alcohol.” he replies calmly.
“Oh. then what is it, you are a fan of?”
“Humans.”
You laugh at it. A clear, ringing laugh that sends tingles to every corner of his body.
“As if you are not one of us.” you say breathlessly when you are done laughing.
“Maybe I am not.” Hoseok adds quietly.
You look intrigued now. Your eyes are filled with a playful glint that has replaced the hazy loneliness.
“Good then. I hate human beings, even though I am one of them. Maybe I hate myself as well? Who knows.” and within an instant, your despair is back. It is now clouding above your head. Hoseok can see it clearly and he wants to blow the smoke away.
“Why so?” He places his question delicately.
“They have done nothing to be loved. At least not the ones I have shared or am sharing my time with.” you sigh. “Even though I am moving on with time, moving on from people and situations, I am going nowhere. It’s as if I am stuck in an endless loop of time and things keep repeating on their own accord.”
Hoseok feels your every word deep in his bones. He has been stuck in this limbo for a long time as well. Feeling people’s pain and being able to do nothing about it is even more painful. And he can’t take it anymore. But tonight he will end it all..
“Do you want me to change it? Do you want me to take away your despair?” he says finally, “just answer in yes or no.” his voice feels hoarse all of a sudden.
You sit straight. It seems as if you can tell how serious he is being. And maybe that’s why you nod a yes.
Hoseok’s nails dig into your naked waist. His lips trail down the path of your throat, painting bruises on your skin.
You moan his name when he bites down on the crook of your neck. He feels alive after all these years. The beating of our heart, vibrates into his own chest making him want to be a human like you, for you.
Your fingers are tangled on his jet black hair. The delicious friction of your nails on his scalp is everything. He works his way to unclasp your bra, throws it away somewhere in your dark room and sets his eyes on your chest.
“Beautiful. So beautiful for me.” he murmurs as he takes a nipple in his mouth. One of his hands slips into your underwear and finds your sensitive bundle of nerves while the other one massages your unoccupied breast.
“Oh Hoseok!” you sigh in containment.
It’s been so long since anyone has called him by his name. Things feel unreal at this point.
Hoseok drives you towards your bed and gently lays you down without breaking the contact with your skin.
Two of his fingers play with your clit while his mouth dives down the valley of your breast, reaches your naval, and heads towards you core.
“Hoseok! Quit foreplay! I need you inside me.” You whine while tugging at his hair. Your fingers join his inside your underwear. You take his hand out, pull it towards your mouth and suck your juices from his fingers.
Hoseok can clearly see his end approaching. But he doesn’t regret it.
You are warm, slippery and incredibly addicting when he enters you. His cock glides smoothly through your entrance. He thrusts with a force that will satisfy you but won’t break you, reaping out melodic moans from your mouth.
“Fuc-fuck Hoseok! You feel so-so good! I can’t- ngh” and you cum on his godly cock.
Hoseok sees stars at this point. How can a human being be this addictive? How is he supposed to leave you behind if you keep holding him back like this? How?
He spills inside you, ropes after ropes of cum shoots inside your pussy, some even leak out and drips down your inner thigh to your bed sheet.
Both of you are trying to catch your breath but it’s time he ends both of your sufferings. So he climbs on your bed and hovers above your freshly fucked body. Your body glistens with a sheen of sweat, he can’t get enough of you.
“Y/N” he calls your name and you open your eyes, look directly into his eyes and offer him a weak but genuine smile.
“I am going to kiss you now. After the kiss, I will disappear, but so does your loneliness, you despair. I will take away the pain you suffer from.” he says in a breath.
“Hoseok..” you murmur weakly, but before you can say anything any further, Hoseok is kissing you. He cups your face and dives into the kiss.
The kiss is full of passion and pain, rainbow and rain..
Two pairs of your lips mold perfectly with each other, tasting every ounce of your mouth, your life, your soul.
But Hoseok feels it. His legs are not on your bed anymore, those have started to dissipate into air in the form of fine ash. It reaches to his torso, his chest and then his face. A single tear leaves his eyes before he fades away completely.
And all of a sudden everything is blank.
It’s been two weeks since you had that weirdly realistic dream. You can still remember his face, his voice but somehow his name has slipped out of your memory. As if he himself doesn’t want you to remember what he was called.
Or is it just you? Is it because your loneliness has become way too overbearing for you now that you are making up sex scenarios with non-existent perfect men and hallucinating them everywhere?
You should book an appointment with a therapist. You need it.
“Excuse me, Ms. Y/N?” the voice comes from right beside you. You were so lost in your thoughts that you didn’t even notice that the bus stop wasn't empty anymore.
“You dropped your employee ID on the way” the voice speaks again as the man comes to stand before you.
“Oh shoot! Thanks a lot.” you take your ID from him and look up with a smile.
But it vanishes and you are shocked to find out that the man of your dream is standing right before you.
The voice, too, is similar. The only difference you can find is that this guy is filled with boisterous energy, he is less dark than the man in your dream.
“Did I scare you? You look like you have seen a ghost?” the man laughs.
“I- I ah..” you fumble with your words, “you look like someone I knew.” you laugh back awkwardly.
“Oh I see.” he pauses for a bit, “I am Hoseok, By the way.” he continues, extending a hand towards you.
“Hi Hoseok. I am Y/N” You wrap your palm around his.
