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I heard three Animal Collective albums today and I now have a reason to love life again.

#Animal Collective #fall be kind #hollindagain #Campfire Songs

Last night was really weird, didn't feel very good.

My mom got mad and took the computer from me when she saw I wrote "motherfucker" in a private conversations like okay?????

It's whatever though.

I went for a bike ride out of boredom, decided not to tell my mom because I'm spiteful like that, and ended up chilling at Subway for a bit with a glass of water. I saw her drive by twice and called her to let her know where I was, but she wouldn't answer. Then I came home and she took my bike away, which is one of the ways I get out stress eh so I was kind of against her taking it, moreso than the computer strangely enough.

When I got inside I felt super weird and anxious so I started pacing, then I remembered my friend Bryan told me to exercise and get it out of my system whenever I started freaking out, so I went outside and played soccer for a bit, for which my mom came out and screamed "EMI WHAT ARE YOU DOING" but I just kept playing because whatever.

When I came inside I was still slightly freaking out so I walked around my house a few times before doing some pushups. I felt like hitting something really hard so I grabbed my baseball bat and went outside, smacking the ground over and over again. I imagined it was my ex-boyfriend's head, the one who raped me and was emotionally abusive.

I didn't really know I had that much aggression towards him to be honest, because in this weird way, I still love him a lot. It's weird.

When I got back, I started listening to Hollindagain by Animal Collective and painted some weird shit, which I then proceeded to rub all over my body, which also gave me a cool idea for a story! Then shower, finished Hollindagain and Peacebone by laying down and staring at the ceiling for an hour.

Then Adult Swim and sleep.

#weird night #personal #anxiety #hollindagain #exercise