Written and illustrated by Roberto Sánchez
From my memoir-in-progress, “I Am He”
The bathroom light was too white — the kind that stings your eyes.
My father’s favorite color. His mistress.
To me, white has always felt like emptiness.
I stood in that glare, facing a trifold mirror. Tilted the side panels to catch my profile from both angles.
Round face like my father. Thick eyebrows like my mother.
My eyes… hers. Brown, but in this light, almost amber.
Teeth brushed three times — just in case I got lucky enough for a kiss.
No music — just my breathing. My first real date waited somewhere out there, and fear was riding shotgun.
We’d met online back when MSN Messenger still had a heartbeat.
I’d never driven that far.
MapQuest directions printed, stapled, double-checked.
My white 2000 Nissan Altima waited in the driveway — clean, light gray cloth seats. My little ship.
Before turning the key, I checked the visor mirror.
A silent handshake: You’re going to be fine.
DMX in the speakers — It’s Dark and Hell Is Hot shaking the car.
L.A.’s night air slid in through cracked windows as downtown’s lights blurred past.
Her block was shadows and silence.
I called her on my new flip phone.
She stepped out smiling — straight white teeth, the kind that makes you forget to breathe. She slid into the seat. I drove.
Magic Johnson Theatre on Crenshaw. Batman Begins. Packed house.
Popcorn in my hand, soda in hers, Hans Zimmer’s score rolling over us.
Somewhere in the middle, I took her hand.
She laced her fingers with mine.
I leaned in. She leaned too.
Our lips met — buttery from the popcorn, chilled from her drink.
The long drive back to Riverside.
Another kiss before she stepped out.
And for a moment, I wasn’t the kid doubting himself in the mirror.
I was the man who drove into the dark — and didn’t turn back.
Do you remember your first kiss?
Written & illustrated by Roberto Sánchez
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