He paused, stumbling over his ragged breath as his hand trembled.
Tears leaked from his eyes, “My father was a devil, my...m-my mother an angel, I only pray that I can be something in-between. Something human and imperfect but virtuous and loving to my family - a family I n-never thought I would have.”
He bowed his head, pressing the rosary against his brow as he squeezed his eyes shut against the burning tears, “Cleanse me of my transgressions and let me be clean and pure so that I can be worthy of the beauty that has been given unto me. I have walked through fire and water, I have killed and died, but do not remove me from the beauty of your grace, O Mother Mary. Create in me a fresh, clean heart that will not spoil all that it touches. Lead me out of the shadow and into the light for I cannot find the way myself. And...I am afraid.”
His prayer subsided into wordless images and feelings of pain and guilt that flashed through his head. He did not know how long he knelt there, lost in the most fervent prayer he had ever offered. The only thing that stirred him, some time later, was the rustle of skirts. He glanced up.
Abigail, in her simple blue day dress, was kneeling next to him. She crossed herself, her fingers touching her forehead, her heart, and both her shoulders. She clasped her hands before her and closed her eyes.
“Salve Regina, Mater misericordiae.” Abigail’s smooth voice flowed over the Latin easily and he watched, shocked, as his pagan sorceress recited the Hail Holy Queen prayer with as much reverence as she prayed to her Old Gods. “Vita, dulcedo, et spes nostra, salve. Ad te clamamus exsules filii Hevae. Ad te Suspiramus, gementes et flentes in hac lacrimarum valle. Eia ergo, Advocata nostra, illos tuos misericordes oculos ad nos converte. Et Iesum, benedictum fructum ventris tui, nobis post hoc exsilium ostende. O clemens, o pia, o dulcis Virgo Maria. Ora pro nobis, Sancta Dei Genitrix. Ut digni efficiamur promissionibus Christi. Amen.”
She crossed herself again and opened her eyes, turning to smile at him.
“I didn’t think you prayed to the Christian god.”
“I don’t,” she answered, “But I always liked Mary.”
“I thought you didn’t believe in Him.”
“Faith is a complicated thing, James.” She looked up at the statue again and lit one of the white candles at the feet of the Virgin. “I was baptized in the holy water of the Catholic Church. I was raised in Her teachings and it was only when I reached my adolescence when I began to question. But even through all of it, I loved the Holy Spirit. I loved Mary. The Feminine Divine was what I wanted from my faith, and it was what it couldn’t give me. So I left the Church and found the Old Gods. But I still respect the Blessed Mother. I don’t know why I wouldn’t.”
She glanced at him from the corner of her eye, “And...speaking of mothers…”
Excerpt from Hook Charmed, Book II in Hook Enchanted