“This tension is going to break eventually. Might as well decide how.” from spike ((((: || from the ask box || @horrorthrives
“Don’t tease me like that —“
Her jaw clenches as she stiffens awkwardly, idly finding an object in his dark, dusty crypt of choice to fiddle with so she doesn’t have to look at him. “It’s bad enough when I get it from John, okay?”
And it was. It stung in a way she couldn’t quite verbalize. And made because it wasn’t like it would ever make her leave. She didn’t have enough of a backbone for that. It was the price she paid, maybe, for wearing too many of her emotions on her sleeve.
“I know I seem innocent, and stupid, but I actually like you, so you can’t just — dangle affection in front of me like that. Like it hurts my feelings, Spike —“
She scrubs at her face, huffing as she finds something else to fiddle with, some kind of stone to scrape at with her nails. Because suddenly anything was better than looking at him. And maybe this particular rush of anger was better pointed at John, but she couldn’t take it from Spike.
Not when he was the one she trusted. With her feelings, and her life, and her stupid, little day to day problems.
Maybe it was her own fault for harboring a crush so visibly.
“Sorry —“ God damn it. The last thing she needed were tears, and she didn’t her best to hide them. But it was exhausting, frankly, being dragged along like a love sick puppy on a chain. Having her affection cashed in when it suited other people, but never held on to in return.
“Just — don’t say things like that unless you mean it. It’s embarrassing enough that you noticed —“ Someday she’d figure out how to harbor a crush in peace.