Content-tious
Contentment feels strange
after a lifetime of anxiety and fear and struggle
Contentment feels like boredom
Contentment feels like space that I don’t know what to do with
Contentment feels like silence that I can’t stand to hear
Contentment feels itchy
or stiff like a new pair of shoes that offers real arch support after wearing ballet flats for years
Contentment feels unsafe
Contentment feels like that moment before something else happens
I can’t trust it







