#htcbwsmcasmoa

[nerdedoutwebs]

POV: you're reading htcbwsmcasmoa at 4 am in the darkness

[princelyharry]

Inspo-Typo Series 5/? inspired by @hlhome28

Novitiate (2017) dir. Maggie Betts x Hoping This Cold Blue Water Scrubs Me Clean And Spits Me Out Again by Orphan_account

[bisexual-dragon-larryisreal]

htcbwsmcasmoa TW

Harry has another dream about Louis, he still sees him sometimes in the corner of his eye but then he turns around and see he's not there. Sometimes he forgets, he wakes up thinking everything is okay and then it comes back to him, and he remembers.

His dreams with Louis are sometimes bad dreams, sometimes good dreams, dreams where Louis is okay. it's been the same dream for a while now, him and Louis in some garden Harry never seen before, it has a lot of flowers and it's very colorful. Sometimes they talk, sometimes they just lay down one next to the other. Some dreams are like it's happening all over again, Harry and Louis in bed and Harry is asking him what color it is today.

[babylou1728]

Just read HTCBWSMCASMOA in an hour and cried the entire time, fully worth it, beautifully sad, I’m dead now

[onlythebravekayla]

a friend of mine saw something on twitter saying that the someone wrote a fic based on “does the little one with the cheekbones know the prince is in love with him” and i assumed the best place to find an answer would be here. pls reblog to help me :)

[bem-te-vi-25]

oh my god , yesterday my bio class was about the nervous system and my teacher kept telling us that you could start losing sensitivity, specifically in your extremities and my htcbwscmcasmoa ptsd went straight to "it started with headaches"

[bem-te-vi-25]

I decided it was a good idea to read “hoping this cold blue water scrubs me clean and spits me out” for the first time today, i don’t know, maybe the 11th birthday gave me courage.

i had to stop multiple times because the tears didn’t let me and my heart is broken in 28000000000000000000 pieces

im numb, bye

[bea28]

Hoping this cold blue water scrubs me clean and spits me out again (My thoughts..)

Check the end for link.

| Spoilers |

It's been a while since i read this one, but i can remember that i read it in one night, started by midnight and finished around 3 or 4 am, it's pretty quick to finish since it has only 29 short parts and the writing is easy what makes it even faster to read. 

This fanfic really does go straight to the point, right in the first chapters we can already tell what's happening and where the story is going, when you think it can't get any sadder it keeps getting worse (i was already crying when i got to the 4th part). It has a strong and well written story, walking us through the rough parts of an illness and successfully showing all the love involved and how much it hurts to lose the love of your life, Harry really loves Louis and goes though all the last stages of his cancer, loving and doing his best to comfort and show his love to Louis, even though Louis doesn't say it to harry, he appreciates everything Harry is doing for him (what he makes very clear in his letter). 

They both are deeply in love, but for some weird reason the universe doesn't let them be together, so all they can do is wait until they meet again in, another life or something, where one is the waves and other the shoreline. (yes i cried again while looking for this part in the letter)

I don't remember much of it, thats why i didn't get into details, but i will probably read it again and update this post. For now, i will leave here the best parts or lines that i can remember.

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the colors: "green day" "yellow day" and the fearful "red day"

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"But the scariest part isn't dying exactly. It's leaving you behind. Don't wanna leave you behind to fend for yourself"

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"Always in my heart, Styles.

Yours sincerely,

Louis."

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