My Human Baymax- September 14 2015, Monday
I don't understand, why do I have this "feeling" for Angelo. I haven't told him yet that I like him. But I'm planning to, but I'm scared. I'm scared because everyone who said "I'll be always right by your side" left. I'm scared to fall for him. But why did I fall. I'd doubt he'd catch me.. Okay let's stop this overthinking session. I went to school early, I arrived by 7:30 am. I was actually waiting for Angelo. He came by the time of 7:50 am, when he went inside in the classroom, I badly want to run to him and hug him. He's like my Baymax. But only human. Then he asked me to show my wound from my assignment and also my wound from my suicide cut which I attempted to die yesterday, 13. After he saw it, he then look at me and smiled at me disappointedly. Then he said something in our country language, "Don't suicide, please." I smiled at him back, which I'm still planning to cut again tonight. I backward myself to the chairs surrounding me, then he stepped forward to me. I had the urge again to kiss him at the lips, but, Marcy, no. Then I hugged him, then let him go. Then I walked towards him and he stepped backward because he knows I wanted to go somewhere, but then I hugged him. Then while hugging him, I kissed his left cheek, then his right cheek at a long rate of time. Then I placed my head on his right side and he said "Please don't cut." But anyways, let's stop making my tummy having butterflies. And why on earth would I write a story long about a boy. Geez, Marcy, it's just a boy, he'll just leave you. I'm planning to go to mall today because Starbucks and Badminton racket for my Gym class. But I don't know who should I go with, I'm planning to tell Angelo that I'm going because anywhere I will go, is where he's going too. Or maybe I'll ask my tutor besties to come with me. I don't know, I don't like going outside alone. But if I'm forced to go outside, and I'm lonely, I'd rather be lonely than hanging out with bunch of fake people. After the day ended, I went to the mall and bought my badminton racket which cost $100 😭😂, Multigrain Bagel and Smores from Starbucks. Now I'm broke af 😭😂 Also before I went to mall, Angelo and I were the only ones whose left at the classroom. Of course, I hugged him many times. Anyways that's all I have to say for today because I really had a bad day, that's all I want to tell this atm, even though I said I'll be open here at my blog. But anyways, bye! ~ Like ♡ Comment (make sure it's a positive one) ♡ Reblog ♡ —marcy a.k.a mcf ☓☓☓
