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[hurtsthemost]

I feel like crying, like dying, like I want to give up and stop trying.

I feel like crying

Like dying

Like I want to give up and stop trying

I feel too much shit

My brain is too big for my skull it just doesn't fit

It’s hard to sit here, trying to be okay here.

And I fear I won’t be, hoping that it’s not me that broken

That I can fix what is bent

Because I’m so fucking done, fucking spent

I feel like crying, like dying, like I want to give up and stop trying

I feel like it’s all too much

No one else has to deal with this stuff

I can’t get through the fucking day

It pathetic and nothing I can do or say

I hate myself in every way

I wish I didn’t have to stay

I’m trapped within myself

My lips cracked and chapped from the salt in the tears

And I fear that I won't be able to move on

That I’ll never know what's wrong

That I'll live like this for as long as forever

That I'll never get better.

I just want that fucking Moment

Some stupid good omen

Do I need to pray?

Someone tell me what I need to say

Is it up to me or beyond my control

Am I just going to continue to roll into this hole in which I cannot escape

I crave that place, the safe and happy place

Where no one has to hurt or face the shitty brain that I was given

A stupid condition

The fucked up wiring, who made that fucking decision?

Was there even an option?

Was this some kind of pre- made destiny no way to even stop it?

Where was I in this choice?

Why didn’t my voice be heard?

Was I labeled too fucked up? Is it believed it’s something I deserve?

Because whatever I did wrong, I take it back

This direction I’m headed,

This unfateful track,

I need a different route and rip this map in half

How much can a little girl hold?

How much until I freeze in the cold?

I feel like crying, like dying, like I want to give up and stop trying.

Life isn't supposed to be painful

A constant ache most days

Worse on sun-less days

I crave the glue that can stick me back together because I cannot

To take my burden and share the lot

It's too much and everyday gets harder and harder

Everyday I fall farther and farther

So please, take this hand i’m reaching

I need help that I can't live without

So please hear my calls, listen to the sound

Please don't let me hit the ground.

[hurtsthemost]

My Storm.

I don’t know how to swallow this pain.

I have no excuse to feel this way,

I’m drowning in only rain.

I look up and can’t see the sun,

Closing my eyes is the only way to get warm.

This is a storm that is only hurting me.

People are blinded by their sun,

never seeing how I’m shivering and drenched.

The water is getting in my eyes, I don’t think I can see past this anymore.

[hurtsthemost]

I feel like crying

Like dying

Like I want to give up and stop trying

I feel too much shit

My brain is too big for my skull it just doesn't fit

It’s hard to sit here, trying to be okay here

And I fear I won’t be, hoping that it’s not me that broken

That I can fix what is bent

Because I’m so fucking done, fucking spent

I feel like crying, like dying, like I want to give up and stop trying

I feel like it’s all too much

No one else has to deal with this stuff

I can’t get through the fucking day

It pathetic and there is nothing I can do or say

I hate myself in every way

I wish I didn’t have to stay

I’m trapped within myself

My lips chapped from the salt in the tears

Cracking alongside the rest of me, the years catching up to me

And I fear that I won't be able to move on

That I’ll never know what's wrong

That I'll live like this for as long as forever

That I'll never get better

I just want that fucking moment

Some stupid good omen

Do I need to pray?

Someone tell me what I need to say

Is it up to me or beyond my control?

Am I just going to continue to roll into this hole in which I cannot escape?

I crave that place, the safe and happy space

Where no one has to hurt or face the shitty brain that I was given

A stupid condition

The fucked up wiring, who made that fucking decision?

Was there even an option?

Was this some kind of pre- made destiny, no way to stop it?

Where was I in this choice?

Why didn’t my voice be heard?

Is it believed it’s something I deserve?

Because whatever I did wrong, I take it back

This direction I’m headed,

This unfateful track,

I need a different route and rip this map in half

How much can a little girl hold?

How much until I freeze in the cold?

I feel like crying, like dying, like I want to give up and stop trying.

Life isn't supposed to be painful

A constant ache most days

Worse on sun-less days

I crave the glue that can stick me back together because I cannot

To take my burden and share the lot

It's too much and everyday gets harder and harder

Everyday I fall farther and farther

So please, take this hand i’m reaching

I need help that I can't live without

So please hear my calls, listen to the sound

Please don't let me hit the ground.

[hurtsthemost]

The pain as you realize you don’t have enough fingers or toes to count how many more times you I will feel like this. It tears you apart and eats you alive.

[hurtsthemost]

7 billion people on this planet and yet, somehow, all I’m able to be is myself.

This fucking blows.