#hydra experiment

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All I Know ❝part five❞

☆ Pairing: Bucky Barnes x OC/The Winter Soldier x OC

☆ Summary: Problems arise when Bucky over hears the girl mumble something in her sleep. There's something off about her.

☆ Warnings: angst, fluff, anxiety attack

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT | 18+

“You're going to kill them because I've taught you to obey, and do nothing but obey.”

Blink

“..I've taught you to obey, and do nothing but obey.”

Blink

“..and do nothing but obey.”

Blink

“...obey.”

Blink

“Do you understand x001?”

Blink

“x001…”

Blink

“DO YOU UNDERSTAND?”

Blink

“OBEY”

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Bucky decided that he'd stay awake and gaze out the balcony window, knowing sleep would be hard to come. He feared if he shut his eyes, he'd be sucked into more memories. A part of him craved to know everything of who he used to be, but another wanted nothing of it. He wasn't the man he was from the memories, the ones with the blonde.. Steve.

Getting his memories back wouldn't change the fact that he is only a shell of who he was. There was no getting him back.

Thoughts of Steve realizing that tugged at his heart, his emotions confusing him. He figured Steve was important to him, but it frustrated him that he couldn't fully understand the bond. He was left trying to put together the empty spaces, of which he was tired of.

Shuffling from the girls form near the mattress caught Bucky's attention. Jealous that she accepted sleep so easily, but also fearing what she could possibly be dreaming about.

Focusing on her from his spot near the window, he watched her carefully.

"Soldat?"

A whisper from her lips had Bucky stiffening up, his heart started beating rapidly.

His flesh hand grew clammy, while his vibranium  limb tensed up. He felt frozen to his spot, not daring to move a muscle, in fear he'd trigger her. Her eyes were closed he took note of, but she had whispered so clear, it had his ears tingling while his body erupted with goosebumps. His flesh fingertips were almost completely numb, while his chest tightened, his lungs straining to expand.

His mind flooded with chaos..

Was this the plan to get The Asset back? She was a possible handler.. no. She seems harmless.. no she's dangerous and she could take me down with one touch. Does she know the words? Did I walk myself into HYDRA's trap?

Bucky let out a wheeze, exhaling the trapped air in his lungs. His body slumping forward in exhaustion, he could hear his own blood rushing through his veins, his mind racing. Attempting to take a deep breath to soothe the tightness in his chest, his throat constricted, not allowing any air to pass through. His vision blurred, his flesh hand grabbing at chest in desperation. Flinging his metal arm out, he grabbed the edge of the kitchen counter in a death grip, denting the cheap material in the process. Squeezing his eyes shut, he felt weak, letting his body lock in this permanent state of anguish.

Just barely, Bucky felt the tiniest wave of tranquility flow through his mind, easing his grip on the counter. Like a wall had been lifted from his crushed body, his throat cleared. His lungs burning and expanding, finally allowing air in. Leaning back against  the cabinets, Bucky let his limbs hand loosely at his sides, his once bent knees fall. How he was able to snap out of an episode like that? He ignored it, accepting the calm without question. The apartment fell back into a comfortable silence, the sound of his slowing heartbeat, along with an occasional cough.

Cracking open his eyes, he immediately checked Mary, hoping that she was still asleep. He felt embarrassed at a possibility of her watching him unravel. Bucky was never that lucky though.

Curious, concerned eyes were watching him cautiously from afar. Bucky met hers, almost as a silent conversation was being had, he nodded his head to her, letting her know he was okay. He wanted to ask how long she'd been awake, but he rather forget it altogether. Shuffling his body so he faced back towards the window, he let his exhausted eyes gaze out the window, focusing on nothing in particular.

Mary meanwhile couldn't find it in herself to fall back asleep, so she stayed awake, watching Bucky. He confused her, she couldn't quite find the reason of her many suspicions, but something continued to tug at her brain at every glance of Bucky she got.

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Bucky finally moved from his spot from the floor, not moved since last night. Cracking his stiff neck, he glanced to see if Mary had moved from her spot. Although he wasn't surprised to find her in the same position as he last saw her, he was shocked to see her picking at the floor, wide awake like she never slept.

Taking a deep breath, Bucky stood fully and walked over to the fridge, grabbing another water bottle out for her. Shuffling over he squatted, placing the bottle down in front of her, gaining her full attention now.

Mary stared at the bottle, remembering his words from yesterday. He told her she didn't have to obey, she could make her own decisions. But she liked following, she found it comforting when it was him giving the orders.

Bucky saw the hesitation when she glanced up to him, and he should've known it would take more then one talk to get her out of these habits.

"Drink. It's yours." He told her, trying his best to not have it sound like a demand.

With a nod she twists the cap off, and gulps down a heavy amount.

"Not too fast, you're gonna get sick." Bucky warned, the mother instinct briefly showing itself again. He winced and stood back up, heading to the kitchen area.

She immediately slowed down her drinking, despite her feeling incredibly dehydrated.

"Bucky." She called out, voice staying quiet and soft.

Bucky turned to her, waiting for her to continue.

She had set the bottle down, pointing to the balcony, towards the outside. Bucky was waiting for her to want to explore, knowing it was unfair to keep her in here. He wasn't necessarily worried about her going outside, it was everyone else that he didn't trust. A constant possibility of someone from HYDRA spotting her, even him.

“It’s not safe out there.” He told her truthfully, ashamed to have to live in fear.

The girl frowned and glanced to the window again, hating the way she could see the outside from her spot, wishing she could explore.

Bucky felt bad almost immediately, watching her face drop. Surely, if she was from HYDRA, she’d understand why it wasn’t that easy.

“Sorry, people might spot us.” He clarified.

“You go out, yes?” She asked, making a good point. He was hoping she wasn’t going to pry, but after being isolated for as long as she was, he didn’t blame her for pushing.

“Not without difficulty. I’m very careful.”

She nodded her head, taking in his words.

“I can be careful too.” She whispered, her eyes desperate, full of fear that she’d be kept away from the outside forever.

He was giving in slowly, her saddened eyes making his heart ache. He understood her more than anyone could and he wouldn’t be the one to isolate her anymore then she already has been.

“Okay,” He started, Mary perked up, “I’ll take you outside soon, but it’s dangerous out there. You have to stay close to me, and listen to me when we go, okay?”

Mary nodded her head, he didn’t know it, but she would follow him regardless of him asking. She was very loyal, willing to do just about anything for him. He saved her, and she felt she owed him an impossible debt.

[imagine-loki]

Imagine Loki comes across a failed Hydra experiment. She looks to be an ordinary human, but Loki quickly learns she has the mind of a wild animal. 

[buckywintersoldierbarnes2017]

My little ballerina.

Request from anon: Ummm hello! If it isn't too much of a bother could you plz write about this little girl from Red Room who's super badass and hydra takes her to train more with Bucky and at first he doesn't trust her but then slowly starts warming up to her. Oh and just imagine that he calls her his little ballerina! *_* sho cute! HAVE A GREAT DAY/NIGHT

Note: I actually found it rather hard to get the whole ballerina remark into this so I hope I managed to pull it off!

Winter Soldier x Young!Reader

Words: 1,816

Warnings: Violence, gunshots, injuries and fighting.

Disclaimer: None of the GIFs used are mine so all credit goes to their creators <3

The Winter Soldier’s sharp blue eyes were trained on you, watching your every move, he didn’t so much as blink while you took out each man in the room because he needed to see EXACTLY what you were capable of…he didn’t just train anyone, although he wasn’t at all happy that you were so young.

“Isn’t she just spectacular?”

An agent of Hydra sat himself down next to the intimidating frame of the super soldier as his eyes also travelled to the small girl who was knocking out men three times her height.

“She is young…” His voice was cold and emotionless but it was more than evident that he wasn’t at all impressed with the new ‘apprentice’ he was going to be given. “…which makes her a liability.”

The agent’s face hardened as he continued to speak to one of their best creations but his eyes never moved away from the carnage you were creating.

“You may not be in a cell soldier but you are still expected to do as you are told. You have been assigned to train her and that is exactly what you will do. You think she is a liability? Then make sure you teach her not to be.”

The brunette’s eyes narrowed dangerously as he stood himself up from where he had been sat and made his way into the centre of the room. You saw him coming towards you from the corner of your eye and you stopped immediately. None of the unconscious males around you were going to be getting up anytime soon and the one that you had been about to hit when the Winter Soldier had made his way over took the pause in your actions as his chance to escaped unharmed.

“Some of your moves were sloppy.” He was tall, incredibly so compared to you, and he towered over you like some huge animal ready to pounce on its prey. “You weren’t thinking about what you were doing you were just throwing punches and kicks here, there, and everywhere.”

From the moment you had been able to walk Hydra had begun training you, teaching you that weakness was never an option, but there had only ever been one person you looked up to…..one that you aspired to be. The Winter Soldier. Everyone, no matter whether they said otherwise, feared what he was capable of and because of that they showed him respect. Yet here he was clearly unimpressed by anything you had to offer. You hadn’t even hit your teenage years yet and had managed to take down eight men in the space of only a few minutes….how did that not have him praising you?

“I just took down….” You looked at the unconscious forms laying on the floor around you and counted them in your head before turning back to face him. “….eight men in less than six minutes.”

You knew you shouldn’t be talking back to him, that it would only make him even more displeased with you, but you were annoyed and couldn’t control your emotions as well as he could.

“Yeah and I can do it in less than two. So you have a lot to learn. Come with me.”

Reaching his metal arm out towards you he wrapped his fingers around the top of your arm and pulled you out of the room you had just been fighting in. If he was to train you then he didn’t want the unconscious men waking up and catching a glimpse of what he taught you.

“What do they call you anyway?”

You had never been asked your name before and if you were perfectly honest you weren’t even sure that you had one, not in the traditional sense anyway, you just went with whatever the agents around you called you.

“They all seem to call me ‘Red’ so I guess that’s my name?” I shrugged.

The only response he gave was a little hum. You weren’t entirely sure whether that was because he approved or disapproved of the name you had been given.

                                              * * * * * * * * * *

It had been a few months since that day in the red room when you discovered that the Winter Soldier himself was going to be training you and he was still making it very clear that he didn’t trust you. He would berate you after even the smallest of mistakes and if you were foolish enough to allow your ‘attacker’ to gain advantage over you, injure you in any way, you would be placed in solitary confinement for at least 24 hours to make sure you never allowed it to happen again.

Today probably wasn’t going to play out any differently to all of the days previous to now, at least that was what you had thought, but as you walked yourself into the centre of the room to fight off whatever was thrown your way you found the Winter Soldier himself joining you there. His long brunette locks were tied back from his face and he was already in a rather defensive stance.

“I think it is about time we find out whether you can take me on.”

This wasn’t usual at all – although he trained you every single waking hour of the day he had never been as hands on as this. If you dared to question his actions you may have even considered that he was up to something but you knew your place. He was much older than you, far more experienced, and whatever happened from this moment on there would be a reason for it.

He gave you no time to prepare as his metal arm swung out to try and connect with any part of your body but you quickly ducked out of the way and rolled around him so that you were now stood behind him. Best thing about being young was that you weren’t exactly gifted in the height department yet which made it much easier to move around quickly…..and to duck away from things.

But he had watched you every day for months so he knew, roughly, what kind of decisions you made so before you could land a hit on him he had spun around on his heels and then swung a leg out underneath your feet to knock you to the ground.

“You can’t stick to the same moves all the time. You need to put some variety into it. Go into a fight like that and the enemy will soon be able to deduce what you will do next….as I just did.”

An anger built up inside of you as he scolded you yet again even though you had initially managed to get one over on him. He was never going to be happy with what you did. As it became too much for you to hold back you lunged towards him only for him to simply hold out his hand and place it on your shoulder to stop you.

“Although putting some of your anger into your moves can prove to be useful letting it consume you will only have you making mistakes.”

You opened your mouth to say something but whatever words wanted to come out were soon stopped when something whizzed past you, only just missing you, and hit the man before you instead. Whatever it had been it managed to knock him to the ground as a pained groan escaped him. Immediately your eyes darted round to the other side of the room where you not only saw the person responsible for incapacitating your mentor, rifle in his hands as he continued to aim at the fallen male, but five or six other men beginning to swarm around you.

The thought that this could have been some kind of test never once crossed your mind as you swung your leg on the floor to trip up the two men who had started to make a move towards you. Once their backs hit the floor you used both of your clenched up fists to punch them square in the face at the exact same time with a force that rendered them unconscious immediately. Another of the males lunged at you at the same time the one holding the gun fired towards you – it didn’t even take you a full second to decide to use your unnatural levels of strength to use your incoming attacker as a shield from the rain of bullets.

The Winter Soldier’s blue eyes continued to watch as he lay on the floor, the bullet initially hitting him in the leg had stung like a bitch but with his healing abilities it had passed in seconds….now he was just using this time to watch how you worked when you believed yourself and someone else to be in real danger. Every move you made was one he had never seen you perform before and you did so with such fluency it was almost like he was watching on of those ballet dancers on a stage. When your leg had come down from a kick your arm was straight up in the air throwing a punch, and then your leg was up again swooping around in an almost graceful manner. There wasn’t even the smallest of breaks between each action.

He wasn’t one for showing much emotion-wise but he couldn’t stop the rather proud smile from tugging at his lips as the last man fell to the ground. You hadn’t killed a single one but a couple of them certainly wouldn’t be waking up for a good day or two.

When the ‘enemy’ had been neutralised you headed over to where your injured mentor lay on the ground and the smile on his face was the first thing that you noticed. It was a foreign sight to you but it was certainly welcome….it meant that you had finally done something to impress Hydra’s prized asset.

“There’s my little ballerina….” Once his wound had healed enough for him to sit himself up he placed his metal hand onto your cheek, brushing some of the hair that had fallen from your hair tie back behind your ear, his little test had worked and he couldn’t have been happier.  There’d be some pissed off agents when they woke up but it was nothing he couldn’t handle.“…I have been waiting to see that from you all this time. You are an incredible kid when you’re not overthinking things.”

He had given you a new name, well, nickname anyway and unlike the other one ‘Red’ that always seemed to annoy you this one brought a genuine smile onto your face and for the first time in what seemed like forever you actually appreciated the man before you….and didn’t feel the urge to punch him in the face to wipe his usual smirk off it.

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