#i feel like shit...

[ashthedem0n]

9:57 night.

[archive-of-the-guild]

I'm sick as fuck with freaking Norovirus...

[awkward-radar-tech]

Y'all I'm on the verge of tears... my dyslexia/word processing issues really fucked me up... I misread a message from my online math professor and though all the homework had the due date pushed back, so I focused on other homework yesterday, only to find out rn that the two sections weren't moved... I don't know what to do....

[venusbleeding]

one of my rats isn't walking right and it's kind of breaking my heart. I'm taking her to the vet tomorrow.

[fvaleraye]

*flops* I AM SICK

[spacesheeeeeep]

I want to draw, but it's the middle of the night so instead I'm just binge watching gentleman jack and crying because it can be so fuc*ing sad...

What am I doing with my life ?

[orochislayer]

really notlooking forward to work tonight

[shinydiamond95]

So i’m not really okay. I just don’t want to whine anymore when I feel no one will care, but I guess some people do, even when I don’t acknowledge it. I don‘t draw enough, & when I do, it always take me so long just to finish lining everything. If I could, I would stop time just to have all the time to finish my drawings. Obviously that’s not gonna happen...

I know I’m a good artist, but I feel like I‘m getting nowhere. The most I do is reblog other posts, but I don’t want to just reblog everything. I do that more than I post drawings. I don‘t draw often anymore, I can‘t find any motivation to try. I try looking for any fanart, even when I haven't gotten any in weeks. It’s just me being selfish expecting fanart.

What’s more, I don’t talk to anyone that much, & I always feel alone whenever I’m online. The most I’ve done is just whine & vent my frustrations that I’ve been bottling up about my thoughts for months. I think they’re tired of that. I’m afraid of anyone hating me for it.

I’ve been trying to stay away from this site, knowing it’ll always be the same, but I always check. Even if it won’t make me happy, I still check here to see what everyone‘s been doing. I feel left out, but I try my best to stay quiet, just bottle up my thoughts & move on.

I just don’t draw enough. I always feel like a nobody, struggling to finish something I feel won’t get any attention despite the amount of effort I put in. My own thoughts don’t help either. Most of the time I don’t even wanna talk about my problems. I just cry either in my sleep or in the middle of the day. I just keep asking myself the same things everyday... I don’t know anymore. Is it pointless to draw, no matter how many years I’ve been at it? I‘m nowhere & feel I’ll always remain the same...