#i hate personal posts

[oldlazybastard]

My uncles and cousins and other relatives talk to me like I’m some alien from this far off planet

[oldlazybastard]

I feel like im being an asshole to my family but i just don't like it here at all

[dirtyavatarconfessions]

There you all go, as requested. My ugly mug and my beautiful Amon.

If anyone else has any other questions or comments, please let me know. Probably going to be deleted later.

[spicey-potato]

I want my big brother Gil to hug me and tell me everything will be okay, even though I messed up. It doesn't matter that I might not really be Ludwig, I just wished there was a person I knew I could always rely on who comforts me.

I had a fright of boning with people, I worked hard to get rid of it because I believed there actually were people I could trust. But now I feel myself slowly slipping back because discovered that not everyone who pretends to be your friend who you put effort and love in repays you with the love and trust you hoped for. 

How long ago did I start getting dragged back into that dark hole? I think two months, but I am still angry. But that will probably be because I am still angry for things that happened six years ago. My mother started. Then my 'friends', but I knew they couldn't be trusted. then my best friend turned her back on me. my mother made me believe my grandma did so as well. 

And now, after years of being alone and two years of hard work to get out, ALL THAT WORK HAS BEEN CRUSHED. But hey, guess what. I AM STRONGER THAN THAT FORCE PULLING ME BACK. I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU DO TO ME, I HAVE WON FROM THIS ONCE, SO I CAN WIN FROM IT AGAIN. I HOPE EVERYONE WHO CRUSHED MY HEART REGRETS IT AND THINK IT OVER BECAUSE I HAVE HAD UNHEALTHY THOUGHTS OF REVENGE FOR YEARS AND IT IS TEARING ME APART. 

And please don't post things about how no one cares about you while you clearly ignore my worried messages. 

I don't contact people I am angry at, it makes me feel weak and desperate. Talk to me or stop pretending we are friends.

[oldlazybastard]

I try to understand my folks but their way of being eludes my comprehension. Not having to endure their stares and criticism has made life better than i could've imagined. I can be myself which is the coolest shit ever.

[allesnichtverloren]

I just remembered

I’m so happy we’re not friends anymore.

[allykae]

Today's the first day in about a week that I haven't spent being angry or upset at some point. I just hate that I really can't spend too much time alone lately. How did you manage to ruin that?

[queenquan]

This may possibly be the most dramatic thing I've ever been involved in social-wise, and I'm so fucking frustrated, and I don't know what to do.

Life sucks.