#i have...feelings

[swifty-fox]

think this might be the last year i write mota fic

[bernard-the-rabbit]

used the italian version bc it's simply superior

[rickybowenisbi]

cyrus coming out to his parents during coming out day and his four parents being so proud of him 🥺

[aurelicht]

...I freaking love my muses. Fuck, I wanna write them so bad.

[roboraindrop]

Lang you were LITERALLY just shot in the leg

[staminarunes]

hey not to be dramatic but uhhh...after the next ep we're not going to hear eiffel crack another stupid joke ever again and if that isn't depressing i don't what is

[glimmerkeith]

john and all his "yesterday’s”

so this is what I think about at work after hearing “yesterday” again…sorry if it’s long and ramble-y. but then i found this quote about it from john, apparently from the 2000 book that accompanies the beatles anthology.

 "The song was around for months and months before we finally completed it. Every time we got together to write songs for a recording session, this one would come up. We almost had it finished. Paul wrote nearly all of it, but we just couldn't find the right title. We called it "Scrambled Eggs" and it became a joke between us. We made up our minds that only a one-word title would suit, we just couldn't find the right one. Then one morning Paul woke up and the song and the title were both there, completed. I was sorry in a way, we'd had so many laughs about it."

we know paul drove people to distraction while composing the song, working on the melody and the lyrics, and frantically double-checking with people that the song wasn’t already something in existence because of the simple way he literally dreamed it up. after some tinkering, it becomes one of the beatle songs, the most covered, one of the most iconic songs in, no exaggeration, all of musical history.

a song that paul dreamed up.

the quote from john offers some insight to his own “contribution” to the process--he was still a sounding board for paul, they had a laugh about the original ridiculous lyrics for it. many years later, john later admits it’s the best song the beatles ever did (or one of them), but at the time, it’s a laugh between him and paul. it’s a lark. and so when it’s completed, when paul finally cracks the code and finishes it, john is...disappointed. there goes the joke, and there goes that connection they had while trying to finish it. like with any other song they were collaborating on, except--

this is the song. not to get too far out here, but if anyone’s seen the johnny cash biographical film “walk the line,” he gets asked what if he was dying right now and he had one song of his left to sing, “one song that people would remember before you're dirt. one song that would let god know how you felt about your time here on earth. one song that would sum you up”, what would it be? cash performs “folsom prison blues”, which is pretty much undoubtedly one of his greatest, if not the best.

“yesterday” is likely that to paul mccartney. and it begins life as a constant back-and-forth joke between him and john (and it’s also worth mentioning that paul is the only beatle to appear on the recording of it--it’s a song he sings alone, it is his)

so after the fall-out, after the breakup, john is dogged by it and so ultimately by paul. bands play it for him in restaurants and at parties, attributing it to him as well--how much like salt in an open wound that probably felt. and of course, this leads to his godawful reference to it in his godawful 1971 song, “how do you sleep?”

The only thing you done was yesterday And since you've gone you're just another day

apparently his original lyrics to the second part were “you probably pinched that bitch anyway.” john knows full damn well about paul’s original concerns that the melody to “yesterday” had to belong to something else, and he directly targets that there. now imagine how paul must have felt, knowing what john knows, knowing it was a source of both anxiety but humor to him and to the both of them, and now john is throwing it back in his face.

it takes time for them to mend the broken bridge in between them, and although someone will have to source this/quote me on it, i believe that john later said that the two beatles’ songs he thought likely to last the longest were “yesterday”...and “eleanor rigby.” (for what it’s worth, another paul song, although the composition of that one writing-wise also has elements of a group effort to it).

both of these are paul’s “breakaway” songs, songs that helped establish him as a near-separate entity from the others. and i think, deep down, john might have already begun to suspect that at the time of their composition (years later, he agonizes to yoko about how everyone loves and covers paul’s song, not his).

but more than that, it was a laugh between the two of them. it was an experience john was sorry to see go, when it was over. how must he have been feeling? when that song keeps continuously coming back to haunt him, how deeply must that have cut? it’s also worth mentioning that “yesterday” is a song about regret, it is not an upbeat and perky mccartney original (tm), it’s sad and full of longing. how....interesting

anyways...i’m Emo, but anyone can feel free to correct me/add discussion/cry with me too