#i just... can't

[waknatious]

my inner number nerd will not let me interact with any post that looks like this

[running-in-the-dark]

had my first real appointment with my new GP today (the time last month when I had to go in because of my middle ear infection doesn't count) - it was fine! not great, not bad, just fine. they had to take my blood too and surprisingly, the kinda rough nurse got a lot nicer once she realised how scared I was (usually they just tend to start talking to me like I'm a child).

then I saw that a package I was waiting for got delivered while I was at the appointment - to one of my neighbours. except it didn't say which one. there's 5 other families in this house, so that was a bit scary. I decided to just ask the people in the other ground floor apartment, and luckily they did have my package! the lady that opened the door was really nice. I'm glad I managed to do that - it was hard, tbh. really scary. but I just had the thought that I should at least ask those people and then basically ran out immediately so I wouldn't have time to think about it (and it worked).

we're getting closer to finishing our kitchen. just a couple things left now, like the hanging cabinets (that's the part that scares me a bit - I already don't trust those anyway, but if I know I'm the one who put them up... well that kinda makes it even scarier 😬). I'm excited for it to be done though - I really need to unpack the rest of our stuff before the chaos makes me go insane.

it seems that this period of having a slightly higher level of energy is over, unfortunately. I knew it wouldn't last, and it was like a month this time! that's impressive. but I'm still pretty upset about being back to having to sit on the couch most of the day. it's not great timing, there's so much to do still :( and I'm just permanently exhausted again, so it'll take forever.

[undead-barbie]

girl help i can't

[mrsbakashi]

Your students love Naruto??

And out of pure curiosity: What would be your favorite anime?

hi!

they do! it's adorable haha and because my phone and computer's wallpapers are always naruto related they know i love it too, so those who didn't watch the show before do now because they also want to talk about the characters, it's adorable! and they give me drawings :)

now, my favorite anime it's such a complicated topic 😩

it's kimi ni todoke because it has been my comfort anime for years and i just love the story and the characters, but i haven't been able to watch it since haruma's death so idk if it still counts.

but lovely complex is also on the list because it was the anime that reminded me i love animes - i used to watch a lot of them on tv when i was a kid, but when i started growing up i kinda stopped and when i was 13 i came across lovely complex and it was "oh, yeah, i forgot how much i love this" (and also because i love the main characters and it made me laugh and cry sm). and also kotaro lives alone made it to the list. but of course naruto is one of my favorites, and it's been my comfort anime lately (which is funny because the last thing this show does it comfort you 🥲)

but picking just one it's kimi ni todoke hands down (btw i still need to watch komi can't communicate because apparently it's very similar to sawako's story)

sorry for the long answer!

i'm tagging @starnightcat because she asked me the same :)

[annballofyarn]

I am so scared.... 🆘

[short-horse]

It's been two days since I got the second dose of the COVID-19 vaccine. As is to be expected, I felt kinda icky for about a day but it passed. I am, however, deeply disappointed that I haven't gotten superpowers or even grown an extra limb. My coworker just kept going on and on about all the "DNA changes" that were gonna happen to me if I got it. Making antibodies is great but think of how cool having superhuman strength or growing a fleshy rat tail would have been. ):

[masked-buffoon]

Just a quick message to tell you, my followers, about the upcoming week.

Chapter 8 will be over on Tuesday and, until the end of the week, chapter 9 won’t be out. Why? Because I have exams, that’s why, I’m taking a break. I haven’t had time to proofread the 9th one anyway.

Besides, I... How to say that...? Chapter 8 has terrible statistics for now and... Why, I just feel it isn”t good enough. I didn’t have any feedback so I can’t say for sure how much you like it...

Moreover, I’m a bit... Tired, you know...? Since I’ve started this adventure on Tumblr with you, I gained no less than 20 followers, and I am so happy and grateful you decided to support me! However, when you get a single note on something you worked hard on, it leaves you a bit frustrated...

You’re going to tell me to write or myself above all. You’re going to tell me recognition doesn’t matter. Well, it does, because when an artist/writer posts their work on any social media, it is for the purpose of sharing and improving thanks to feedback.

When I started on Tumblr, I followed many blogs, but wasn’t an active member (which didn’t stop me from leaving likes everywhere...). Then, I decided to reveal myself as a writer. I reached out to many people, with a lot of sincerity and even more naivety, I believe. I reached out. I still do. I found excuses for evreryone ; busy life, my story is too long, I post too much, they can’t catch up... But now, I feel that sincerity is gradually fading away, and I hate that. I want to interact with people honestly, not with a mask. I forgot about hypocrisy on social medias and I blame myself for that.

At this point, I’m writing for what... 2? 3 people? Honestly, to these three people who support me so much, I can’t begin to express how grateful I am that I met you and that you chose to follow me and my average writing. You’re incredible, and I hope we can go far together.

But... I still need a break, for my exams, and for the sake of my blog. If I don’t, I may take down everything and... We wouldn’t want that...

Thank you for reading everything, if you did. I know, I didn’t put a “keep reading” link but... That’s because, for once, I didn’t want you to skip that post...? My apologies for the disturbance, hope you have a good day/night, wherever you live!