#i rant.

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I can barely put into words the frustration I feel when I'm talking with someone (normally cishet white girls) and they’re like, “Oh yeah I like LGBT+ books” and I get really excited because I'm queer and that’s all I read so I rec some to them and they get really angry or just dismissive of all of my recs and soon it becomes painfully obvious that they only just like books where two slim white gay boys kiss and don’t actually care for any other stories.

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one step at a time

honestly, I’ve never felt as useless as I have the past 2 months.

It’s a thought that never crossed my mind until I had to think about it. When you lose the ability to use one of your vital limbs, you’ve got to make up for it with your other limbs, which means you can’t use your other limbs as you usually do? I guess you’ve got to sacrifice somewhere to use it elsewhere. Which meant a simple task such as holding a glass of water whilst walking, is now impossible.

maybe I’m being a bit melodramatic, but it definitely has put things into perspective for me. I am grateful I will recover, I will walk again. I just need a bit of time to recover. I’m learning to walk again, one step at a time.

I am especially sympathetic to those who have to face these hardships and frustrations every day. I will be especially attentive to those who will appreciate that little extra help: I will ask for an available seat for the lady with a ‘baby on board’ badge on the tube, I will offer my arm for the older man crossing the road at his own pace, I will offer my help to people on crutches, as I am able-bodied, and the most able to help.

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Yi Sau

My forename by birth is Tracey, yet my ethnicity is Chinese.

My name is a reminder that in order for me to have the best chances of success in life, to make non-Chinese speakers feel more comfortable pronouncing my name, how Westernisation has been regarded as superior, my Chinese parents, whose first language is not English, named me an English name.

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Sometimes you have to shut the door and let the darkness overcome you in order to let the light come back in.

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And when you let that light back in, it’ll appear as bright as it should be.

If you’re in a bad place, it’s okay to shut down.  Just know that the ‘on’ button exists and that it can be pressed at any time when you’re ready.

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Love, learn, live and let go.

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Don’t let where you’ve come from hold you back.

But don’t forget your roots.

Don’t forget your roots.

But don’t let where you’ve come from hold you back.