#i will keep fighting

[bmoviebabylon]

listening to 倍倍FIGHT! every morning to give me motivation in my unemployed era is the most idol otaku thing I’ve ever done

[milo-mars]

A Very important life update

Hi Tumblr, it's Milo.

I have sadly been inactive with writing fics and posts so I thought I would give a life update to explain myself

Trigger warnings for suicidal thoughts, depression and some hurtful religious rhetoric.

So things went south in june, specifically June 8th. I have grown up Mormon all my life but I do not align with the beliefs and have not since I was a kid. and on June 8th there was a church dance that I wanted to go to with some friends, whom also are in the church but don't have the beliefs, and my boyfriend. I told him to come to my house so we could hang out and we left to go to the building where the dance was early. after a few minutes of walking around the building my parents pull up in their car beside us and my mom tells me to get in. I get in and as soon as we start driving again my mom began to yell at me and called me "a fucking liar".

When I wasn't at home I left discord open on my device and my parents found out how I was queer and trans and that I was planning on making out with my boyfriend. the yelling continued until we parked in our driveway and my mom told me to change inside. I change into some pajamas as I shook from fear and I watched as my mother shoved some of my clothes and some of the things I loved in a trash bag. im crying and on the near brink of a panic attack and im scared when my dad comes to my side. only for him to pull me into a hug and say my mom was overreacting and that this wasn't a big deal. basically my mom and dad went through my discord chats with my friends while my mom (whom was very angry) made condescending remarks to me and asking me when this started.

im not going to go into what was said to me specifically (just imagine mormons talking about why being gay isn't in gods plan and how drinking coffee invokes satan and how all my friends are toxic, even if I said that I was the one who was choosing what to do.) but some highlights are:

My dad comforting me while my mom rants about how hard some her life was when she was younger and how her mom was meaner and my dad telling her that this isn't about her.

my mom telling me that im groomer if I continued to act friendly to a young girl at church because she is vulnerable from personal things happening in her life.

It ended with me crying myself to sleep that night and waking up at three am to message my boyfriend about what had happened after I left him. and the next morning my eyes were so puffy from crying it looked like I was having an allergic reaction. I had delt with suicidal thoughts in the past but those had gotten better since I moved but after that day, I had never had that kind of urge to in my life (im 16 Yo as of this post) and I genuinely couldn't imagine living after having my mother yell at me and make it look like she was throwing away my stuff (she later said that she just put it in a trash bag in her room and I grabbed back my cds, but she threw away half of my books and some clothes of mine, such as a pair of short pajama shorts and a fishnet top because they disgusted her.)

I am going to be 18 next year on October 17th. I plan on moving out of my house and into an apartment 20 minutes away. I think about moving out everyday now since June and I went to move out so badly. if anyone has any advice for me about college intuition coverage (since my mom has doomed my future by home schooling me my whole life and only teaching god) and just how to do basic things (i.e paying rent, creative writing jobs, and just life tips in general.)

I want help to get out of here and after I get my drivers license in less then 6 months then I think I can be a step closer to escaping the grasp of my mother and leaving the church for good. I am in secret contact with my boyfriend and a friend of mine for support and help for when I move. Anything that you, dear internet user, would be greatly appreciated and could save what's left of my scattered mental health.

I love you all so much and I have never felt so much support when I was so lonely and isolated. I never knew I wanted to be a writer until I tried it and saw how much you all loved it. ill forever be grateful for you guys for giving me the dream and desire to write better and to become an author. I will continue to give all the love you've shown for my fics right back to you all as much as I can.

With more love then I thought I could have, Milo.

[maranello]

Do you really think we have a chance at winning any championship. We have 2 victories while rb has 5. And if rb’s strategies weren’t good enough the stewards are on their side too. We stand no chance. I want to be confident but Ferrari as a team is just not good enough and I’m afraid we will lose Charles too soon if Ferrari don’t step up their game.

anon, I will be real with you, I don’t know.

I think it’s tempting to give in and say the momentum is swinging away from Ferrari and we could lose Charles too if they keep this up. The past few races, yes, Ferrari has been way less than perfect. Horrid, even. But that doesn’t mean they have to stay that way. If not this season, surely not forever… It’s round 6 out of 23 (or 22). there is still a long way to go, and even if I am not personally giving Ferrari a vote of total confidence, I am too spiteful and stubborn to give up just yet. they can tell me we’ve lost when we’ve actually lost and I will be kicking and spitting blood when they do it

[farsight-the-char]

If I was living in the States, I would vote for Biden in the election if given no other option....

But until the day of election, I would be calling for him to be properly tried for his many crimes. 

But I don’t live in the States. And Biden reminds me so much of why I hate Neo-Liberal “Centerists”, in the same way I hate Trudeau.

So I am going to be calling for Biden to be tried for his many crimes.

[life-through-my-eyess]

I’m not perfect, I will make mistakes but I swear I will try, I will fight and keep pushing till the end 👏

[card-queen]

Status Update

MCM is 17 days away (gulp) Still looking for a new house before eviction Still attempting to get all my con stuff ready before then

Life is difficult but I am still here and still fighting hard! If all goes well, I’ll have a sneak peek of our stock for MCM by next weekend.

Wish me luck!

Ko-Fi: https://ko-fi.com/gemstar

[bluebirdboundbychains]

I’ve been doing better at ignoring the dark thoughts in my head, and it’s thanks to my partner. All I do is just have conversations with myself using their voice in my head and I calm down. I have it tell me positive things and give me motivational talks.

I also look at my ring and remember that they care about me. Even if we have an argument or if there’s a period of time where we both need some space I know that they’ll be there for me. The smallest things that remind me of them help tremendously.

I know I still have a long way to go before I’ll be the person I want to be, but I’m slowly getting there one step at a time.

[feyriane]

Hypothesis: if I keep mentioning Isseya to the Heroes Of Dragon Age guys, they will eventually give us Isseya. Current status: Unproven.