i hate this fucking country. can't get disability unless you can't work for a whole consecutive year even though my injury still means i can't hold a vast majority of jobs 8 months later since i can't stand or walk for more than an hour or so. can't get unemployment bc the government decided 'i probably wouldn't have quit if my hours hadn't been reduced' means 'i quit for personal reasons' bc there wasn't an 'reduction in hours' box on my resignation form and i didn't want to burn my bridges by making my resignation sound like my school's fault. paid 4k out of pocket for medical costs this year (not counting 3 months of cobra at nearly $900/month), meeting my out of pocket max, but when i went to pick my prescription yesterday i still got charged a copay bc my insurance company (guess which one. guess.) won't do their fucking job right. same insurance won't cover my pt now bc (best i can figure, they won't fucking tell me) they claim i've used up my allotted number of appts even though they told the pt clinic i had 18 visits left. every application for government assistance is too long and impossibly convoluted and if you make a single mistake they deny you bc they'll take any excuse not to have to give you money. the paper mail notification of my snap interview arrived at my house a day after the interview took place. we've created a system where fucking dying in my car accident would've been preferable to this. i'm glad i didn't die, i don't want to have died, but this country doesn't fucking want me to live.
