#i'm completely devastated

[huffleporg]

My cat just died.

Juno. My June bug. 

She was about to turn four. 

She had a heart defect. 

She died in my mom’s arms. 

I’ll never forget her.

[heoneyology]

random gifs of jooheon (3/∞) ↳ “I will protect you.”

[spvrkvoid]

Having a shutdown because I finally and wholly lost in life. My enemies have won for the delight of my other enemies. It's over. I hate everything. I don’t want to exist in a world like this. This is the wrong universe. I'm done with it.

[nokomiss]

On some level, I was convinced that David Bowie was immortal.  (On some level, he is.)

[endigo]

I just can’t wrap my head around it. I had a hard believing that I was pregnant but this is on a whole different level. The range and surge of emotions these past couple of weeks have been insane. I was so happy. He was happy. I thought I had achieved something that my body couldn’t do on its own and I was proud. I didn’t use any fertility drugs, no IUI, or any doctor interference. I was happy that my body was able to perform a basic womanly function.

I knew when it happened, however the doctor had called me yesterday to confirm my fears. It happened on Monday. I was experiencing more bleeding than usual and then large clots. I had no pain though. When I saw it in the toilet my body went completely numb. It proceeded throughout the day and into Tuesday. One day you feel elated. You can feel all the extraordinary changes your body is doing to prepare for housing this child for the next nine months and the next day you can feel your entire womb empty out. Your body just feels like an empty shell. All those feelings and changes have stopped.

The doctor called me yesterday afternoon and told me my hormone level was 29 and I’m having a miscarriage. It was hard not to lose it over the phone but I assume she could sense it because she kept it short. So now we have to track that number back to 0. After the conversation I couldn’t stop crying. My boyfriend came home a half hour later and he learned the news. I couldn’t bear for him to see my face. I felt like I let him down and our baby down. I just cried. I pretty much cried all evening until my boyfriend came downstairs. He didn’t want to move or get out of bed. He’s just as devastated as I am. I feel like I could’ve done better. I did tell him even though we won’t have a baby in our arms, we’ll forever be parents and his mom is taking care of our baby in heaven until we get there.

It’s just not fair.

[thiselectricnightmare]

"Special Op"- Jim Johnston.

Believe in The Shield.

...one last time.

[dimplesfrecklesandcutepuppyeyes]

There's nothing more depressing than knowing a 'lol Cory Monteith' tag actually exists..

The one person who's never done anything to hurt anyone.. One of the best people to ever exist in this world.. Someone who despite his demons had the kindest, most generous and loving heart bigger than all of Canada.. A young man who wanted nothing more than to help people even though he was suffering inside.. This beautiful soul who saved so many lives but couldn't save his own..actually has a tag devoted to bitter hatred of him...   I feel like I'm going to be sick.. Word of caution to other Cory fans..don't go there.. It's the most shameful, cruel, horrifying place where people are basically spitting on Cory and his memory. Just save yourself the pain..