i think about shane being so brave when he calls ilya that first time all the time. he just goes straight to his phone and hits call. he's so worried about him, he loves him so much, that he CALLS HIM. they don't do this. they send off flirty texts and meetup times back and forth. they don't call. they don't speak. they don't facetime. just dancing around the fact that they can do this, that they want to, but neither pulling the trigger. so for this to be the first time, for shane to be so worried that he just presses that call button is so big. it's so brave! for him to be by the phone, waiting for at least a message back. for him to pick up immediately when ilya facetimes him back. not a second thought about being on camera. about seeing ilya. about being seen soft and vulnerable in his home. it's an instant choice of "i'm here for you" and "i got you" and "i will listen" and "i like you" and "i will hold your worries" and "i will make time for you" and what is all of that if not bravery and love?