i love you, i love you, good job, i love you

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[moonlightsonatah]

shane's baby

ilya's baby companion piece ✨

[firstprinced]

[randomnotebookthoughts]

I am truly a giggler. A laugher. A chuckler. Just somewhere in the background snickering.

[lesbianlandry]

[moonlightsonatah]

sometimes it’s really good to spend your adult money on….. things

[gaysie]

guys don’t come out as bisexual anymore they just see CRANK by slayyyter playing on the tv and say Quick take my picture

[gaysie]

IMMEDIATELY hall of fame image

[moonlightsonatah]

hang it in the louvre

pt 39/?

[cloudabserk]

what if we were both puppies learning to play

[04k96]

[loontattoo]

sometimes the dom and the sub can both be dogs

[dogsdayilya]

Loyalty (1869)

— by Briton Rivière

Loyalty (2025)

— by Ilya Rozanov

[whatthebodygraspsnot]

hollanov texts: spicy edition [ more ]

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[hazmesentir]

my humble request for heated rivalry s2: more kissing. more slow makeouts. more grinding. more teasing. more hands under clothes. more words whispered against skin. more cuddling and hands playing with hair. more nose nuzzles. moremoremore please.

[whatthebodygraspsnot]

going on my thirteenth year (#mythirteenthyear) at camp and thinking fondly of camp counselor shane who leads a group of ambitious little 1st-3rd graders every summer with his bff hayden. but! hayden has gone soft (gotten a girlfriend who he loves apparently and wants to spend time with wtf ever) so he's not returning this year, much to shane's stress.

the thing is he runs a tight cabin. his group always competes super well in camp games because of who he is as a person. and he and hayden have a whole thing going on (leads and scrapes, head and tail, etc) that they've just fallen into flawlessly over the years and now shane's stressing out because he's gonna have to build all that up again with another counselor. and oh my goodness gracious, dear reader, guess who that new counselor is? :)

smash cut to training weeks with this guy named ilya rozanov that shane will admit, has a really fun attitude about things, but also just doesn't have the same tact as shane. (like hello? he answered the scenario "what would you do if you found one of your campers out of bunk at night outside?" with "they are doing something fun, yes? they will need flashlight, so i will bring flashlight." crazy.) shane really doesn't think it's going to work. it doesn't matter that ilya's kind of funny. or that they smoke the rest of the groups during team-building exercises in a way that makes shane feel like he's just done a fat line of coke. or that ilya is the first person at camp that can lift shane with ease. it's not gonna work. he asks his lead if they can maybe switch him out with one of the returning counselors. this of course doesn't happen. "you're a vet shane - just show him the ropes" etc etc kill him. it's not happening.

and then camp starts. and the kids come. and he's scoping out their abilities from the edge of the sharks and minnows field and ilya comes traipsing up, all out of breath and smiling, and he stands next to shane and goes "they are terrible hollander. many more running games before friday though and we have a chance at winning." and shane's ears are fuckingggg perking up bitch. like hello? he actually gives a shit about winning? because hayden cared, but not like...to the degree that shane cared. no one ever cares to the degree that shane cares. and in fact hayden had this annoying habit of trying to wrangle shane's competitive ass with a "it's just a game, dude." that made him see red sometimes but ilya? he's gunning for it? oh fuck yeah.

and so begins Centaur Bunk's skyrocket to success. it's like...shockingly easy to get these kids to give a fuck about winning when shane's not single-parenting it. almost instantly, they become the team to beat. shane keeps everyone on task and goal-oriented - makes sure everyone's earning their daily pins that they get to clip onto their backpacks - keeps everyone hydrated and safe and winning. meanwhile ilya's keeping everything fun and accessible. shane's not really sure how he does it, but he gets the kid who comes down with a mysterious and totally not made up leg injury to run the last stretch of rubber chicken races ("listen close - i know where the popsicles are kept. run with us and i will get and let you have first pick, yes?") of course it's a Centaurs win. everyone cheers. shane feels probably more stoked than he should for a summer camp rubber chicken race.

and maybe that's because he's slowly realizing that ilya doesn't actually piss him off as much as he thought he did. he actually kind of-...well. it doesn't matter because it's just a month-long thing and then everyone disperses for a year and ilya's probably not even coming back right? so it's whatever. and anyway when you're in charge of a gaggle of kids you're kind of forced into this weird coparenting dynamic and that's probably all it is, right?

shane's not actually crushing on ilya. he's not watching fondly when he gets one of their quieter kids to join the (unapproved) ghost stories circle around the fire. he's not letting his eyes slip over to him a couple times too many during their lake swims. he isn't desperate to go trail after him when he whispers to shane at night that he's going to go "check in with the moon" and comes back smelling just a little bit like (unapproved) cigarettes. it's all fine actually. and good :) and shane is not crushing on him at all to the point where he wants to make out with him sloppy style the night after the Cens win the All-Camp trophy and everyone else is asleep :) he has it under control so good :) why are you looking at him like that!

[myshangel]

Shane doesn't put up with Ilya. he loves him. he puts up with any amount of time they have to be apart. anyone suggesting anything about how Hollander puts up with Roz is getting spoken to quickly and quietly . he loves him him encourages him he enables him HE LOVES HIM !!!!

[hollanderthoughts]

can yearning make you sick

[hollanderthoughts]

can desire kill you