#ibi rambles

[writingjourney]

i'm gonna take a little break from this blog here until i can come back with something productive. will still be yapping on my main blog @ibikus and discord under the same name if you want to reach me (if we know each other), see you <3

[writingjourney]

anyway, i am slowly trying to be a bit more active again but i can't promise how responsive i can be. i'm still dealing with health stuff and my mental health isn't great either but i miss this space a lot. writing hasn't been happening, really, but i hope i can finally start on something soon. it's been an up and down but for my sanity i need to create. thanks for being so patient and kind in the meantime <3

[writingjourney]

i'm working hard on the new chapter of iknbs this weekend, already typed out 2k words this afternoon after i got back from getting groceries <3

i was thinking of perhaps sharing the prompt list i have been working on once this is done, i am kinda terrified of that now though. do we vibe with short little warm-up fic requests like that?

[writingjourney]

i just wanted to say that if you send me asks or i haven’t replied to DMs or comments it’s because i just don’t have a lot of spoons right now and want to be careful how i spend them. i waste a lot of energy in anxiety spirals that i need for work and to take care of my health and want to limit being in online spaces. so i hope you can be patient with me and it’s okay if it takes a little longer <3

[writingjourney]

PSA about RHRN

Until the last screenings on Sunday/Monday end I will not be posting any spoilers about the movie. I will be around come Thursday night after I've watched it in case any of you want/need to chat in private about what we all saw. After that, I am not sure about posting, I am kind of hoping we'll be hearing about a physical/digital release soon and see from there. If I should post any spoilers on this blog come next week I will use the following hashtags:

#rite here rite now

#rite here rite now spoilers

#ghovie spoilers

I urge you all to do the same and not immediately spoil the fun for other ghesties by at least tagging your posts. You all know Tobias wants us to have a great time, to immerse ourselves in the footage and the music and the whole cinematic experience that he and eveyone involved so meticulously crafted. I know many of you are anxious or concerned but please allow yourselves to enjoy the ride – this is incredibly special and something that other music fans can only dream of. Seeing this on big screen is a beautiful privilige and once in a life time moment. Trust their vision ♡

[writingjourney]

i'm sorry if i'm not super responsive right now (especially in dms/on discord), it's just all kind of shit, my cat has an ongoing ibd flare up that won't calm down which is why i hardly sleep, insurance/work related issues are also not resolved yet and yeah, i just feel like crying 24/7 and struggle to have the capacity to act like a human. i still love you all lots <3

[writingjourney]

I like to think that a lot of the party escapades Secondo is implied to have had during his Papacy were his way to rebel against the clergy (not that he did not enjoy the music/dancing or being wanted and the distractions that come with a night out, mind you, but wasting their money seems like a great way to annoy Sister and he is calculated enough to create a specific image of himself that is associated with the papacy) and that he replaces those party nights in his later years (post retirement) in favour of going out with his lover, exploring the restaurants in the area, short weekend trips, sitting outside past sunset, sipping a drink during summer. I think he is a man of quality, every date would be special, and he probably knows more than one restaurant owner who caters to his specific wishes. He still loves going out but he exchanged the adrenaline rush for quality time, you know?

[writingjourney]

hey friends, i'll likely continue to be a bit less active on here. i have a very old senior kitty and she's not been doing well these past few days, she's improving now but my mental (and physical) health plummeted even more as you can imagine. i realize that not spending as much time in this space as i used to is better for me rn. i am not in a headspace to be all happy and bubbly and might be slow to reply to DMs. should i finish any writing despite the creative block i have i'll of course post it and i'll also try to still be supportive of others where i can and queue some posts when i do come online.

i'll be on discord for messages more frequently so if you want to reach me it's @/ibikus <3