#icantstopthinking

[ivorylambs]

(SPOILERS FOR THE MAGNUS ARCHIVES)

I keep wondering what Elias / Jonah is gonna be like when they storm The Panopticon. Is he just gonna be the same old Bitchard reveling in his newfound “immortality”, like the Big Bad Boss in video games?

Why do I feel like Jonny is gonna whip a 180 on us and portray him as some sniveling pathetic creature. Maybe he’s stuck to his throne, eyes wide open as he’s forced to watch EVERYTHING and his human mind is crumbling with the massive amount of knowledge swarming his brain.

Or will Jon duke it out knight-style and pull that empathy-laser beam on Elias like he did to Not!Sasha? And Elias dies or goes insane from experiencing the sheer pain he has caused?

Jon and Martin burn down the Archives, causing The Eye to be forcefully ejected from this world, and thus all the other Entities?? But will they burn too pls no—

WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN

[xon-a-whimx]

Where Is My Mind? - Pixies

“your head will collapse if there is nothing in it”

[themadnessthatconsumesyou-blog]

Possible Trigger Warning

I’m tired of having to mask being fine when I’m so far from it. I’m not even sad anymore, I’m just nothing at all. It’s like there’s this void that cannot be filled anymore. I can’t drink the pain away. I can’t purge the pain away. I can’t take my pills and wish the pain away. And most of all I can’t cut the pain away. I may turn into an emotionless husk of my former self each time I engage in my self destructive tendencies but at this point I am nothing. I’m afraid of death, but more so afraid of life. I didn’t even think I’d make it this far and now I have to plan for a future that I thought I wouldn’t even fucking have.I am nothing but self destruction and idk how to stop.

[crescent-moon-face]

Almost everything possible that could have gone wrong today, did. I had to work for almost 11 hours when I was not scheduled for 5. I couldn’t reup when I needed to, and I had to help babysit, with no down time from the minute I got home. I was supposed to go on a dabventure with Ceairra and that didn’t happen. At 11:45 at night, I am just now finding the time to take my first bath all week. I’m fighting off sleep because I don’t want to exert the energy to get out of the water. Every muscle in my body (some I didn’t even know I had) hurts, but when my paycheck comes and I walk through the door to the smell of fresh ink it’s so worth it. I can’t wait to get my sleeve started FINALLY. It’s a bit ridiculous that I’ve been of age for over 2 years and only have one back piece. More good things are in store, I just wish I had people to share my accomplishments with. I’m finding myself. Just like everyone told me to.

[jesusstilllives]

When you can’t sleep and have to wake up super early.

[wallaheewuigi]

"That..- that's what's wrong with us. We invest so much time trying to fall in love with other people, that we end up forgetting to fall in love with ourselves, too."

[tootsi3roll]

I adore the fuck outta you 😊

[heymoniquehey]

I'm not even remotely interested in sex anymore.