#icantstopthinkingabouthim

[chososfav]

Alhaitham brainrot go brrr

[intricatelythought]

first love

when i was in 7th grade. a guy belonging from another grade messaged me and since i wanted to be friends with a lot of people, i talked to him. and after a while, my bestfriend told me that he liked me, even before i talked to him. i still remember my heart fluttering when i heard that. before i knew it, i started to like him back too, so i told him. i was scared of the idea of having a boyfriend at a young age because it felt like having such a serious relationship comes with really big responsibility that i wouldn’t be able to keep up with. he understood and felt the same way so, we just labeled our relationship as mutual understanding. i loved our relationship, we understood and cared for each other and no one has ever given me that kind of feeling even until now. i don’t know if i truly loved him but i know that i cherished and truly cared for him in a way that i haven’t felt and done for anyone. but then, things happened. i actually thought i’d be beyond devastated if the relationship ended, but i didn’t. i just felt really sad and extremely disappointed in him because he didn’t even try to fight for our relationship, like it didn’t have any meaning to him. fast forwarding to a year after. i wasn’t studying at our school anymore, but i still visited whenever there were events. i saw him. he matured so much. i could tell he matured not only with physical aspects but also with his attitude and personality. gone was the boy who was cheeky and energetic, the one that always tried to talk to me in person and had me blushing and my heart pounding like crazy because of his cute antics. instead, i saw a young adult who was calm and relaxed, a boy maturing into a man with confidence. there were jail and wedding booths at the school event and i found out that he was supposed to be in a wedding booth with a girl who i heard was his now partner in a mutual understanding relationship. i think i heard my heart crack that day. coincidentally, my friends chose to sit by the benches near the wedding booth. from the corner of my eye, i saw the girl wearing the “wedding veil” waiting for him to come. but he was nowhere to be found. god, help me. i don’t know what was going with his head but i have never felt so relieved that he didn’t come. i wouldn’t know what i would do if he did. probably would’ve left because i don’t think my heart could handle the sight alone. god, i’m way over my head. a tiny part of me would like to think that even if he moved on from me, he still cared enough to think that i might get hurt if i see him with another girl. i don’t know. i really can’t move on. i can’t forget about him no matter how hard i try. even after 6 year. can you believe it? even i can’t. after all, he was my first love.

[rosebud1313]

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[alittleballofhate]

I hope that with time this flame does not die. I hope with time, you'll still be the same guy I fell in love with. I hope with time that I'll be able to feel your arms around me. I hope with time that you still see the goodness in me. <3

[sierramemories]

So just a quick update, I met this guy at a party about a month ago and I didn't think much of him but we hung out a few times and I met his beautiful little polish family and his staffy and we went out to civic the other night and it was incredible and his friends kept telling me how much he likes me and I haven't felt this intense about someone since Matt! He's so beautiful and treats me like I've never been treated and I swear it's like I've met myself in another person! I can't wait to go to dinner this Friday and ughh he's just so damn ughhhh!!!!

[theunpredictablee]

[seilamiaserendipita]

I wish I had someone to talk to, not about anything in particular just to talk ):