#icarian exploits

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No but on a positive note listening to jade thirwall’s solo album after being forcibly exposed to the mess that Taylor swift’s new album is frankly so refreshing. THAT’S SHOWBIZ, BABY! Is what the life of a showgirl miserably failed at being. Actually fun danceable but still analytical and introspective pop music we are so back. Also I’m kind of obsessed with her recent collab with Kesha on BOYS. Just her voice!!! 13 year old me who used to dance along to little mix while doing my math hw is LIVING right now

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I love my friends

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Ok maybe I am genderfluid instead of explicitly transmasc except the shifts in my gender are inexplicably inextricably linked to my attraction because I saw this jaw-droppingly beautiful femme (shoutout high femme black women because wow) and like I can feel myself moving away from the masc side to the femme side of both the gender and attraction continuum. I wanna wear a mini skirt and go twirly. And not in a femboy way either. Im feeling sapphic again. I’ve still got dysphoria but im also simultaneously kind of a woman again.

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And maybe I like messy bisexual representation because I am messy bisexual representation. Maybe I don’t want to see perfect bisexuals in media I consume. Maybe I wanna see bisexuals who actually reflect my own experiences growing up as one of the few queer kids I knew in the global south. My first kiss was literally with problematic age gap bicurious georg. I was the person girls came to when they wanted to see whether they liked girls or not. I’m the messy stereotypical bisexual representation I wanna see in the world. What about it huh? What the fuck about it are you going to do?

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AT MY FAVOURITE QUEER FRIENDLY CAFE FOR A CUP OF HOT CHOCOLATE TO SOOTHE MY THROAT AND I SAW THIS REALLY FUCKING COOL GOTH GIRL WITH LESBIANS WRITTEN ON HER SHIRT WITH MULTIPLE LESBIAN FLAG COLOUR RAINBOWS AND THAT ONE CRYING CAT MEME. THE WAY THIS JS MAKING ME FEEL WE EXIST!!! DESPITE EVERYTHING US GLOBAL SOUTH QUEERS REFUSE TO HAVE TO HIDE!!! WE CAN GO OUTSIDE WEARING TSHIRTS WITH LESBIAN MEMES ON THEM AND TALK ABOUT TURNING DOWN GIRLS AND HAVE ACTUAL LIVES. FUCKKKKKKK

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Do I finally listen to the Magnus archives? So many of my mutuals seem obsessed with it and I’m curious now

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Was thinking about ways I could make hadestown even more tragic because that’s what I do and remembered that I saw both hadestown and Gluck’s orfeo ed eurydice live last year so it got me thinking of a orfeo ed eurydice hadestown au where eurydice obviously doesnt know that Orpheus cant turn around and I’m like imagining the angst potential of them having to continue on like that for the 3 years it takes to walk out of hadestown (thank you Australian hadestown for confirming that btw #myhadestowncast). But also. Would that even count as an au? Can you even make an Orpheus and eurydice au of an Orpheus and eurydice au???

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October now meaning it’s finally time for my the spirit bares it’s teeth reread and I’m buying you weren’t meant to be human as soon as it releases (2 weeks left to go) and I actually started a horror anthology that is managing to scare me a little I’m winning at life fr fr