#icarusyaps

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back onto working on my hubger games story (ik crazy shit), looking at some symbolism (how did i manage to do some good accidental symbolism let’s go?) planning some chapters (with the help of my lovely gf cuz i’m shit and knowing when to end somethiiing) and uh. tryna think up some fun stuff! yea! just havin a good time yk definetly not putting anyone through the horrors noooo!

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i DON’T CARE who’s champion of whatever god, i just need the champions of apollo and artemis to be siblings PLEASE.

a pyro and drift team up would also be neat acc

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my gf took my punk jacket cuz she’s cold and GODS SHE LOOKS SO GOOD FUCK. like it isn’t her usual style but holy moly chat. wow.

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life update. cuz. i feel like it!

life has been kinda crazy rn so..i’m just gonna yap abt everything that’s happened from my trip to wales!

SOO i went to wales for a week! the first part was spent in this gorgeous fort with other families whom most of the parents knew eachother through the camp they all worked at together in america! (my parents acc met at this camp!) i made rlly good friends with the american kids and i got snap just to be in a gc with them🥹 we spent the rest of the time with the goonies (we call ourselves this bc we all freakin love that movie, it’s a group of three families and we all tight yk) in my bsf’s nana’s. we went to two beaches and it was fucking ROASTING.

the day we came back i finished both the ballad or songbirds and snakes and heartstopper vol6! so that was definetly not like a cry worthy day.

a couple days later my nana came over from new zealand! it’s always so nice when she comes cuz yk. she’s on the other side of the world!

we went to the beach with friends one of the days, i didn’t rlly wanna go but i got a mocha and it was pretty!

I GOT A NEW FIDDLE AND IT’S GORGEOUS AND HAS A LOVELY SOUND AND UGHHHHHHHH. i love it sm. omd. and it’s like a famcy handmade expensive one🥹 it my bday present so

i also saw the live action moana with my bsf, it was acc so good. then yesterday i saw backrooms at my friends house, and then watcged heartstopper with my mom! backrooms is weird and creepy as FUCK i love it and heartstopper made me sob. so. after heartstopper i also came out so that was rlly nice🥹

today i’m going to northern ireland for a film project. I AM SO EXCITTEEED, one of my friends can no longer do it but my gf can🥹however one of my friends exes took my friend’s place…so…thatms nice. (very messy breakup. btw.)

so yea🥹 havin a great time i get ti soend a week with my gf and makin new friends! and filming i wanna be camera man.

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i just came out to my mom as a trans guy! it was honestly one of the scariest moments of my life, but she’s so supportive and i feel so lucky to have a mom who gets me, and just wants me to be..well me. uhm came out after watching the heartstopper movie btw.

also a lil reminder: there is always someone who will love and support you no matter what. that could be from anyone, a friend, parent, sibling, lover whoever! you are loved. you deserve that love. plz don’t hate yourself about something you can’t control. don’t try to bury who u are. you are beautiful because you are human.

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as soon as everything starts to feel like it’s getting better it gets worse AGAIN! FUCKING AGAIN! WOW YAY LOVE WATCHING MY FRIEND GROUP FALL A PART AT THE SEEMS! LOVE WATCHING THE PEOPLE I LOVE MOST BASICALLY TEAR THEMSELVES APART! LOVE FEELING SO FUCKING DYSPHORIC CONSTANTLY AS SOON AS I FELT A BIT MORE CONFIDENT AGAIN! LOVE NOT BEING ABLE TO DO ANYTHING ABOUT ANY SITUATION I’M WATCHING GO DOWN BECAUSE IT ISN’T MY FUCKING PROBLEM. IT ISN’T MY BATTLE TO FIGHT. FAHHHHH.

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it earlyyyyyy….whyyyyyyyyyyyyy

7:20am ik that’s not horrible but IT’S THE SUMMER I’M GOIN ON HOLIDAYS COME ONNNNN

Not even up this early for school :(

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why can’t i just be a silly pretty boy why must i be TRANSGENDER.