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Venus before and after retrograde 

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 Gotta rep my own stuff (by Nina Mercep)

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notes

Be wary of how you use past tense.

Notice if you are defining events by the past and not expressing the present condition

This is a form of suppression that can be spotted linguistically, and it is the creation of a trigger. when you repeatedly present people and yourself by past events. You are clinging to the preservation of that which binds you, while giving the appearance of being ‘over’ or ‘done! with something. 

Wherein you cannot understand your frustration 

Due to defining your problems as neatly in the past. Overdoing this builds tonal contradictions in your voice as the disjunct between mind and emotion becomes more disharmonious. 

Be wary of how you let others define for you by asking them questions.

Maintain your sacred space with every simple silence that is given.

To continue McKenna’s thought, your world is defined through the language you use, and the meaning, the picture, the essence, you ascribe to the words you use. Isn't all of this a relationship? The beginning of synthesis and dissolution is the beginning of us remembering our ancient dormant energy, 

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I notice when my voice drops and my words get all weighty like swords I'm throwing into a carcass that it's just my voice tuning into plutonic frequency

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Decoding the Order

“Astrology is intellectually unfashionable; that is true. However the decision to avoid critical inquiry into any subject is the result of social conformity behaviour -- not an act of science.”  -Barbara Pijan Lama. 

These are notes that have emerged after months spent submerged in magnetic currents pulling me in to inspect the order and structure of astrology and its social and personal suggestions within itself. This is a summary of my exploration. 

ELEMENTAL ORDER: 

Fire -> Earth -> Air -> Water.  

Spirit (fire), observable sensory physical form (earth), mental/mind structure (air) which contains emotion/water(of which our true understanding is still in development. I would include magic in my understanding, at the suggestion of alchemy)

If this order of elements is the basic description of any process of a living creation on the planet, then it is entirely suggestive. 

FIRE:  Suggests spirit is the primary component for existence. Your fire, your will, your love of life. When you consider love is a very real dimension to existence - taking heed from all great teachers, the idea that the universe itself runs on love - and do not cut yourself off from this realisation with cringing from your anxious subconscious -- you may access more profound ideas than presumed.

 In order for anything to exist in existence that already exists you need to be willing to exist with it. The will, the spark, the spirit, is the will to love what also can exist. Love is the perfect state for harmonious give and take, with hate being total imbalance. Your being is ready to face something other than its own self and come into existence. Because if you are here you had to first want to be. All nature runs on cocreation between elements, with the capacity to receive intertwined  with experience. 

Even if all living breathing organisms fight each other there is still an inbuilt understanding of elemental unification/reality that provides gut instincts as simple as correlating dark grey crowds with the incoming physical sensation of rain. If you have already loosened your definition of time to fit natural cycles as astrology and astronomy suggest, then the end and the beginning share a significant point.  And that is the embrace of another through a meeting of heart, mind, feeling, sensory experience. The act which is what led to you coming into reality in the first place. The death of singularity through the decision to unify. You were always going to exist as your parents were to fall in love, for one night or a million, it didn't matter, you were going to be born, as everyone else has as well. 

EARTH: Then, you manifest a body that suits your will. We understand will and purpose in an abstract long winded way, as we have thinking and vocalising minds. With plants and animals that have been here for far longer, this ‘will’ had to manifest on simpler levels, foundational levels. 

If the body is a technology, a vehicle, for will itself (fire being primary) then all physical sensations are really guidance on a map. Your body is a doctor, a continually caring system that adjusts and does itself best to support your will, even if that means suppressing memories to help you cope so you can achieve what you want.  If you want focus on any particular thing and pursue it then it becomes illuminated for you through memory, eyesight, sounds, alliances and friendships, events.. Your body is in many ways the shadow of your will. Which often becomes locked in attachments, playing out in habits that sculpt your physical self. The body simply reflects wherever your arrow is pointed, whether that be junk food and obesity or the mountains and a yoga body. But how does the body understand itself so well? That leads us to.. 

AIR: in order for all the many materials and parts to fit inside your body they must each have their own space to express their individual function and contributions to the whole body. Space can also be see as the material of mind. Each space between dense form defines it through its own space/understanding of how all parts work together. Air/mind, in a single breath, connects the inner world  and the outer world, and so language itself is merely a technology for meaning to be expressed. 

The mind is the motorway roads or the drainpipes for blood to run through and around your entire body. Certain thought patterns trigger different emotions or memories.  A healthy mind and body always has continuously circulating, warm blood that is felt from the top of the head to the tips of the toes. 

WATER: Blood, emotion, liquid. The diverse experience of water and the immense subtlety of felt emotion is incredibly vast like the ocean itself. When you can understand how much of the human body is filled with blood, and equate it with emotion, it's not hard to understand that we are incredibly sensitive and complex beings. If spirit and love and fire all link then our warm blooded mammalian bodies are designed with ‘'loving purpose.’ memory has an integral part of the stucture of feeling. Emotions often appear as intensely directed desires or fears in tight mental cycles running on predestined fates or outcomes/memories that add weight to our current situation until released through expression. 

ZODIACAL ORDER 

1. ARIES - Know thyself. This is what must be firstly known in terms of natural, harmonious order. Not last, but first, and yet we are often deep in crisis before we get to this one. The light of your true identity, the spirit that cackles deep in you, is a light that illuminates others who reflect, not consume, light back at you with their own. Those other people illuminated by the light of your own self are signified by LIBRA. 

Libra connects your light to others who share in it. Again, the harmony and peace we crave with others is not possible unless ARIES is embraced first. Taking care of your own needs as to who you uniquely are is maintaining an essential independence from others while being able to enjoy the benefits of relationships. This eliminates the subconscious switch to manipulation, which distorts/destroys balance and the progress and realisation of desires deeper than immediate, shallow ones. 

2. TAURUS describes what ought to manifest and sustain you. This must be totally informed by SCORPIO, which reveals that which still stands inside you after chaotic eruptions caused by conscious contact with emotional challenges. Whatever you still care to maintain after you have experienced loss describes your values - the values which may have created the chaos in the first place.

 And so you must change and transform your values based on your failures and mistakes. This is a task extended to each of us - and a reminder that there is a real purpose to every failure you have when planting new seeds. The more you keep your desires in the dark and unconscious, the harder it is for you to manifest.

Scorpio describes the deep unresolved trauma that threatens to corrupt your current self unless relieved, released, resolved, understood. An alignment between your identity/Aries and others/Libra can only be maintained by social and personal values expressed.  These values that are created and nurtured must effectively keep emotional challenges as simply challenges and not demons. This is why it is insufficient morally to describe Taurus as simply materially-driven. Food must be surrounded by family and emotionally fulfilling patterns or ritual. As should be the care of the body, instead of it being harnessed for only sexual validation and/or monetary/power gains through sexual manipulation. 

3. All questions your mind chatters - GEMINI can be answered by your own spirit’s knowledge or arrow  - SAGITTARIUS. It should be noted that the arrow points only to the truth but cannot emotionally ingest it. Perhaps this is why humanity-based questions cannot be answered through wholly emotional or historical/information dense reiteration. The questioner will not be satisfied. Because neither the pure repetition (earth) nor the over abundance of emotions (water) is enough in the birth of meaningful action (fire) that answers the notions or questions (air). When you understand that great ideas inspire great action it makes sense that air feeds fire and vice versa, then you can see why being optimistic is practical and conducive to productivity and creativity. Pre existing stucture halts the imagination and emotions overwhelm. The key is embodying your wisdom instead of complaining, screaming or shouting it or proving it through status. 

4. CANCER - When you love your family, know your roots, care for your home -- then you will always be climbing up the right mountains - CAPRICORN  - and come home with great stories to tell. The purity that comes with love for children, animals, nature, adventure, creation is the fuel that determines the legacy of work CAPRICORN will leave on the Earth. Looking around it should be quite self evident that a deep poisoning of this well of water has been occurring for a long time. 

When you divide gender and therefore project half of your soul’s responsibilties onto the other gender - there is a deep stunting process that results in unconscious immaturity. By delegating CANCER energy to only women and CAPRICORN to only men there is a failure to integrate both polarities into a single human as one comprehensive system. Every human can truly both nurture and work hard in and outside of home. If you do not have respect for your home, family, children, animals then it is highly likely you will seek that deep nourishment through your work life which may result in disaster. Through the denial and suppression of family issues and a dependence on validating your work identity, chaos can arise through intimate encounters gone too far, deeper drive for material gain to reconstruct a home you gave up on, and so on. It always seems to be a desperate overreaching to compensate for what you lack at home, and results in being publically judged against social values. It is at home that it is best for that kind of discussion to take place, with family. 

5. The more you creatively express your identity - LEO - who you truly are, with your friends and family and enjoy yourself, the more ready you are to connect with the whole world and reach many different people - AQUARIUS. In order to navigate all the different realms and cultures and people with self respect requires a healthy open heart signified by Leo’s earlier point in the zodiac. An embracing of your own world of friends must take place before taking on the greater humanity with the respect required to succeed. Creativity is a multidimensional toolkit for humourously and cleverly connecting with others, and the more you nourish your creative expression, the more you will feel a sense of belonging wherever you are and not so isolated. 

6. And finally VIRGO and PISCES. If you truly and seriously take care of each detail of reality, especially in regards to your body’s health and the environment in which you nourish yourself in (earth)... then the more you may enjoy the divine and surreal dimension of reality without fear. 

 We all have a connection to the weird and strange part of life but this has become largely negative, disturbing and terrifying to a huge amount of people due to stress invading and infecting this space. This is perfectly encapsulated in anxiety surrounding psychedelics as your soul will know if you aren't working to clean and nurture your body and lifestyle properly and quickly panic when it spots an opportunity for your subconscious’ contents to emerge.  

VIRGO relates to the facts that describe the very real or tangible reality.  VIRGO informs you of your own reality through demonstrable facts of how well you are really doing in regards to your will/identity and all of its values and understanding. Through facing the facts of your own matters you recognise which attachments/delusions (PISCES) must dissolve in order for you to realign and reintegrate yourself properly, resulting in a better relationship with dreams and anything relating to your own subconscious and altered states. 

The stress and anxiety brought on in altered states relates a lot to the details of your waking reality - such as an unhealthy diet, unclean room, unpaid bills and debts, harmful ideological media content, lack of exercise or release of energy, toxins, etc that infect your imagination and pose chemical-mental limits that present themselves in warnings and threats, halting you from enjoying the vast beautiful boundariless world of imagination and feeling.

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How Does This Sign Regard Me?

How each sign may feel about you - is indicated by the voice and its corresponding tonal attitude you internally use to communicate with that part of your own psyche. This, essentially, is the 'as above so below' principle in social action - once an individual is recognised, wherever that recognition comes from in that moment highlights what kind of relationship is there within yourself already. This is why rigidly using linear time is useless when it comes to social problem solving. We got work to do. With each other. By avoiding uncomfortable social interactions you do yourself a great disservice by not letting yourself recognise what kind of pain or discomfort is occurring in you and, inherently, the answer to unravelling the script that has chained the both of you to suffering each other.  

The irony is that the status quo is maintained by social characters like myself (libra sun and Mercury) who, through doubt, resist or prolong the notion that emotional sincerity is a necessity for enjoyable and productive conversation. another way of illustrating that is there needs to be a riverbed connecting your real experience with your words in the moment itself and not retrospectively.

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You definitely asked for a challenge with those posts and I wasn't about to scroll past it haha. I'm not phased by your Venus in Aquarius at all. Time is no issue. But yeah that's a fairly awkward set up lol. Have no shame! At least you're open to discussion! Have a great day and night!!

Oh, no, I know, I definitely asked for any question to come my way! Haha! Aww, you sound sweet. c: And again, that was my doing. Telling friends about my Tumblr blog was my doing. XD And thank you so much!! You too! :D

^ That is literally just a mess of replies, oops.

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Have you ever had sex with a Venus in Scorpio? Have you attempted to wean yourself off pornography and observe how it transforms your perception of sex? Have you ever smoked DMT? Have you ever contemplated that you choose all your placements before you were born, and if so, do you know why/what purpose? Would you kiss me? Refer to my blog for the selfie :P and - have I made you uncomfortable at all?

Have you ever had sex with a Venus in Scorpio? No.

Have you attempted to wean yourself off pornography and observe how it transforms your perception of sex? No.

Have you ever smoked DMT? No.

Have you ever contemplated that you choose all your placements before you were born, and if so, do you know why/what purpose? No, but that’s an interesting thought!! :)

Would you kiss me? Refer to my blog for the selfie :P I honestly wouldn’t kiss anyone unless I knew them really well and I got to the point where I admitted to myself that I liked that person. And with my Aquarius Venus, that could take 9589743859743 years. xD

and - have I made you uncomfortable at all? Well, I mean, a little to be honest since some of my friends from school know about this blog and follow this blog but that was my fault for one and second, I’d be much more uncomfortable if my answers were different!

Thank you so much for sending in questions!! :)

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