YEAH, ITS BEEN A MINUTE, AND THE MURIAD OF THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS THAT SWIRL AROUND EVERY TIME YOU COME TO MIND- I REMEMBER THE GOOD, AND I REMEMBER THE HORRIBLE- THE MOST RECENT BETRAYALS- LIES AND TWISTED MANIPULATIONS- HER, I CANT GET HER STUPID BITCH FACE OUT OF MY HEAD - HOW, WHY? HER OVER US? WHAT THE FUCK? I WENT AND PUT UR SHIT IN YOUR CAR- I SAW THE CHICKS HOODIE- THE THINGS I FANTASIZE DOING TO HER- ARE NOT SANE OR LEAGLE- YOU ARE SO UTTERLY TOXIC FOR ME - - I MISS U - BUT REMIND MYSELF I NEED TO HATE YOU - THE ABSOLUTE TORMENT- MOST THE TIME IM VERY CONTENT WITH MYLIFE- BECAUSE IT IS INFACT JUST THAT - ((MINE)) U CANT MAKE ME FEEL GUILTY ANYMORE - THAT BULLSHIT U USED TO HANG OVER MY HEAD - “ U WOULDN'T HAVE THIS CUSHY LIL LIFE IF IT WERNT FOR ME” - WELL - I WALKED AWAY FROM IT ALL- RIPPED THE KIDS OUT OF THEIR SCHOOLS, AWAY FROM THEIR FRIENDS, PUT OUR LIFE IN STORAGE- ALL TO LIVE WITH 4 KIDS IN A LITTLE 800 SQ FT. APARTMENT- SO FUCK YOU -- BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY ........ ITS OURS....... AND I WORK WHAT I HAVE TO TO MAKE IT POSSIBLE - WITH ABSOLUTELY NO HELP FROM YOU- YET STILL YOU PLAGUE MY THOUGHTS DAY AND NIGHT - YOUR CONFUSING MESSAGES, SAYING YOU MISS ME AND CANT WAIT TO SEE ME - SAYING WE SHOULD GET MARRIED- BUT YOU ARE GONE WHEN I GET HOME AND YOUR MOMMY HAS PUT HER 48 YEAR OLD SON IN A MOTEL FOR A MONTH AND PUT IT ON HER CREDIT CARD- AFTER BAILING YOUR STUPID ASS OUT OF JAIL WHERE YOU SHOULD HAVE STAYED - BECAUSE YOU ARENT DOING ANYTHING DIFFERENTLY - YOUR SHITTY LITTLE MOTEL ROOM COST MORE A MONTH THAN MY 2 BEDROOM 2 BATH APARTMENT - I HAVE 4 KIDS STILL AT HOME AND BUST ASS WORKING TO PAY FOR IT - BUT AT 48 YOU ARE STILL PARTYING AWAY WITH THAT WHORE - YEAH THATS HOW I FEEL ABOUT HER - AFTER ALL IT WAS YOUR WORDS THAT BURNT THAT FIRST IMPRESSION INTO MY MIND _ WHAT WAS IT U SAID?- “ SHE JUST SUCKED MY DICK - ITS NOT LIKE I HAVE TO CARE ABOUT SOMEONE TO LET THEM DO THAT” YOUR WORDS - SOUNDS LIKE A HOE TO ME- I DONT GO AROUND PUTTING RANDOM DICKS IN MY MOUTH - OR ANYWHERE ELSE FOR THAT FACT - BUT THATS BESIDES THE POINT - ITS BEEN A YEAR SINCE I STARTED THIS PAGE - EXTERNALLY EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED- NEW JOB(S) NEW PLACE TO LIVE, OLD CAR- NEW ONE WAS TOTALED, CREDIT HAS GONE TO SHIT, BUT THATS OK- BECAUSE THIS PHOENIX WILL RISE AGAIN- I HAVE GROWN A LITTLE THIS PAST YEAR - NOT AS MUCH AS ID LIKE - BUT SOME PAINFUL GROWTH NONETHELESS - MY CIRCLE HAS GOTTEN SMALLER - I HAVE PULLED AWAY FROM SOME OF THE THINGS I WAS ONCE INVOLVED IN , AND HAVE GOTTEN INVOLVED IN SOME NEW ONES - NEW ADVENTURES, NEW PATHS, NEW PEOPLE, NEW BIGGER BETTER GOALS - BECAUSE I DONT HAVE DEAD WEIGHT PULLING ME DOWN - SHADOWS OF MOMENTS DANCE IN THE CORNERS OF MY MIND - I MOURN THAT PERSON, AND THOSE TIMES- BUT IM GLAD I HAD THEM - SOME NEVER DO - WHY COULDN'T YOU GROW UP? ULL BE 48 IN A COUPLE WEEKS, AND OUR 7 YEAR OLD MAKES BETTER CHOICES THAN YOU -
