2 moods, one is permanent....guess which one 😅 Been feeling that anxiety and depression and overall stressed that I've been too worried/nervous/scared to post anything. I feel all I'm doing is making mistakes one right after the other, getting mad/frustrated at others who don't need that. I always wonder if I'm too much for my friends but are too worried to break things off or I'm just thinking too much. My job is great but I'm not working at all this week and I already don't work that long of shifts either (4 hours 3 or 4 days a week) which isnt going to help with the rent 😔 I try relationships but my anxiety and depression just get in the way. I look at these photos of myself and go wow I've changed physically and mentally. I look better, way better than I did back in school but I'm a bitch, a cunt, an asshole, a complainer, a dick, a prick, a twat, an idiot. And what else I have found is I'm literally bad luck. I get bed luck on the daily more often that ever. Anyone I'm near suddenly gets bad luck, their day gets ruined, something goes wrong. I am incredibly bad luck. I'm already a superstitious person so I'm literally saying I'm bad luck, a black cat of some sorts. I don't even know where the fuck I'm going with this. I'm an idiot full of bad luck and I don't even know why people want to be friends with me. #imabitch #imacunt #imanasshole #imanass #icomplain #imatwat #imadick #imanidiot #imbadluck #literallyablackcat #nogood #imnogood (at Edmonton, Alberta) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bovsjdmn75V/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=l6ooijm4asbw
