I don’t feel like a person anymore. Just running through the motions. Sleep. Work. Come home. Play video games with people that I doubt would notice if I disappeared.
I’m tired of socializing. All my friends moved away. Feels like post high school again. Going though the motions.
I’m not bad, but I’m not good either. Just like everyone else. People don’t want me either way. Kinda annoying how once I relax around someone they fuck off. Still not sure if it’s me or them anymore. Maybe both. I don’t feel like I can be myself around anyone anymore. That hurts. It sucks.
I’m starting to forget who I am. Who I was. Who I’m supposed to be. I’m not sure it even matters anymore? Does anyone care about truly knowing someone anymore? Does anyone give a shit about genuine existence?











