#idontknowhattodo

[reallove-truelove]

What do you do when the person you want close to your heart is not here? What do you do, when you want to be with them and they are somewhere else or with someone else? What do you do when your heart feels like its in knots?

Wanting him.. DA 

[unaccomplisheddreamer]

Here I am - for one last time in the bed that we used to share. I snuggle in the blankets and your scent is the best way to fall asleep. I don't even feel like crying anymore, I cried so much already. I'm thinking - maybe what I feel right now is just plain deep sadness. I miss you so much. Things were not supposed to turn out this way...

Your cuddlebear

[cherrydivine17]

When you have no one to text and your in public so you start randomly calling people and laughing at yourself because your life's a joke

[ruzianne-blog]

me: i want to wear something different today.

me: …

also me: *wears all black*

another me: that’s the same thing you wore yesterday goddammit.

me: .. oh

me: *sleeps*

[fromveryfattoflat-blog]

She left me

I don’t really have another outlet so Tumblr will be my victim. 

After 6 years of being with my girlfriend she broke up with me last Sunday. Stuff had been a little rough for a week or two. She just woke up one day and her attitude had completely changed towards me. She was so loving and affectionate 12 hours before hand and then the morning came around and she wouldn't touch me. There is obviously more to the story as we were both trying to evolve as a couple but it wasn't anything so serious. She basically treated me like shit for two weeks as i tried to get her to be affectionate towards me. I asked her what she needed from me, romantic dinner, helped around the house but nothing. It all just ended with the notion of her saying ‘I am just no longer interested...not invested’ This tore my heart out. I haven't doubted who would be by my side in the years to come as i grew professionally and personally. Hadn’t doubted who would be my bride and the mother of my children. Things that were concrete in my future ripped out from me so suddenly. The woman i love just stopped loving and adoring me. I just don’t know what to do now. Obviously im going to work on myself and yarda yarda yard but jesus christ. It was so sudden, so random. She even said i did nothing wrong. I just wish she was sad. She doesn't care and urgh. So many other things which are annoying me but i shouldn't spread. Even anonymously on the internet. RAWR URGH FML.

End of the day. I love her and as much as it sucks that shouldn’t be contingent on her loving me back or wanting to be with me. Its so hard to convince myself but i know that I shouldn’t want to or be with someone who doesn’t want to be with me either. 

My god it hurts.

[lemonberrybee]

I think, feel, act, and look like shit. I'm very proud of how much I suck, it literally took nothing for it to happen

[aadrianp-blog]

I don't want to leave. I really don't want to go. But leave me alone.

[nostalgicmezzo]

I saw Newsies last night and all the people in line were in theater school or working for a theater or something. It's so weird cause when I lived in Denver I remember wanting to go to the art school and then in Florida there was no theater stuff so I was in chorus and tv production. And when I came to CT I went to a Staples Players show and wanted to be in Players but I didn't get into any show, so I joined tech and JSA. I don't want to be a senior. I feel like I didn't accomplish what I wanted to in high school. And now i'm applying to schools and my dad wants me to apply somewhere really good, but none of the schools have really good music programs because I like learning but the only thing I have always done my whole life and would want to do is sing. I think the reason I sing all the time is because I want to be noticed, but I don't want to face rejection from auditions and such. Then there's the fact that I really enjoy musical theater and know a lot about it, but I'm not an actor in players, so I don't spend much time with those people even though I want to. And I have not gotten into Orphenians after auditioning 3 times, but i'm one of the only people in my choir class who cares about choir and not just players.