#if you read this...

[2xlee]

Breath of the Wild: Sport Anime AU

[nubletthef2p]

More SFM with Shantae.

Despite never playing a single Shantae game (but plan on buying it), I find the Shantae model incredibly fun to use due to how well it was rigged.

16 likes and 3 reblogs... you naughty few...

[yung-m00nchild]

I want to be someone’s calm from their storm. I want to be your rock that holds you down. I want to be your best friend. I want to be there for you but I need you to be honest with yourself.

[frogl3gs]

because i feel like oversharing. also this is really really really really long lol.

This is about my job so fair warning. Probably going to come across as entitled and whiny. Idgaf. 

I work for a professional sports team. I do Marketing. Okay, so. I was hired straight out of school, and-thank you god-because I had no fucking clue how hard it would be to find a job where I live. I was hired from the inside. Started as an intern, became part-time, then full-time. So, essentially, I started fall 2013. 3.33 years. I’m now Marketing Manager because I have busted my ass to get here. I am not even 25 yet. 

Second half of my 23rd year was not great, overall. I was mightily depressed. I felt I had been sucked into a job that I didn’t love and therefore it didn’t love me back. First half of 24 was much the same. I ran through a course of therapy that had “a beginning” and “an end.” As in I was taught a bunch of techniques to retrain how my brain processes information and how to stop reacting as much. CBT. This was a hard and emotionally draining process but it felt good because I thought I was making progress. And I do believe I did. I’m one of those people who will never be “fixed” but has to learn how to live and function with my asshole brain. 

Anyway, first half of 24. Portland, Marfa, Big Bend, Scottsdale, Pittsburgh, Portland again. Trying new things, visiting new places, having good times, making new friends. I had my one on one review with my old supervisor, July-ish. Performance evaluation. “It felt like you were pulling back so I stopped giving you responsibilities.” It sort of stung when she said that because 1. she wasn’t wrong but 2. she wasn’t right either. 

I asked for so many responsibilities. I was so eager. I wanted to do so much. I wanted to learn. I especially wanted to learn from her. She’s currently studying gender discrepancies in the professional world of sports and is pursuing her PhD in this area. Pretty cool, huh? 

Understand this. I don’t think she did it intentionally or purposefully. I don’t think she did this consciously, not with an ounce of my being. But. The fact remains that all I was allowed to do, for nearly 9 months, was make a daily post to social media. I had no agency, I had no outlet, I was allowed no creativity. This was it. It was all I was allowed to do. 

She would be swamped. She would complain. She would work from 7 a.m. to 7 p.m. and come up to the office on Sundays. I couldn’t stand it. I’d ask everyday for more work to do. Instead of giving me actual work, she’d tell me to research what other teams were doing on social media. It was terrible. There was only so much I could take in. At one point, I had seen every single Tasty video at least twice. I had favorite Tasty videos...can you imagine?

I came up with social media campaigns to run. I’d map them out. I drew color coded diagrams that lined up with our content calendar. I was that bored. I got turned down every. single. time. Every idea I had was turned down without explanation as to why it wouldn’t work. Unless my idea was co-opted and pitched and then implemented without my knowledge. Because that did happen on at least two occasions. 

By mid-February, I had stopped asking. “What else can I do?” turned into “I’ve completed that which you have asked.” I did stop seeking extra responsibilities. I was tired of being rejected. I was tired of being turned down. Nothing came of it. I was unsure of why they hired me. I was desperately applying to jobs all over the place. No one wanted me. I went through several rounds of interviews only to never hear from some places again. 

Then in August, my supervisor left to pursue her PhD. Our department had just had a new VP appointed who had zero marketing experience. This move was all obviously and pathetically political, as you can probably infer from the bolded.

What happened at this point was that the new VP took on *most* of the media buying. I was given the social advertising because who knew our social demographic better than me at that point (eye roll). I also took on everything our marketing director did on a daily basis because our VP was also the VP of a different department. That department did have a director at the time (unlike ours) but that director can’t be arsed to do anything other than throw fits when he is asked to do something. 

So August, September, October...October 21st. The day we hire a new Marketing Director. At this point I have put on 4 games plus training camp completely by myself. Executed all of our collateral mostly without the help of our VP. She couldn’t be “reached” at the time of several deadlines to give a last once over of our materials before going to print (she has since told me that she selected the wrong seating chart to be put in the program; I had no response). 

I had the Director of Broadcast and Media Relations reporting to me. I had the Director of Video and Creative Services reporting to me. I had our Graphic Design Manager reporting to me. My title was still Marketing Coordinator. I asked for my promotion two weeks before we hired our Marketing Director.  

It is now December 5th. I have been a Manager for 3 business days. Our Marketing Director has been on staff for 1.5 months now. What are his duties? To be quite fucking honest, I have no clue what the fuck does all day. When he started, he took the advertising off of the VP’s plate. Nothing has been taken off my plate. Nothing. In fact, they’ve only been giving me more random tasks. 

Our department is in free-fall. No one is sure who they report to. Things have been slipping through the cracks because he checks absolutely nothing and I cannot physically do more than I am doing. Then they pull me into an office, the director and the VP, and ask me to “make sure I’m working while I’m at work.” They were concerned about my overtime. I have been getting overtime since my old supervisor left. Because no one has thrown me a fucking bone. 

I could be successful in this career. I’ve become a manager in less than four years. But I hate this fucking industry. “We know we can take advantage of you because there are a thousand people dying to be in your position. You know it and I know it. That’s why everyone stays when they’re unhappy.” Someone I work with, who has been in this industry for 15 years said that to me a week ago when I went to ask for some advice. 

This shit isn’t worth stressing myself out over anymore. I’ve never cared for this industry. I’ve convinced myself over the past few months that I liked my job but really, I was just distracted which is just so different from what I was used to. Going from making one social post a day to having so much to do that I couldn’t complete it in a full week. I haven’t watched a Tasty video in months. 

Now I’m burnt out. And I’m pissed. This is not the life I want to live. I haven’t texted friends back. I’ve missed out on life things. I keep sacrificing my social life for other things that aren’t fucking worth it. This job doesn’t care about me. I’m not getting back what I put in. Not even fucking close. And do you guys want to know the biggest joke of all? I’m only making 30k. Tell me that isn’t hilarious. 

[bpdreemurr-blog]

I really want to hug my best friend right now

[umkayla]

fuck you.

i refuse to wait for you like this.

these mixed signals are ruling my damn life right now, and it's not healthy, and you can't even take the time to acknowledge me.

all i want is your fucking happiness, and you know what? i hope you find it, but, maybe if you had taken the time, you could have found it in me.

you were right.

you are great at making people not like you.

but not with me.

i still like you. i like you and it physically hurts me that you don't seem to care.

[bearcat-screms]

Wondtrade, GTS and this whole internet thing in pokemon xy IS PURE AWESOMNESS!!!

I used it yesterday and today for the first time (and won't be able to use it anymore now sadly cause we have No acces to WiFi at home)

But shit!  Awesome! Just now i traded with a guy (TradeAllStarters. I forgot where exactly he came from) So i was using wondertrade to give away my panflam (german name from fire starter from diamond/ perl. Got it from someone via trade as well) that i was breeding and got a pichu. Immediately after that he wanted to trade again And i got almost all starters from him !!!

Thank you soo much!!! (And just in time too. We were just leaving my relatives place where they had WiFi)

So yeah.really happy right now

And the fact that you can just challenge someone to a fight is so cool. I lost a few times but thats why its fun! Human trainers are much more fun because they are actually using their brains