I hate how my life is going on right now.
I hate everything, I hate why I was born like this
I feel like I don't belong in here or anywhere in this world, I felt crap!
When the only person whom you expect the most to support you are the one's bringing you down, hurting you deep with only words, that the only thing you wanted to do the most are slowly fading through time. The feeling of unwantedness. All my dreams are not only for myself, I never once thought about for myself only but all for your sake! I never once felt supported but by my friends only that may come and go. I never once received the advice that I wanted the most. I never once experienced the life I wanted the most. Never in my life I complained, never in my life I blamed someone for being like this. I hate how I developed into someone like this emotional and fucked up. Why did I ever grow up? I hate everything. I'm afraid that something like this would come out someday and what I'm afraid the most is for me getting tired of everything and do something that shouldn't be done and happen. I'm afraid of nowhere, but I guess it's the only solution to rest and not to think about anything else. I want my brain to stop thinking, I would like my heart to stop beating for days. I want everything to stop and go unrecognized by me. Please stop making me think and feel like shit already... I'm sick of it, really.