#ihhbwm

[dearrdolliiee]

☕️🦢🥀🌙

Heyy!! My names Louisa, (Louise for short) this is my first time posting on Tumblr and I’m so excited to be here!

To be honest I don’t use this app a lot and I’m still kind of getting the hang of it. I’ll probably just use this platform to talk and hopefully discuss about books, movies, and tv shows

I’m not quite sure how I’m gonna do things here yet, but you’re welcome to stay and follow ꨄ

About me :

MBTI: infj

Favorite color: pink or cherry red depending on my mood (it’s usually pink) 🎀

My favorite seasons are fall and winter, spring is nice when it’s breezy and it’s early in the morning. I HATE summer.

Fav tv shows: I’m trying to get into watching more movies and tv shows but so far my favorite shows are Satc, Gilmore girls, and Gossip girl (currently watching gossip girl and Ugly Betty. If u have any recs lemme know)

Fav movies: Enola Holmes, 13 going on 30, Barbie, Uptown Girls, Corpse Bride, How to lose a guy in 10 days (not in order)

Fav book/s: If he had been with me/if only I had told her

Books I’ve read: Hunger games (I’m on the third book rn) AGGGTM, IHHBWM/IOIHTH, Shatter me+beginning of unravel me, Inheritance games trio, Red Queen (stopped on the fourth book), Girl in pieces, We were Liars/Family of Liars (There’s def a few more but these are off the top of my head)

-I like watching anime (when I can), my favorite few are The Apothecary Diaries, Nana, Paradise Kiss, Princess jellyfish, Saiki K, Spy x family, OHSHC

Fav music artists: Lana Del Rey, Sabrina Carpenter, Laufey, Fiona Apple, Solya, Phoebe Bridgers, Cigarettes after sex, Esha Tewari

დ thats pretty much all 4 now ♡

(I will def be editing this every so often)

[cyypress]

gonna spend the rest of my life thinking about finny smith.

[readingwiththestars]

₊˚⊹♡ IF ONLY I HAD TOLD HER

["whatever our souls are made of hers and mine are the same"]

| ✮ 3.5 stars |

THOUGHTS ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° . [spoilers for ihhbwm + some spoliers for ioihth]

ok so lemme tell you i had the BIGGEST reading slump ever just as i started to read this. so this review may be a little choppy at some points because i've just pointblank forgotten some parts and don't wanna go back and re-read finny's pov just yet.

i was so on the fence about reading this because on one hand i really wanted to read finny's pov and on the other, complete and utter heartbreak.... yeah....... so anyway i read it.

when i tell you that this book had me ugly crying in the middle of the night. like seriously finny's pov?? fucking broke me. are you kidding me? the way he speaks about autumn? ugh when am i gonna find a guy like finny fr? but seriously this book had me on a rollercoaster of emotions just from the heartbreak knowing whats already gonna happen to finny as he describes how happy he is and how he can't believe autumn loves him back, to the smile i had on my face reading about 'the moms' bickering over baby stuff for autumn.

i will say this now i did expect a little more (hence the rating). i wanted idk more closure at the end there. idk rlly know how to describe it better since its 10 o'clock at night and ive had zero sleep for the past four nights in a row. but yeah i wanted something more. (bitch u wanted finny to be alive)

CHARACTERS ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .

finny -

*sobbing noises* i could go on a damn rant abt this boy. holy shit. he's just perfect. if i see one person ONE PERSON coming after him istg- he was such a caring sweet person like the pencil??? and always going to the sketchy gas station (i nearly called it a servo then lmao) to get the candy autumn likes?? and always making sure people were safe when he drives?? *cough* apparently not you though sylvie *cough* just ahhh laura when i get you. cause like why'd you have to make him get out of the car, hmmm? lets just compromise and you give me an alternate universe where finny misses the puddle or better yet where sylvie kept her damn seatbelt on.

jack -

tbh i wasn't all that excited to read about jack. (also to be fair i was still sobbing from finny's pov so that probably didn't help) like i seriously just thought it'd be some jock trying to process finny's death by hooking up with alexis (who by the way can go jump up her own ass and die) but we got the whole other side of him where he was genuinely affected by finny's death and really was his best friend. but the way he didn't like autumn way just- yeah. also i saw him and sylvie coming from a mile away like seriously it wasn't very subtle.

autumn -

*sobbing noises increase* autumn my baby girl. i just wanted to jump through the pages and give her a hug. seriously i feel robbed that we didn't get to see a happy autumn. angie and her's friend ship was so precious tho. and i love love LOVE that they bonded over being moms/soon-to-be-moms. im also just gonna say the way we didn't see an ounce of jamie or sasha this entire book made me so happy! i also lowkey wanted to see more of when she was an actual mom? like what would she name the baby? i wanted to see domestic autumn a little more. but i still love her so much and it was so lovely to see her heal <3

QUOTES ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° . [spoilers]

"my love for her is the closest thing i have to religion. but it's okay that she doesn't feel the same. i'm fine. i can handle it" - finny

"my devotion to autumn is engraved on my very being. i am in awe of her. i will sit in the stands and cheer her on in life as her most ardent admirer. i know i'll always love her in the same way i know i'll always need oxygen" - finny

"it's all done. finn's story is over. his whole life. that was it. not even nineteen years, and he'll never, ever do anything else ever again. finn won't go off to college or celebrate his birthday. he won't get another hair cut or get the oiled changed in his car. he won't bite a hangnail on his thumb or buy another CD. finn smith has done everything he will ever do. he won't get to be with autumn." - jack

“this baby isn't what's left over from our love story. this baby is our story's continuation.” - autumn

"if only i'd told her that i loved her years ago, i wouldn't be here now." - finny

all in all laura you can pay for my therapy mkay?

[lillyofthebells]

yes i want him but more than that i miss my friend

[your-mommy-ems]

my heart

[wordslikepoisonn]

i’m starting if he had been with me because apparently it’s pretty sad but that’s ok, i like sad stuff and it’ll be fine :)

[poster-girl-lover]

| if he had been with me by laura nowlin

[lovegumi]

i ❤️ finny