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I hope she reads this.

I hope you know what you've done. I hope you realise that we lost what we had, because of you. What we had, is broken, because you didn't see the worth in me to take a risk for once in your life. Yes, I made mistakes, but I amended them, I tried. I took the risk, and I got burned. But at least I took it. I hope you realise I do blame you. And I hope one day you will take a risk, not with me but with another. Because the joy that someone else can bring you far outweighs any risk of heart break. I do forgive you, for all the pain you've caused. But you caused that much joy that if we could go back in time, I'd do it all again anyway. I hope you read this, and one perhaps you'll see what you missed.

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I miss my Unhalloweddd love💔

I miss her beautiful face, and her cute little smile, I miss listening to her laugh, i miss her adorable but obnoxious hiccups, I miss your smart ass remarks and your hatred for other people, I miss making fun of things and people with her,I miss going to get food and having cute dates with her, I miss hearing a cute little innocent voice blurt out " skeddie!" When I walk in the door, i miss sleeping with her hair all up in my face, I miss her cute little snore, I miss her sleep talking, I miss her snugs at night, I miss binge watching tv shows and movies cuddling all day together, I miss having to pick up after her, her room, her vehicle, I miss helping with her vehicle, I miss her sass and her extreme attitude, I miss her bad jokes, and her good jokes, I miss her comfort, I miss her touch, I miss all the positive thoughts, I miss the good times and I miss the bad, I miss how we could get through anything together, I miss her texts all day, I miss her blowing up my phone, I miss her hyper moments, I miss her hugs, I miss her kisses, I miss everything she did for me, even tho I took it for granted, i miss how she took care of me when I was sick, I miss how hard she went out of her way to make me smile and happy, and most of all, I miss the warm, happy, complete feeling she gave me, I miss how she made my heart beat and gave it energy, life, and health, I miss how she was the only one able to calm me down when I went off the rails, I miss the way she made me feel like the greatest human being in this living world, I miss how strong and how special she made me feel, I miss everything about her, she is my definition of perfect, and I wish I didn't give her hell..... If I could go back and treat her better, I know she would feel so well, the worst part about this feeling is she never will understand how sorry I am for being such an asshole and acting like I never cared, I wish she would hear me out, something would click and she would come back to me. time will tell she said as my heart began to crumble, but time erodes feelings, splits the cuts deeper and adds salt to All wounds, the best way to fix it, sow it up and try to let it heal... given the chance to make her smile I could mend her away from this hell.. I have said so many positive things, none of which make up for the negitivity I cast on her soul, but I love her so very much and I would and could do anything to make her proud, I've change my self I'm not a monster and I'll save you from this hell, I'll bring you back and make things right, just show me the chance to guide you to the light, my love would make this all very right I love you Olivia Matina Racca, my unhalloweddd soul mate, I loved you then and I'll love you now, I'll love you till the end of time, your on my mind every second of time and I hope this rant breaks the spell, tears down this wall you built to keep your feelings in and me out, and let's me bring you home again... I saved you once you saved me twice, let me even that score, I'll be what you want, that knight in shining armor.. we'll be happily ever after till the end of time IM SORRY I LOVE YOU PLEASE COME BACK TO ME ❤️ sorry for this rant/poem/paragraph

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It starts with a kiss.

I don't know why I keep letting people get the best of me but it's turning out to be way more exhausting then I ever believed it to be. I always heard people say that I am way too nice of a guy and that others take advantage of that but it never dawned on me till now how far that can emotionally affect someone. During my first year at college I found out that I let my emotions get the better of be and put me into a depression that I simply cannot climb out of. I have a problem of putting too much faith in people, the wrong people and simply pushing the good people too the side. The story goes that I met this girl in early December on a cold night. I was laying in bed and got a Facebook message from her, for the longest time I wanted to talk to her but had no idea what to say. We started talking and she convinced me to come outside to met her, I like to think of this as one of the best worst nights of my life. It was 2am and I had class in 3 hours but it didn't matter I wanted to talk to this girl. We sat and talked for hours, honestly about nothing just whatever crossed our minds happen to form words and become vocal. Around 4 o'clock I looked to the chilling winter sky to catch a shooting star making it's way on the dark empty background. I made a wish, but I never wished for this.

I fell for this girl fast, faster than anyone before her, was that my mistake? I had to talk to her I had to see her or I just felt empty inside. There was only one problem, she was talking to another kid and was clearly not over her ex-boyfriend. Typically I hate that type of situation where I am the "other-guy" but it didn't matter I liked this girl and if someone asked me why I couldn't give them a answer. I admit I am not a saint but everything I did revolved around this girl for the longest time. Flowers on valentines day, even though I couldn't leave my bed because I was sick with step throat for a week. I even sent flowers when her grandmother passed away. Took her snowboarding, brought her to Philly for my birthday dinner and introduced her to my sisters and mother. No matter what I did it all comes down to what she said this April, I just want to be friends. Those words resonate in my head much like the bullet from the proverbial gun she put to my head, cocked and pulled the trigger. She doesn't know what she wants is what she said, I am not saying that I would make the perfect boyfriend but I would have done anything for her and she knew it. It started with a kiss and ended with "just being friends." Everyone says that the relationship is held in the hands of that who cares less, but in this war of who cares less she came with a gun while I was barely clinching my fists.

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My day today

Kinda mad I didn't get to go to see my friend today. I really wanted to its just not easy but I want to prove to her that I'm not gunna just forget about her and I'm really glad she's understanding to. If I disappointed her is actually be upset.

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